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korn is a liar and a murderer who pretends to be better, while gun is just as bad but doesn't bother pretending.

same with kinn who is a liar and a murderer who pretends to be better, but then there's vegas who wears his villainy on his sleeve.

It's easier to believe gun because deep down, we all know that he's the lesser of both evils. while gun sexually assaulted nampheung many years ago, korn has kept her locked up and drugged for a decade and we can only imagine what he did to her in that time. all the while pretending to are for her and her sons whom he let fend for themselves for years.

All week I've been planning on writing out a full episode analysis but the last few days have been unexpectedly rough mentally, so I'm just going to analyse the bathroom scene and see if any of it makes sense because my brain is a dumpster fire right now and this could all be rubbish. Yet again this is a beast of a post, I almost dread to think what a full episode analyse would look like. This show being what it is I'd say apply all trigger warnings just in case.

Vegas is once again being a creepy shit, while trying to come across as really nice and helpful. He's all for taking advantage of Porsche while he's intoxicated, which seems to be a theme I've got to say, now I've never read the novel and don't intend to but what is it with Vegas? Is he not capable of getting a willing partner so he's resorted to drugging people or preying on drunk people? I am really not liking that this prize parasite is supposedly the one for Pete but that's a tangent for another post I reckon.

So he's making a show of being helpful to Porsche, getting him out of his wet shirt and sort of half heartedly drying his chest off and kind of out of nowhere he kisses Porsche. Whose facial expression mimicked my words watching the episode, what the actual fuck. Porsche is drunk so he's not hiding any of his facial reactions at all, it's instantaneous discomfort and he's visibly confused because again for him this has come out of absolutely nowhere.

As well as the visual cues the viewers get of Porsches face, his body immediately responds, and not how Vegas wants it to. Porsche curls sideways and away from Vegas and his arm comes up between their necks and shoves outwards trying to gain enough distance to get a decent foothold. Vegas is pushing Porsche practically on top of that counter, it's a disadvantage but Porsche also brings one of his legs up between them as another barrier to Vegas. Literally everything about Porsche's body is screaming 'I do not want this' and while he's not yet at the point of fighting to get Vegas off of him, he's trying to show that the advance is unwanted. Normal people would read that reaction and back off while apologising profusely for the misunderstanding but we have already established that Vegas is a vile bastard and he keeps pushing that unwanted advance with complete abandon.

Thanks to Pete keeping Kinn updated on Vegas being overly friendly with Porsche, Kinn is already on his way while this whole bathroom scene starts. It's been a pretty tough transition for Kinn this episode, he's recovering from being shot, has had no choice but to lend Porsche out to the minor family, had a tense conversation with his father and he knows Vegas is making a play for Porsche so he's already angry before he gets to the bathroom. He storms in like a threatening storm, with the absolute boss energy to match it. He rips Vegas off of Porsche like his weight is nothing and throws him across the room courtesy of one hell of a deserved punch. Kinn's got his gun out and pointed at Vegas in seconds and I'm not gonna lie I really want someone, anyone I'm not picky, to shoot Vegas in the dick so I was a bit disappointed that didn't happen but you know I live in hope.

Kinn's voice from the second he entered that bathroom was probably the 'strongest' we've heard in this episode, you can audibly hear his rage and he's using that power in his voice to absolutely dominate everyone in that room and it visually works. Even Vegas, the creepy shit, isn't unaffected. Kinn is aware that Vegas wants everything that Kinn has, including his power and position so everything that Vegas has done is a subtle power play or has an element of it. Vegas responds to Kinn's command in that bathroom with as much disdain and helpless disrespect as he possibly could while having a loaded gun pointed at him, he slaps the gun away and consequently the hand with that all important ring on it (I absolutely wanted to call it the ring of power just because it makes me laugh), it's a not so subtle sign that he will listen for now but he's not afraid of Kinn and won't cower before his authority.

