little miss me

Just to let someone else do the exact same things, in the exact same way that he did....

I told you what he did, all of it, for you to make it a challenge to be just as bad, if not worse.

I truly feel unlovable and undeserving. I feel used. I feel empty. Im angry and im fucking tired of being angry.

I dont feel like I even know who I am anymore. I dont recognize that girl starring back at me in the mirror. To be quite honest, I absolutely hate the person I see. Every single thing about me.

My looks. My kind heart. My heart on my sleeve. My anxiety. The depression. The fear. The bipolar depression. The post partom depression. The constant battle with health physically. The constant battle within with health. The constant battle within with my demons. With everyone else's demons. The raging emotions & feelings building and building..

I feel so broken down. That every piece of me i built back up, is no longer in even glimpse of sight. I feel lost.

But what does any of those stupid emotions or feelings even matter?

...

They dont. Because they aren't "facts". They aren't important. They dont really exist. Its just something wrong make up...