Trying to attend anything in public just has me butting against the fact that being tma sucks. Yeah, that hema thing looks cool, how do they feel about trans women? Yeah, the trivia at the lesbian bar looks cool, so like their thoughts on trans women? Oh, that lesbian rave looks awesome, so about the trans women? Just, fundamentally unsure if I will even be allowed to exist in this space, and if I am will I be interacted with? Will I be the pariah desperate for attention but relegated to standing awkwardly in the corner or alone at the bar?
“You can’t let other people’s opinions dictate your life” and the “opinions” in question are people saying I should be stabbed in a city where a woman was stabbed 40 times for being like me.
Like we all WISH this was a “be yourself” issue but its not. It’s a “I don’t want to be hate crimed” issue.
girls i say this with love as a trans woman recovering from agoraphobia: this is agoraphobia.
you are 1000x more likely to die of homelessness downstream of transmisogynist employment discrimination, than to be killed or maimed in a violent attack. you are near certain to get yelled at and harassed every once in a while, but those people are trying to intimidate you into staying home even though they don't actually have the stomach to do the violence themselves. they're paper tigers.
being disconnected from the social fabric is more dangerous to trans women than keeping ourselves in the fabric and dealing with the abuse. staying home is slowly killing ourselves by ensuring we have no real supports. so society tries to put us in this agoraphobic mindset, to kill us.
[insert disclaimer to ward off the first person to "um, actually" about disabled people who can't leave the house: yes they exist, yes everything i just said still applies, society is slowly killing disabled people on purpose, that's what institutional ableism is.]