I found it really interesting that, had a fight broken out, it was equal man power with the exception of Porsche. So we have an enraged Kinn with two of his best bodyguards, god love those poor sods and the situations they end up in, and we have Vegas and two of his bodyguards. The positions they were in was quite awkward but also telling, Vegas didn't really have an opportunity of killing Kinn and escaping that room and likewise Kinn couldn't have shot Vegas without being at least injured by one of the bodyguards at his back.

Just going to take a minute to enjoy the absolute boss energy of Kinn to stand there with his back to two armed men who were not loyal to him and probably wouldn't have minded shooting him while his back was turned. There has been a lot of speculation on Kinn and his trust issues, including whether or not he trusts his bodyguards to keep him safe but we see here that he does, at least he trusts Pete and Pol enough to turn his back on armed possible assailants. Anyway back to my main thought process of all those armed people and if they started shooting each other. Even if Vegas had attempted to shoot Kinn, his bodyguards might be occupied with Kinn's but we can't forget about Porsche. Unarmed, half naked and intoxicated he might be but he is still a formidable opponent and Vegas knows that because Porsche fought him off, however brief it was, when Porsche was drugged and vulnerable and in that bathroom he's had time to start sobering up. Taking on that much risk, with that many guns in such a small vicinity would literally have been suicide for Vegas and you can see he comes to that conclusion just before he slaps Kinn's gun away, he's a creep and while I question his intelligence at times he is obviously risk aware and acts accordingly to save his own skin and he leaves.

Kinn, still in a rage, orders all bodyguards to leave. They've not even fully left before Kinn is crowding Porsche back into that counter and the mirror, noticeably Kinn is still angry and that's not helped by the fact that Porsche looks amused.

Kinn shouts in Porsche's face, because that's worked out so well for him before and it's not helped that what he shouts is automatic blame upon Porsche. "What the heck were you doing?" The background music here also changed to a more ominous sound, which matched the mood onscreen perfectly. Porsche reacts about as well as you'd expect after being unfairly blamed for the unwanted advancements of a parasite, sorry I mean man, and his stance is beginning to radiate defiance.

There was a lot of visual cues and body language with the bathroom scene and I can't adequately describe just how powerful and moving it made it. Take for instance Porsche, Kinn has just shouted at him and instead of shouting back he focuses on looking, really looking at Kinn's face. His eyes are flitting all over it because he's trying to get a read on Kinn and we see the confusion Porsche feels when he can't. The reason he can't is because this isn't the Kinn from the forest who became an open book to Porsche, or even the Kinn from earlier in the episode where he was making Porsche promise to return to him. No, this Kinn is the one who has been warned off, again, by papa Korn but Porsche doesn't know that. To Porsche, Kinn has shut him out for no reason beyond the situation they are now in and that gets Porsche's defiance and own irritation to the forefront and then Kinn repeats his question and slaps Porsche.

Once again proving that he is not willing to take Kinn's crap, Porsche with force shoves Kinn off of him. Also interesting to note that Porsche hit Kinn's left shoulder/chest area close to the bullet wound with zero hesitation or concern, it's absolutely savage and I approve. Porsche immediately snaps at Kinn that he's done nothing to warrant... Well any of it really because he's done nothing wrong and he's right to snap that Kinn never trusts him. Kinn helps his cause here by nodding along to the fact that he doesn't trust Porsche, give the man a gold star for sabotaging himself - he deserves it no contest.

Every word and action now is clearly coated in irritation from the both of them, you can practically feel the weight behind every charged word and they are about to get brutal. Porsche lands the first blow by telling Kinn to shoot him just like he shot his ex, the absolute stillness on Kinn's face for a second before it's wiped away by unadulterated violence is hair raising. That look on his face, while academically interesting, is visceral and alarming and yet Porsche doesn't even flinch. Throughout this scene we've seen Porsche's strength in himself, what he'll accept, what he won't and that not much living actually seems to scare him which has been commented on before. Kinn pushes Porsche even further into the counter and he's all tightly controlled rage but did anyone else notice where his hand landed on that counter? His thumb curls around his gun - a subtle sign of the violence in the air and the threat of who Kinn is and what he's willing to do.

