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If my unannounced leaving didn’t seem long enough, I’m making it longer (/hj)

Don’t get me wrong — I love making flags, y’know? For a young colourblind person, seeing people like my flags is a dream come true sometimes — but I also realised something that can make people, well, not like my flags, which isn’t what I want.

Dumber, younger me’s actions.

I was a dumb, angry and traumatised teen not knowing how to… act? And while people may have hurt me, me hurting them back wasn’t any better. I was problematic, even harmful, and like… that was fucked of me. And to anyone reading this who feels they deserve an apology from me, I’m sorry.

I did mess up, a lot, but me being traumatised or ND or whatever doesn’t excuse the fact that I have fucked up.

I need a break to really like… decide where I wanna be in life, y’know? I’m a legal adult now and I need to make up for past mistakes, and that’s why this post exists. I think being called problematic really opened my eyes. Use my flags, don’t use my flags — honestly it’s all the same to me, I just hope they help a few people who really connect with them.

You know, this flag was actually quite hard to make!

Okay so I asked for no more asks on this subject, and from here on out if I get any more asks the asker will be blocked for violating my boundaries — there’s everyone’s future warning

Second of all, please check my carrd since it updated something some of you might find very important

Drakogender: When you hoard/collect genders due to being neurodivergent. Can be used by anyone who is neurodivergent.

The colours are mainly what reminds me of dragons (red and gold, iridescent scales) so if this looks like another flag I’m sorry! That’s why there’s two flags, the rainbow one and the red and gold one!

I’ve never heard a term for this exeperience around before so I decided to make one, mainly for my friend to use! If this is a term that already exists, I’m sorry!

Bonus flag with the rainbow infinity symbol below

Luaingender: A gender that feels incomprehensible, unstable, shifting, or non-existent when you try to label it, but is very strong and prominent when you aren’t trying to label it

Masculine + Feminine variants under the read more

I, personally, don’t think my stance matters too much — given the host of the system is a gay man and I (Vincent) am a masc-aligned pan dude. I don’t think we really get a say on lesbian matters

But I want everyone to know bi/pan lesbians are welcome and accepted on my blog.

I’m happy to explain friend!

Endogenics, or endos, endo systems, etc — they are systems that say their systems did not form because of childhood trauma.

Some of the bad ones (but not all of them) use terms such as “system hopping”, “system reset” and other made up, impossible terms to abuse younger, newly found systems. Like myself at one point in time.

Some have even picked up the terms “sysmeds” and “traumascum” — directly comparing trauma survivors to transmeds/truscum.

Which is why I don’t want them interacting, because of past events the community as a whole triggers me and they won’t ever leave me alone about it. I’m actually endo-neutral, I believe they should have their own community and leave ours alone.

Okay so second time getting this ask so I feel like I need to expand from the first time I got an ask like this.

This is a flag blog, not a discourse blog. Please stop bringing me your syscourse.

I am a trauma surviour, and some of my bigger traumas included endogenic systems abusing me. If you don’t like that they trigger me because people in the community actively hurt me — too bad, you cannot control my triggers.

I am actually endo-neutral, and opt for communities that are different. So now you look dumb for assuming I’m anti-endo for not wanting endos to interact, which isn’t always the case. Just cause I don’t want people whos name is Ash to come near me doesn’t mean I’m anti-Ash

How’s this anon? My friends seemed to like it but I’d love to hear your take!