OH SHIT!

the thing abt being so drawn to a character that virtually nobody else cares about in a similar way or intensity is that u look around and as the only one there, it feels like ur doing something incorrectly like theres a reason why ur the only one standing there. and it implements feelings of doubt or shyness or 'cringe' as if its shameful; its actually kind of beautiful to let it free and to be the Guy known for it or one ofthem, others opinions shouldnt matter and im just doing what happens to make me happy and motivated in any forme that i direly need rn so it shouldnt matter. but osmetimes it feels like it does and im like mannnnnnnn. like i feel bad asking ppl to draw him cuz they wouldnt normaly for any other reason yk