What Kinn says next is vile, absolutely vile and honestly I was screaming profanities at him in my head so I had to watch it a few times to get over that initial reaction and analyse the scene. You can see by his expression that his words are a calculated move, they are designed to hurt Porsche to the full extent and Kinn knows Porsche. He knows that to hurt him he has to diminish his worth and value, not to himself because Porsche is too self assured for that, no he has to diminish his role in Kinn's life and that's just instant maximum damage. It's the hurt bomb to end all hurt bombs and Kinn knows that, that's why he says it and not because he believes it. Boy better not believe it or a bullets gonna get lodged somewhere painful. I genuinely think that a talent of Kinn's is to suss out weaknesses, whether in a person's character or as something that can be used against someone, he can find it and store it away until he has need of that knowledge and he can use it as a weapon and I don't think anyone in his life is safe from that, not his family and evidently not Porsche.

Feeling less than happy with Kinn myself, I cheered when Porsche slapped him and our boy wasn't holding back (as he shouldn't). In a move that wasnt intended as one Porsche snapped back with the most devastating of possible comebacks, 'I shouldn't have loved a crappy guy like you.' immediately he tries to walk away, not because of what he said but for the absolute hurt he is feeling. His expression was just breathtakingly devastated and so deeply hurt and the impression I got from his confession was that it was matter of fact. His word choice was quite telling 'loved' not 'love' I don't think that was accidental at all but a sign he was already compartmentalizing it, he was already turning his hurt inwards and walling it off whether to protect himself and/or begin processing his hurt. Yes he loves Kinn but he's not going to put up with his appalling behaviour nor is he willing to be walked all over just because he feels love for Kinn. Porsche values himself even if others don't, that sort of behaviour from Kinn is devaluation at best and Porsche knows his own boundaries and he sticks by them. Porsche is fully prepared to walk away and hes not afraid to show Kinn that, it's like he's saying 'yes I love you but I can walk away and one day I'll stop loving you'.

Kinn grabs Porsche before he can leave and in a move all too reminiscent of his creepy cousin, he crowds Porsche against the wall. Again. Porsche's body language and the position he ends up in, is also like with Vegas when he was uncomfortable and wanted out. He's turned away from Kinn and he's even hugging his arms to his chest. Part of it is also defiance, sure Kinn's got him pinned but that doesn't mean he has to look at him. You see Kinn's expression as he realises that too, his face just crumples in on itself -hes fucked up and he knows it. He can probably remember what it was like before to lose Porsche's trust and his willingness to share his happiness with those around him, to be shut out by Porsche is to lose all the joy and light he brings to those around him. Yet again Kinn is faced with a Porsche that is hurt because of him and that destroys whatever leftover anger/jealousy Kinn has. Now he has to try and find a way of reaching Porsche who has closed himself off and who won't even look at him and who doesn't want to be there in that room with Kinn anymore.

I noted that Porsche was still breathing really heavily, he's emotionally in pain and very possibly still angry, you can hear his breathing right up until Kinn issues his very sincere and soft apology. As soon as he does, Porsche's breathing levels off and becomes calmer and quieter. The music for that apology scene and the defeated/devastated look on Kinn's face was just absolutely masterful, there aren't words for that ability to grab at the audience and really make them feel every bit of emotion possible.

Kinn nuzzling at Porsche shouldn't have been sweet but by god it was, it was just the sweetest thing. Porsche though seemed somewhat unaffected, his eyes were open but he didn't really seem very present - maybe he was thinking it all through because he came back to himself when Kinn nuzzled his ear. That got a reaction, he immediately closed his eyes and his body relaxed and he turned around to face Kinn. He looked so sad here and slightly resigned, like he's just realised this is probably going to be an ongoing thing with them in the future, I wanted to give him blankets and ice cream and maybe pat him on the head a bit.

Kinn was scanning Porsche's face like he's never seen him before because he wants and needs confirmation that Porsche meant what he said, all while Porsche is looking at him unimpressed like 'yeah I love you, so what'.

