talkativemess

People talk about love at first sight - I don't even remember when I first saw you, I don't remember our first conversation or even how you became a part of my life. You just appeared out of nowhere and I accepted you and you accepted me. Relationships are constant work but we didn't have to try. It came easy to us. We joked, we laughed and we talked. We talked of nothing meaningful just vacant words floating around in air. But you somehow made me feel heard and it somehow became a habit. And those are the moments I missed the most - me telling you a story and you laughing bringing everyone's attention towards us.

I don't want to meet you again, for I don't want to find out how your presence would make me feel. Would I still linger by your side just to catch you smile or I would pass by you like a stranger. I don't want to do either of them.

I'll never know how you felt about me but you should know and I want you to know - I loved you. I loved you enough to think about you everyday, I loved you enough to cry about you everyday and when we fell apart I loved you enough to blame myself everyday.

Just know I don't think any ill of you but I don't admire you either. All I can say that you are a celebrated part of my life even if sometimes with tears instead of fireworks.

Dearest from Vita's perspective:

She writes of love and longing,

Of pain and grief,

And of desire and want.

I see her on the days the sun forgets to burn me.

Her rosy pale skin and brown eyes,

Tried to find all the secrets they hide.

She tell me about her life,

I tell her mine.

We just lay there looking at each other's scars

She finds my hand and make it her part.

She says i do like you

Review:

This was different from TFIOS and Looking for Alaska, not in the terms of sappy philosophical teens but in terms of flow of the story. I would say it was a mature take on difficult things. There weren't pages filled with protagonists being in crazy love and military level planned pranks, just plain hard truth all along nothing sugar-coated.John always have been a fan of intimacy via thoughts and shared experiences over physical and this book was filled with it. From stargazing to just silently staring each other on facetime, delight for a hopeless romantic.

It was a story of try and error again and again until you are sick of it but then you realize life has been like this all along. It was a story of irregular people trying to live a regular life and failing.

I really like John Green's writing, his quoting other people and a lot of metaphors because he acknowledge that language has failed us in expressing immense pain, grief, hurt and confusion.

Here's my metaphor for the book: This book was like a walk in an unknown neighborhood, you are intrigued and careful about who and what you're going to see but you cross it without anything happening, it wasn't disappointing or boring but rather relieving and peaceful.

Pick on your own accord,not for everyone. Must for John Green fans.

Rating: 4.5/5

Playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLaUHEprZHP4z8b_OkhwaI6Rk9KGPunz5e

STOP FREAKING SLEEPING ON THEM!!!!

This is a co-ed K-pop group K.A.R.D. They are amazingly great artist, really one of a kind and I don't think if you once start listening and watching them you will disagree. They don't get the love and recognation they deserve (not even the fraction of it). The group is under DSP media entertainment. They debuted more than 3 years ago and have not yet got their first win. Earlier this year they were on the verge of getting disband. It really pains my heart that people really skim over these stunning artists. The fandom name is Hidden K.A.R.D., really lovely and unproblematic people. I love this group with many other people who genuinely wish the best for them.

Please if you are interested in K-pop and even if you really want to add some flavour to your playlist, go check them out and stan them.

Draco: What son?

Scorpius: .... I'm in love.....

Lucius: Oh no..

Draco: *Being all supportive and dad like* With whom?

Scorpius: *coughs* With Potter

Lucius: no, no, no, not again-

Scorpius: With Albus Potter

Lucius: Oh my Wizarding God!!!! Why me????!!!? Whyyyyy!!??

Draco: Harry's son? Harry!?

Scorpius: *nod cautiously*

Draco: Oh this Wonderful! Marvalous! He'll have to talk to me now. He'll have no choice. Think of all the time we'll get to spend together! Think of all the opportunities!-

Lucius: *gross sobbing*

When I first read this book, I only remember being irritated by the writing style and never realised that this book deals with autism and never researched about it thoroughly so I decided to revisit it and these are my final thoughts.

Things I didn't like about the book:

This book is written in first person. Christopher is a protagonist that doesn't show any empathy or visible feelings towards his acquaintances (because he physically can't due to ASD) and thus the first person writing comes out as very robotic.

Christopher's thoughts and opinions about other people are so disturbing. He constantly addresses others as stupid and non logical, carry Swiss army knife everywhere and his favourite dream is where the whole human race is dead and he is the only one alive and when I searched internet if these thoughts are normal in asd, the answer was no.

Due to these two reasons, it was really difficult for me to root for Christopher and any of his struggles.

Things I liked about this book:

Christopher's interactions with strangers are absurd, weird and strangely hilarious.

Siobhan comes out as a very good teacher. She is patient, a good listener and knows exactly what needs to be done with Christopher.

This book does a good job to highlight the merits of the conditions which can be uplifting and refreshing for an autistic person.

And at the end of the day, autistic represention in first person forces the readers to educate themselves about this condition and be aware of anybody around us feels the same way.