“I beg you to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.”

but my head is full of poison and my heart is full of doubt I got toxins in my bloodstream you tried hard to suck them out and it feels like medication and it's good for me I’m sure but it don't matter how your love feels anymore it’ll never be the cure

finally saying no to people without feeling guilty