I'm going to be honest I was a little unsure about the sex scene at first. When Kinn was kissing Porsche's body, Porsche didn't really seem all that on board with the idea. He was passive, allowing the touch but not engaging until Kinn kissed him, he returned the kiss and got some control back by grabbing Kinn's neck pushing him back and scanning his face. Again trying to read Kinn and this time Kinn is an open book. I just want to celebrate the little nod Kinn gave, with their past sexual encounters I think it was super important for that little check in of consent, from both of them. If for no other reason, than consent being imperative, than once again Kinn is stone cold sober while Porsche is... Well not. He's sobering up but he's still still under the influence. I really liked that once consent was given, Porsche went from gripping Kinn's neck to cupping his face with both hands and drawing him in for a soft, unhurried kiss.

I'm not going to comment on the sex scene itself, for reasons that aren't at all to with awkwardness at analysing it.

age: 30-35 height: 6’0 gender: male sexuality: gay ailments: control/trust issues. a bit of narcissism.

I came across so many meta posts about how the bathroom scene is about their love and how they are attracted to each other and I mean- yeah, maybe, but Kinn fucking sucks qbduandjbq This is the third time he kisses and second time he has sex with Porsche when he's not sober, he is dumb jealous/possessive and he had actually screamed and slapped Porsche just a little before.

I've seen so many people saying Porsche recoiled into himself when Kin went back to him and one that they move together, Kinn keeping Porsche close because he can't be alone and, again, I guess it's true, but we can all agree pulling someone and pinning them against a wall against their will is *not* romantic, right? I'm sure the Tawan thing will turn out to be something else, but he didn't explain it and went straight into sex, which, again, not ideal. Their relationship is all fucked up.

I like a little flavor in my ships. I like some toxicity thrown in, just as a treat, you know? I find "healthy" ships to be boring for the most part. Mostly because it's too easy, if that makes sense to you. There are no trials and tribulations that they have to overcome so their relationship is smooth sailing the entire time, and that's hella unrealistic.

Most shows don't know how to write healthy ships and keep them interesting at the same time. They have to pick a lane and they always pick the wrong one. Either they keep the ship healthy but it's so boring that no one gives a fuck about it or they keep including contrived drama that makes no sense whatsoever and it ends up ruining the ship altogether. Either way, we all lose.

If you ask me what my favorite relationship trope is, I love the obsessive and possessive. For example, Sib/Gene from Lovely Writer is a favorite ship of mine, yeah? But I can't stop thinking about the untapped potential that they had. The writers could have made Sib a helluva lot darker than he was and I wanted that. Sib was downright obsessed with and possessive over Gene, but they kept the show so bubblegum pop that we never got a chance to dive deeper into the darkness. The shit that Sib did was WILD and creepy but I was into it. If you've ever seen that series, then you know exactly what I'm talking about. They wanted to keep it sanitized and clean, but that show could have definitely made him darker.

I just can't stop with this sorry, it's been years since I had anything I wanted to meta about.

The only power Porsche has is love. That's it. Porsche's power is entirely and inherently held in the love they share.

Which means that all the power he has is given by Kinn and in the relationship.

Because what would Porsche do if Kinn said he wasn't breaking up with him? He can't leave. He can't escape. He's stuck here. He's employed by the literal mafia. Even if he runs away... Kinn has a literal army of bodyguards at his disposal.

If Porsche said he didn't want to go out with Kinn and Kinn wasn't willing to give him up, he could literally lock him in the cell and go 'love me or die here alone' and Porsche would have nothing.

I think about this a lot.

But Kinn does value love.

Kinn does value Porsche. We saw that in his apology, he see that in his demonstrations of love. He might not trust him because frankly he's a mafia leader who shouldn't trust people easily.

But he loves Porsche.

And he wouldn't do that.

But... he could.

And I think about that a lot.

Porsche's power in their relationship is entirely based in the loved that Kinn gives him and how Kinn values that love. Without that?

Without that, Porsche has nothing.

