collecting connections

This morning, in a sleepy state, I read my card of the day. The Ace of Swords, reversed: Clarity, balanced mind, precise thoughts. Time for organizing, planning, making decisions I’ve been putting off. This card suggests an epiphany about a matter in which I didn’t know what to do, a realization of how to make something manifest. Since the card is reversed, I’m feeling it directed, quite…

for the haters in my circle

There’s this whole thing about how the internet isn’t real. I get it. If you remove the internet from our lives, it doesn’t effectively change who we are. But it is a real extension of ourselves. It’s our knowledge and connection. It’s lots of invisible things that are really important to us in some way, individually, or collectively. So it’s not really separate. We can’t treat it like it doesn’t…

Reflections on films, and my current state.

My mother and I have been doing this #moviemonday date lately. It’s discount and free popcorn day at the theater closest to us. It’s really nice to go out with her and do something fun – considering most of the things we’ve been doing are the absolute opposite. Let me be clear- I love the magic of escaping to another world in a book or a movie or other work of art. I enjoy the perspective I gain…

Recently, I realized that people close to me view my vocalization about Fibromyalgia negatively. This brings up a whole lot of things I wish people would understand. The first is how this hurts – that you don’t understand, and are passing judgement. As far as not passing judgement, and trying to understand, I know people can be uncomfortable in regard to witnessing others’ feelings. Please know…

Yin Yoga: Hip Sequence

I was in SO much pain this morning, everything was so tight. I knew I needed to find something different to really stretch those tight side/back/hip muscles. Smart phones + pinterest are amazing things. In under a minute, I had a good looking sequence to try out – the pictures and descriptions seemed easy enough to figure out. The first part is similar to what I usually work through, but getting…

weiging in on ignorance and insidious prejudice

I’m ever frustrated by the embracement of ignorance that seems so popular in this culture. When I look at why, it’s because it happens little by little, and the small transgressions all add up, but there is desperate refusal to look at the picture that’s created. Education is the key to fixing anything. I really can’t come up with easier solutions. Education is something I have always embraced,…

Solitude is more important than we give credit. It’s something most of us are missing so much that we don’t even know what it is that we crave. Solitude is where we can just be, where we are true, where there is no judgement or expectation. Everyone seems so concerned with being busy, as though the busiest person wins. Busy is overrated. Busywork always annoyed me as a child in school. I wanted…

“Will the flood behind me, put out the fire inside me?” No music seems to contemplate the eternal struggles of my existence so much as that by AFI. I have felt this so deeply, so many times. Feeling everything so deeply, in fact, that you wonder if it will swallow you whole and you’ll just cease to exist? Will the vast mass of tedious and hurtful bits, the mundane and apathetic, become too much?…

on staying wild and true

Like many introverts, my inner world is deep and well developed. I see myself as that person. I think that others see glimpses of me. They know certain things, have a sense of others…but I realize that I do not present, always, as deeply as I exist. I think the reason people come to me in times of crisis, is because this is where I live – a place where everything holds importance – I am not a…

Beautiful Rugged – BOOK REVIEW

I love a book I can just pick up and get totally immersed in. Sara V. Zook is one of those authors I can trust to deliver a good read, so I was excited to get my hands on a copy of Beautiful Rugged. If you haven’t read her other books yet, you can get them here. This one only took me a couple hours, as easy to read as to watch an enticing romance flick. In fact, if it were a film, here are my…

favorite playlist – deep dark indie

Need some hauntingly beautiful melodies to vibe with your melancholic mood? A few of my favorites on the list are: Arsonist’s Lullaby by Hozier | Come Find Me by Emile Hainie, Lykki Li, & Romy | Depraved by Mammals | Don’t Wanna Be Your Girl by Wet | Station by Lapsley | Waiting Game by Banks https://open.spotify.com/user/spotify/playlist/69H6RgTVs1jrv1IuuLe1a5

loss is deep, but love is exponential

My nephew passed away today. He was 3.  He had a lot of complications throughout his short life – but you know what was completely uncomplicated? All the love. My niece sat in my lap and read this to me today. It’s a beautiful book, and while it was to help her and her brother with understanding, it was comforting to me as well. I am so proud of them all for the family that they are, and blessed…

accepting pain and the unknown

It happened again this morning. I was thinking about working from a coffee shop today. Sounds easy enough, right? Not when you’re chronically ill, and highly sensitive. You have to consider a lot of things that other people don’t. Like, I typically like coffee shop environments. They’re made to be comfortable, and workable. The ambiance is something I can work with for a while. I was thinking of…

in the loop, with this photo sharing device

I love innovative ways to share photos. They’re all about connection and memory, and in this age of digital photography, where everyone takes photos, but I feel like no one sees them ever again, we need some better ways to share them! https://secret.joinloop.com/?referral=15f6703b&src=referral&utm_source=queueat.com&utm_medium=referral&utm_campaign=15f6703b I’d love to try one of these out ASAP.…

I came across an easy way to add color and comfort with these bright throw blankets from society6.

I’m also thinking about painting a wall, and getting some new candles – and we’ve still got a long winter ahead. What kinds of things do you fellow sensitives do to create comfort and warmth in your environments?