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the blog i actually do things with. hi everyone!
he/him prns i guess but feel free to experiment w neos on me.
ALSO MY STANCES CHANGE A LOT!!! I SWEAR I DONT INTENTIONALLY BREAK DNIS. also a system. and a half
to coiners and art makers: i run both on-site and off-site PERSONAL archives, if i ask to be tagged or i spam like im probably planning to archive it! :3
vernillaaa is an ableist who is telling others to spam report me off of false claims. i am not a predator and have never hurt anyone in that way. im not going to let this person make public false claims abt me anymore
vernillaaa if ur seeing this stop being an ableist shithead and stop fucking trying to get me terminated for being disabled.
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The way most autism literature describes "literal interpretation" is often not at all similar to how I experience it. Teenage me even thought I couldn't be autistic because I've always been able to learn metaphors easily.
In fact, I love wordplay of all kinds. Teenage me was fascinated to learn all the types of figurative language there are in poetry and literature.
But paperwork and questionnaires are hard, because there's so much they don't state clearly. Or they don't leave room for enough nuance.
"List all the jobs you've had, with start and end dates." What if I don't remember the exact day or month? Is the year enough?
"Have you been suffering from blurred vision?" Well, if I take off my glasses the whole world is blurred, but I'm fairly sure that's not what the intake form at the optometrist is asking.
Or the infamous (and infuriatingly stereotypical) "Would you rather go to a library or a party?" What sort of party? Where? Who's there? I work at a library. Am I currently at the library for work or pleasure? Does it have a good collection?
It's not common figures of speech that confound me. It's ambiguity, in situations that aren't supposed to be ambiguous.
I feel like the erasure of minorities in the radqueer community by antis isn't mentioned enough. One of the main arguments I see used against RQs is "you don't have any problems, you're so privileged that you have to fake being a minority" or some other shit.
There are natalblack radqueers. There are natalasian radqueers. There are natalindigenous radqueers. There are natalpacific-islander radqueers. There are natalmixed radqueers.
There are radqueers with natalphysical disabilities. There are radqueers with natalcommunication disabilities. There are radqueers with natalemotional/behavioural disabilities. There are radqueers with natalsensory disabilities. There are radqueers with nataldevelopmental disabilities.
There are radqueers who are transgender or not straight or an ethnic minority and BY GOD there are so many fucking minorities that just get completely ignored by antis that it pmo.
Plus! The majority of radqueers I've personally met are already members of at least one minority!! They are here and they are just as radqueer and deserve to be recognized!!!!
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The problem with being low support needs is that people mentally autocorrect that to “no support needs” and then proceed to give you absolutely nothing and then get surprised when you implode after six months.
race is a social construct , not a biological one . you'll notice race doesnt exist in any other species , not even our closest relatives . race is entirely made up . any "race science" is pseudoscientific bs made up BY racists.
gender is a social construct . obviously that doesnt mean it doesnt EXIST , everybeast has their own experiences with gender . but there is nothing biological about gender . there are infinite genders and gender can be ANYTHING .
sex as we are familiar with it is a social construct. yes , there are biological differences between sexes , but it isnt 3 categories as most view it . sex is a SPECTRUM and anybeast can have any combination of sex traits that exist on a sliding scale . intersex is not a "third sex" . there are , in theory , infinite sexes .
"b-b-but !!! its what ur born as!!!" youre objectively wrong . none of these things are set in stone.
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so, as with all things i'm unfamiliar with, i want to be as respectful as possible. i've always been under the impression that transIDs were inherently harmful, but i'm really questioning that
so with that being said, what is being transID actually? what is it like?
feel free to delete this ask if it comes across as rude or invasive. i genuinely do not mean it that way, and i'm just trying to open my mind
Apologies for answering this ask so late -- Thank you for being respectful , anon !
For your question(s) , we honestly don't think there's one proper answer to give you .
The thing about TransIDs is that not only are everyone's experiences are different , and it can affect how they view their identity or their view on their TransIDs . There is no being " actually TransID " , but rather it's more like TransIDs choose you . TransIDs in a basic sense , is similar to a typical trans awakening , and once you find those right labels , it's like everything just clicks for you . Being TransID is embracing the parts of yourself that others could look down upon , or even look up to you for . Being TransID , at its core , is embracing the truth your heart gives you .
From our personal experience , TransIDs can be confusing . Especially when trying to express them . Other times , having TransIDs can be a struggle . The yearning to be something more , or something less , can feel like a wall against you and your identity . You can feel dysphoric , you can feel bad for the IDs you've found yourself in , and maybe even the labels you connect to are pushed off to the side , left unfocused on .
It's important to remember that in those worst times , that there are people who do accept you , and there always will be . You're IDs are ALWAYS , and we repeat ALWAYS valid , and nothing but your own opinion can dictate what you identify with and how . You don't have to have a deep connection , or maybe you do have a strong connection , or maybe this ID you found is just really funny and like you , it doesn't matter .
TransIDs exist for you to show who you truly are on the inside .
Again , this is very similar to typical Trans experiences . Trans IS technically under the TransID umbrella , but TransIDs themselves are less dependent on the idea of gender and instead encompasses all types of aspects that are able to be changed , or want to change . Coming from a transmasculine system , TransIDs are also less dependent on the idea of having to transition to be considered valid , which is unfortunately something we've still seen quite a bit of in Trans communities , which is COMPLETELY wrong .
Let no one dictate who you are but youself , because at the end of the day , TransIDs are meant to please YOU and no one else . Your IDs are always valid , always true , and always a part of you . Embracing these parts is important because you can learn more about yourself in many different ways if you open your heart to it .