Kinn could do whatever he wanted. Kinn could lock him away forever, have him killed, keep him captured, tell him to love him or never see his brother again, kill his brother, imprison his brother... and Porsche could only beg for mercy.

Porsche only has love for power.

And he's not going to wield it because he doesn't see love that way.

Honestly, I don't actually think that Kinn will grovel. I want it, but I don't think he will. I don't think he can. That's just not the story we're gonna get.

I want it so badly, though.

In celebration of the 2 year anniversary, here is an avalanche of Kinn/Porsche fics that I've enjoyed. Painfully incomplete & posted in no particular order. My shipping interests are 100% focused on the K/P couple and that will be reflected in my list, sorry 😘.

Deep Like a Coastal Shelf by Lilla_Torg

(79,000 words) Green Arrow inspired AU. "After five years abroad, Kinn Theerapanyakul returns to find his city under siege by a vigilante known as the Phoenix."

Stain of Sun by Lilla_Torg

(78,000 words) Omega brothers Porsche (hacker) and Chay (grifter) team up to take down the Theerapanyakul crime family. Things do not go as planned. // This marries A/B/O with mutant powers. As long as you're not wholly opposed to Omegaverse, give it a chance. Every one of this author's long KPtS fics is a banger.

Pouring Down Crimson Fire by Lilla_Torg

(119,000 words) Sort of a mutant AU but honestly that underplays how fucking cool this fic is. “I think you know something about keeping secrets,” said Kinn. He flashed Porsche a pocket-ace smirk. “You’re mine. Say it.”

The boy he’d been fourteen years ago would have told him where to shove it. But Porsche had been around long enough to know that the mafia always won. Still, he looked around, searching for a way out, before giving up and turning back to Kinn, those black eyes awaiting his surrender.

“I’m yours,” he said.

a perpetual unscattering by concernedlily

(31,000 words) Canon-divergence AU. “Pissing in bottles behind a cocktail bar,” Kinn said. “But Pa gave him to me, so I’m stuck with him.” To a visibly furious Porsche he said, “You don’t know the minor family? Never come across any of them before?”

“How would I know the fucking minor family?” Porsche snapped.

what a tangled web we weave by fortunehasgivenup

(80,000 words) 1000 Nights inspired alternate universe, fantasy-historical Thailand. // After the betrayal of his first husband, King Anakinn Theerapanyakul vows to never love again. Once a week, he takes a new husband, a young man who will not live to see another dawn.

When a nobleman comes to find a young man to adopt and marry off to the king in place of his own son, Thee chooses Chay.

Faced with an outcome that he refuses to contemplate, Porsche steps in and takes Chay's place. He only has one request for the king - to be allowed to tell his brother one last bedtime story.

Burn Your Name Into My Skin by Everyforkedroad

(72,000 words) In which Kinn visits a high-end sex club and he & Porsche meet under the guise of anonymity for what should be a 1 night encounter. Except not only are they intensely drawn together... things are not what they seem.

Salt by ronandhermy

(49,000 words) Sweat stings because the salt is purifying. Porsche may be in high school but he is still a National Champion in Taekwondo and he catches the eye of the national team's newest sponsor: The Theerapanyakun Family. Alternate first meeting. Leans into the darkness of canon, read the tags and proceed w caution.

how do you like it, daddy by Baby_Droll

(28,000 words) "and ain't shit 'bout me cheap and ain't shit 'bout me free" - our lord and savior, florence millicent. kinn & porsche, and all the other pieces on their fucked up chess board. a sugar baby/daddy au with an omegaverse twist. // This is a dark reimagining alternate universe. Iconic toxic K/P fic.

two shots by Martynax

(81,000 words) AU, different first meeting. Porsche joined the armed forces & became a hired gun. // “So I’m supposed to end a mafia dispute?”

“Something like that,” he mutters, wondering if he’s making a mistake, revealing it to Porsche so soon. Nothing is set in stone, after all. But he has a gut feeling that the man appreciates honesty and simplicity much more than intrigue and schemes.

be the best you ever tasted by Martynax

(90,000 words) an AU where Porsche's life is shit so he shakes his perky little bum for strangers at a strip club and Kinn books him for a private show. Porsche doesn't fuck customers and shouldn't get associated with whatever grey business his boss is trying to run out of the club. But... you know how this is gonna go.

between the sheets by DasWarSchonKaputt

(70,000 words) “And who’s that?”

