Keep your head up. Things do get better.

Ohhhh my gosh, yes. I knew it had to get larger soon, oh my gosh 704 pages of Aelin, Rowan, Aedion, Dorian, Chaol, Nesryn, Lysandra, Manon, Elide, Asterin, Maeve, Perrington, and hopefully silent assassins, my smol Ansel, my smol emo son Ren, and…

-it showed that someone can love you but not really care about you

-it shows you can love your captor

-it shows how abuse can make you blind to what is happening to you

-it shows that you cant stifle someone

Like:

• Strong female characters who literally don’t need men to save them

• REALISTIC ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION

• A MALE character who has been sexually abused and assaulted and suffers repercussions from it

• The first guy a girl meets is not her soulmate (i.e. realistic relationships)

• Depictions of both male and female abusers/abusive relationships

• FEMALE CHARACTERS ACTUALLY LOOKING OUT FOR OTHER FEMALE CHARACTERS

• Did I already mention badass women who could kick a man’s ass if she needed to?

Can you just picture Rowan screaming Aelin’s name in that part during Heir of Fire when she was fighting those valg princes? Can you just picture it? Because I can and it makes my little heart hurt to think about the sadness in his eyes or the way he can barely get her name out because he doesn’t want her to go… to leave him. 

Or can you picture the part in Heir of Fire when Aelin tells Rowan about her whole life, and when she starts crying, he wipes away her tears? Like…. Awwww. :’)

Or in Queen of Shadows when they FINALLY reunite and he just holds her and buries his head in her neck? Like it’s so obvious that he missed her more than life itself I don’t know why he even tries to cover it up. 

Or when she broke the blood oath for him and he fell to his knees when he did it, then ran to her and held her face and just whispered her name, like thats so emotional.

Or that the day he met her, his nightmares went away. And the she left, they came back.

OR when he went and awkwardly bought her chocolate for her birthday, and let her sneak a kiss on his cheek.

Or when he confessed to her that he missed her, and he kept saying sorry over and over, and couldn’t look at her.

Or when he saw the follower girl in Rifthold and just stared and said “I didn’t deserve her” and couldn’t talk for like, half an hour.

Or when him just being around made Aelin able to survive being with Arobynn, and Arobynn couldn’t get under her skin because of her and Rowan…who just sat there and stared at each other grinning, having silent conversations and being happy amidst turmoil. 

Or when he looked her in the eyes and said that if death were separating them, he would find a way to find her.

Or what about when he looked at her, and just said “Fireheart” for the first time?

Rowan whenever Lorcan is around:

Rowan when he see’s Aelin: 

Rowan when his territorial fae side comes out:

Rowan when Aelin had to have dinner with Arobynn: 

Rowan when Aelin asks if she can do something dangerous: