possibly (ironically) made this post before, but murderbot really cptsd rep of all time for the memory wipes. you do not have to remember it for it to have shaped you. you needed to Leave and you do not know why. something was dangerous. something hurt. the body remembers, the body keeps the score, and you don't want the specifics but maybe you do, sometimes, maybe you want to be able to brace for the flinch. your long list of things you have inferred happened based on the shapes of your scars. ask me how i know this would hurt like this. (do not ask me. i cannot tell you.) (i cannot tell myself.) (this message is a warning about danger. this place is best left shunned and uninhabited.)






