“Oh. That’s Porsche. He’s Khun Kinn’s live-in boytoy. He’s harmless, mostly. Just a pretty face.”

A boyfriend can go so many places a bodyguard can’t. As the threat of a potential leak in their security forces looms large, Khun Korn hatches a plot to place an added layer of protection around his heir presumptive. Enter Porsche, former bartender, current bodyguard, and reluctant fake boyfriend of Kinn Theerapanyakul.

Stumbling to the Edge by FireRisingOverTheHills

(51,000 words) Of the genre of KP fics where Kinn and Porsche meet-cute in a random bar encounter, instead of a meet-ugly, this one is my fav. I just really enjoy the Kinn PoV with his what?! is?! happening??? vibes as he finds himself irresistibly drawn to someone who doesn't fit neatly into defined roles.

"He makes this all seem like it’s perfectly normal and Kinn is helpless to do anything but go along with it."

Whatever Else that Touches You by technicallyverycowboy

(9,330 words) Tender established relationship and bisexual self discovery, post canon. // "No, it's fine." Porsche shifts to be a little less plastered against Kinn's side, straightens his shoulders and smooths out his jacket with great dignity. "The answer to your question is yes, I have really never been with any other men."  Porsche answers questions, asks some of his own, tries new things, and fills in the knowledge gaps of his own sexuality.

An Elegant Mechanism by Laughsalot3412

(87,000 words) A/B/O AU, Kim centric with some background K/P and dysfunctional brothers & cousin bonding. The only fic on this list that isn't K/P primary. //  "Kim was only an omega when he was luring people closer to his gun. No one had to give Kim a weapon. He was one.  (Kim's mission is to get close to Porchay Kittisawat. Chay is not a typical alpha. Kim is not a typical omega. Kim isn't having feelings and Chay is going to be so normal about all of this.)"

Love and Violence by thewayside

(9,500 words) Beautifully written, post ep 14. // "Love and violence have always been bedfellows for Kinn. Down to how his first proper relationship ended in a pool of blood. Porsche’s beauty might have drawn him in, but he knows in his gut that he met someone in kind that first night, blood coursing through their veins as the fight ended and Porsche led him onto a bike to a road he barely knew."

Burnished night, blood-soaked stars by The_Old_Astronomer

(13,000 words) Missing scene set between the end of episode 6 and the side story (pre-ep 7). Porsche fights to keep Kinn alive after the attack, and gradually realises how much the other man means to him.

Night Call by vesna (mrsronweasley)

(34,500 words) "On Kinn's birthday, Kinn is dragged by Tae and Time to a strip club, where he gets a private dance from a man who calls himself Jom. Kinn is smitten. Things spin out from there." Canon AU, where Porsche became a stripper because bartending wasn't paying enough.

NFWMB by vesna (mrsronweasley)

(18,700 words) There's a rushing in Kinn's ears, a noise he can't shake. It almost makes him miss the next thing Arm tells him. "He was supposed to check in, as per protocol, but—"  "But what," Kinn snaps. A headache is building behind one of his eyes.  Arm's eyes are wide right before he lowers them and says, "He hasn't been heard from in two and a half hours."  Or, post-canon Porsche is kidnapped. Kinn goes through it.

Caught Off Guard by Altered_Ego

(23,000 words) The one where Porsche is one of his escort's bodyguard. Alternate first meeting; Porsche took another path to support his brother.

the less i know the better by mslunita

(45,000 words) Bored Kinn joins Tinder in hopes of getting his rocks off with a different kind of guy, instead of the standard escorts. Porsche challenges him in just the right way. // Alternate first meeting. Basically their canon selves, but this is after Porsche has already had his bi awakening.

