Here For The Romance

So what do we think? Real or a filthy figment of Jane's diseased imagination?

There's absolute terror in his eyes. Seriously, what does he think Jay's plan is? He can't think Jay is about to kill him. I mean, Jay is looking at him in a cold and pitiless fashion

I too would be quite frightened if my Dom was looking at me like that, especially if I knew that s/he was a sadist. I suppose it's the unknown that scares him so much. Their relationship is frustratingly unnegotiated(standard disclaimer that if you're going to practice kink, always, ALWAYS, negotiate, don't do it like these two), so Sun has no real way of knowing how far Jay might take this.

I will say, it's notable to me that, despite Sun's resistance and fear of what Jay might do, he doesn't go to the lengths that he could to stop Jay, even with his stab wound. I find it highly unlikely that there would be no stronger actions for him to take in order to prevent someone from using a knife on him in that moment. He has a whole other uninjured arm that he isn't using to push Jay off of him.

Seriously, he could absolutely use his other arm to fight against Jay more effectively, but he doesn't. It's clear that, at this point, Sun ultimately feels that Jay has a right to do as he wishes to Sun. Sun might beg and plead and struggle some, but he won't ultimately try to stop Jay from punishing him. The main weapon he uses, at least in that moment, is this:

Which, as I think we all know at this point, will only be a goad to Jay's appetite

So watching him come full circle coming to terms with how although what he went through felt like a world ending stance for the longest time. It was because he chose to keep living he was able to still meet some really beautiful people who genuinely care for him and empathetically feel for him (sky kajorn jo).

"If it's someone who can feel love even for just a little then you have the right to have the reason to live" as he runs right into Jay's arms like that was everything! These two people lost very important people in their life and yet they're still here. They have found each other and then and now.

Watching him also come to the realization that it was Jay then the same person he cried into the arms of the same person who didn't even ask him why he was crying he just held him. The same person who is now helping him while he has gone through his own tragedy and is still trying to rectify everything himself for his own purpose in life.

The fact that these very two people who have face such horrible tragedies at the expense of other people's actions. Were able to not only confide in each other but feel liberated with each other. It all just felt so right and they both really were naked in the sense of not just their bodies! but everything was on display the feelings the pent-up emotions that sun has been concealing because he felt like he didn't deserve to feel anything. It was all just so beautiful and the tear that came out of him!

“tin chose phob over everything else in his life, while phob chose his dream of an equal society over tin”. it sounds so simple if we put it like that, so clear cut. black and white.

during the years they were apart, tin was basically sleepwalking through life. he did what he was told, attended the parties he was told to attend. he had no sense of purpose in his life. and then phob returned, and he gave him a purpose: being together. so tin is ready to give up his family, his access to wealth, and his job, but what is he actually giving up? a brother who is violent and erratic, a father who’s love has always come at a cost, and one very sweet grandmother. a job he doesn’t like and doesn’t care about. as for the wealth, he has no real sense of what it means to give that up. he’s never been without it, he doesn’t actually understand the reality of it. and let’s be clear: he’s not running away with phob the servant; he’s running away with phob the military captain, who's rented him a big beautiful house with a garden for them to plant cotton roses. he’s leaving the palace for a house bigger than most people’s houses.

what about phob? phob grew up in servitude. even though he had a certain level of privilege because he was granted access to education (granted being the key word here) and was, for a time, treated well, he was still kneeling on the floor next to the royals' chairs, always reminded of his place. he’s been beaten by vasin, attacked with a knife, he’s seen people starving. he actually knows what it means to struggle, and that some people struggle their whole lives while some are sheltered from all of it. his intimate knowledge of unequality means that he has long had a sense of purpose in his life. his education abroad, his career, all of it has meaning to him because it is all in service of his desire to bring equality to his people and to himself be seen as an equal. and of course part of that, at the core, comes from his desire to specifically be seen as equal to tin, but his sense of purpose goes well beyond his relationship with tin.

The Edge of Horizon // Episode 4