XXX curious STRAIGHT boy BEGS for COCK for the FIRST TIME XXX by mirrorofprinces

(35,000 words ) Porn industry AU. “Porsche is extremely close to signing. In fact, he has a final meeting with the execs on Monday morning. The only condition is that he wants to request his first partner, and it’s you.”  Kinn takes a long drink of his whiskey, sets the glass down, and runs his tongue over his teeth. “So you had to meet with me, urgently, to tell me that a beautiful boy wants me to fuck him, thinking I’d say no.” He drums his fingers on the bartop. “Which means there’s a catch.”

paint my kiss across your chest (your touch is like a happy pill) by darkknight

(16,000 words) Episode 8 era. "Porsche discovers different new ways of how good sex can feel, ways that would never even have crossed his mind before meeting Kinn."

quis custodiet ipsos custode by concernedlily

(8,600 words) Porsche being on dangerous missions and Kinn discovering he has Feelings About That. Missing scenes and Post Ep 14.

Wing of a Butterfly by Kalere

I just want to know why in this context people are mad at Kinn for lashing out in that way?

Let’s see:

Pete is recounting what’s happening to Kinn, and over romanticizing the situation.

Kinn is on his way, with the worst case scenario on his mind about the man he’s in love with.

Kinn walks in, Porsche is SHIRTLESS, with Vegas all over him.

What was Kinn SUPPOSED to feel? Other than anger and disgust? And THEN he confronts Porsche, based on what he’s seen and been told and has his ex brought up AGAIN as a gotcha moment by the man he’s opening his heart to. The man that he hasn’t told about the situation yet and is still throwing it in his face?

I’m gonna be real, at this point y’all just hate Kinn cause I personally would’ve said worse with the combination of emotions he was probably feeling…

Like I get Kinn’s point of view and I think a lot of people do understand his anger. His anger is justifiable given what he thought was true based on what Pete said and what Kinn saw. The issue, for me at least, is how he chose to act out his anger. How Kinn chose to confront Porsche, not that Kinn was angry or some expectation that he shouldn’t have been angry…. And frankly, Kinn knew he fckd up too cause when Porsche was ready to walk away from that situation and give up, Kinn folded like origami and apologized.

And the irony that all this happens at the same time Vegas finally, willingly, swings open the door to Pete’s cage …

I already wrote a tag novel on this but I can't get this scene out of my mind & it deserves a deep-dive, so- buckle up, kids.

the heartwrench started in earnest when Vegas stormed out of the bathroom and Kinn turned to- or on to- Porsche. look at the small but striking journey Porsche's expressions go through here:

I'm praying to the BL gods that we get some BTS commentary on this moment in particular because there's so much that could be happening with Porsche here.

maybe in his tipsiness he was just happy to have Kinn there before the reality of Kinn's rage hit him. maybe it was some of that gleeful sass in response to Kinn's jealousy that we saw earlier in the ep.

or it could have a darker meaning: is that little smile a knowing one? a confirmation of the doubts about Kinn's sincerity/intentions that have been brewing in Porsche since he found out about Tawan?

regardless, all are loaded/potentially devastating possibilities.

Kinn and Porsche then exchange slaps and verbal barbs, but it's much more than the sum of its parts. they both have so many fears, insecurities and lack of trust in each other (and themselves, too) that they've been carrying around since this intoxicating, terrifying thing between them started.

the powder keg was already loaded & ready to explode- the altercation with Vegas was just the spark that lit it.

I'm glazing over the rest of the argument to the aftermath because that's where things really get narratively delicious. I've always been a sucker for a good chase- the idea that someone not just wants but needs you to the extent that they'd pursue you- and Kinn's desperate need for Porsche to stay with him is on full, aggressive display here.

he moves so quickly after Porsche that it comes off as an instinct, not an intentional choice- a magnet chasing its opposite polarity.

There is obviously much more to be said about that last scene, but I find it interesting how Kinn puts himself in the dominant position–constantly putting himself above Porsche, caging him between his arms–up until Porsche slaps him. Then he naturally (and what looks to be subconsciously) looks up at Porsche for the rest of the scene. I think the majority of it is motivated by his mistake/wanting to prove how sorry he is. But I also think part of it is a reflection of the guilt he showed last episode. He took advantage of Porsche when he was unable to properly consent once before, but he’s giving Porsche all the control here. When Porsche turns around to look at him, Kinn’s still got his arms on either side of him, but it no longer feels like he’s forcibly caging him in; the motion conveys something gentler. It’s as if he’s pleading with him not to leave, to understand all the baggage he carries, and even though they haven’t worked through these trust issues, what happens after conveys all the desperation and vulnerability they feel with each other–perhaps more than the words ever could. Not to say that they don’t need to have an actual conversation about their issues, but in the heat of the moment, I think the mood change transitioned nicely.

Here, we see them face to face, height to height. No one is looking up at the other. This is just before Kinn puts himself in a lower position. The most vulnerable position he could possibly be in, a position he probably hasn’t allowed himself to occupy since Tawan (or, dare I say, maybe ever).

And that golden light shining through the back, overcoming the green warning light pervading the scene? The way it illuminates the space between them as they meet each other’s eyes?? The way their gazes search every part of each other’s expression, taking it all in??? There’s an understanding there.

They will doubtlessly exchange more harsh words with each other before the season is over, but in my opinion, this moment where they look at each other is proof that they will be able to overcome it all. 

I honestly believe that Vegas is becoming interested romantically in Porsche. And not because of Kinn is also interested in Porsche and Vegas wants to stick it to Kinn.

But Vegas is clearly emotionally and intimacy starved, probably the only love he genuinely receives from another person is his little brother Macau. But Kun treats his son like garbage I’m assuming one of the reasons being because Vegas is gay.

I also don’t think show Vegas planned to raped Porsche. More like he wanted to inspect Porsche closer to probably see what all the fuss was about. But also to let Kinn know that someone else had touched Porsche before him. So it was still an assault, but I think he intended something else than forcing himself onto Porsche.

I’m getting off track…ok back to my point of this post.

post-canon - kinnporsche / bathroom sex

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“More,” Porsche gasps, the single word raw and weighted as it settles between them. 

They’re in a bathroom, tucked away at the back of the restaurant they decided to visit for dinner. Their night was only supposed to consist of a meal, maybe a few drinks, and dessert if they were feeling like something sweeter, but instead - 

That said.

In real life, if I knew a 23-year-old man who had begun having an affair with his 30-year-old employer, a man whose wealth and power are light years beyond anything that young man has ever experienced —

If I heard that that wealthy, powerful man had moved his younger boyfriend into his home — that Porsche had effectively lost his job to become a full-time trophy boyfriend, removing him both from his connections to the outside world AND his source of independent income —

That, furthermore, said rich boyfriend had moved my young friend’s teenage brother into the house as a convenient hostage companion for Porsche, further isolating them both —

That this man had slapped him, called him a whore on more than one occasion, that this man had actually murdered his ex-boyfriend (or thought he did, which is the same) —

I would say to him: This man will kill you.

I would say to him: Run.

Porsche, run.

This is actually one thing I find so fascinating about their relationship; that “your life belongs to me” element hasn’t gone away, even as their feelings for each other have deepened. Like I said, I believe Kinn has only the best intentions for Porsche and wants to take good care of him. I even believe that Kinn would let him go, if he wanted to go (we’ve seen that he would, a couple times now). But Porsche’s well-being is entirely dependent on that being the case, and if that changed there would be very little he could do about that. As the boyfriend he has even less power than he did as the bodyguard.

Porsche is in danger from Kinn, in ways that Kinn can’t even see from his position of power and privilege (I think Porsche can see some of it — his discomfort during the “do you love Kinn” confrontation with Korn et al indicates that he does — but maybe not the full extent of it). Now that their relationship is public, Porsche is also in danger in ways that Kinn understands a lot better than Porsche does, because of Kinn’s position in the mob world, which Kinn of course has a much deeper understanding of than Porsche possibly could (I think we’re going to see more of the latter in the next couple episodes).