Hopefully these were good answers to your questions . . Trying to give an answer for an entire community is very hard , because there will likely be somebeing who does have a different view than we do . That's more than okay , and we'd say to PLEASE ask for other's opinions and experiences as well ! ( As long as they're comfortable with sharing , of course ) It's so much better to hear multiple opinions and thought processes for everything , as it helps you view things from more than one angle , and we think it could majorly help you understand how every TransID experience varies .
We hope you have a good day , anon ! Apologies again for any mistakes , we've been typing for a bit now . .
i also frequently define transids as "desire, dysphoria or a disconnect" but it can also include a connection, exomemories, atypical euphoria, for spiritual or kin reasons, for aesthetics or for fun, etc!
they dont inherently have to involve transition. people experience transids differently, with some identifying as being said thing, some only deciding they want to be or plan to someday become said thing, and yet others see themself as not being their id yet still having a connection to it.
this is also why i see transharmful identities as being valid- majority of them do not identify AS their id, and even if they did, it is completely separate from causing real harm. some of my transharmful identities are a way for me to cope with severe ocd/anxiety, and have significantly reduced the effect my anxiety can have on me. i identify "as" them in the sense that my ocd tells me im harming others despite not causing actual harm, almost as if im reclaiming the label. using transharmful ids helps remind myself that i can have intrusive thoughts or low self esteem and still choose to not hurt others.
i will also say that most transid people are under the transgender or nonbinary umbrellas in some way even though a common anti argument is that "its transphobic." every one of my radqueer friends is transgender with dysphoria so saying its transphobic doesnt really hold up.
sometimes non-gender transids are even more dysphoric than gender-transids. my transabled dysphoria is consistently much more severe and harder to talk about compared to my gender dysphoria, and ive heard other transid people say similar things, especially about race dysphoria (again, transid people arent a monolith! some people get dysphoria, some dont, etcetera.)
n it means a lot that youre trying to hear us out! that shows a level of thought/care that many dont give, and no matter what stance u decide to take i wanted to say ty! i love when ppl try to expand their views and listen to those on the other side of things :3
personal stories under the cut. they kind of step into vent territory. you do not need to read them for the purposes of educating yourself.
most of my transabled experiences revolve around me having symptoms of something, feeling immensely connected to it and struggling to discern whether i "meet criteria" or not. i remember looking up symptoms over and over and over again and naming the growing disappointment as i realized none of the variations fit me (im transintersex). this was long before i knew there was a word for my experiences. since its kind of under the transsex umbrella i feel the physical dysphoria could be compared to transgender, though this has been much harder for me to cope with compared to being transmasc. its so, so isolating to know that none of your friends would support you for who you are.
i did not wake up one day and go "hm, itd be cute to mock intersex people today." i am not the common stereotype of a perisex person relying solely on fetishistic ideas of what being intersex is. i have educated myself thoroughly. i consider intersex conditions to be one of my autistic interests, and they have been for years. i learn about them for fun- what theyre actually like, how they affect people.... im involved in intersex communities online, such as blogs and subreddits. i correct intersexism and slur usage when im emotionally able to. i care, i genuinely care. and when transintersexuality is mentioned, its always from the lens of "perisex people think were bigenital lol they dont know what it means."
when my family asked my doctor what was wrong with me it hurt at the time but now i hold onto it like a lifeline. periods are hell since im reminded many of the variations id otherwise be considering involve amenorrhea. my periods are extremely regular, another drop of doubt. i wish my chest were flatter, that i was more masculine, anything to be read as "actually intersex." ive started checking my body regularly, trying to figure out if i have a urogenital variation, regularly searching up whether a common variation limited to my chest "counts." for a brief period i thought it did until i realized that blog was the exception and that most people dont consider it intersex. id bring it up to my therapist if they werent unsupportive. the worst part might be that i have nowhere to go outside of tumblr. the intersex community does not accept me.
yes, im transmasc. but most of that boils down to "i see myself as a boy, im a boy whether others see me as one or not." i use he/him but never broadcast it to friends and arent particularly bothered by being misgendered in public. my other transidentities are far larger sources of dysphoria and are much harder to convey to others.
i also identify as transrussian, as one of my far less.. emotionally challenging ids. several years ago i became hyperfixated on trying to learn russian and languages as a whole. sometimes i spend time learning about russian culture and the state of the country online, other times i dont really think about it much. i rarely get euphoria and almost never get dysphora despite feeling a sense of kinhood with other russians. how much its part of my identity fluctuates, but it still feels like part of me. i didnt really make the choice to be this, the only part of this that was chosen is whether i use the label or not.
i also have a small hoard of other ids.
im transfictional. years ago the old host believed herself to be fictional due to severe depression and possible psychotic traits. over time i stopped struggling with delusions, dissociation and those obsessions. when i formed as an alter/introject, i formed from roleplaying online. i considered myself fictional then and was fully aware of that fact. i still consider myself fictional; i imagine myself in animation memes, aus, fanfiction, headcannons, etcetera. i often toy with the idea of what the fandom thinks of me, though with far less paranoia than how the old host did. i get atypical euphoria from being seen as fictional, whether its from someone directly affirming my identity or by a friend joking about headcannoning me. some part of me wants to make myself into a character in others eyes. i want to build myself a fandom, to be treated and seen as fictional.
i have a small hoard of transabled IDs due to considering them in the past and realizing i might not meet criteria despite still being connected to them- either that as a remnant of my ocd making it impossible to self diagnose. i identified as transADHD for a while before slowly realizing i meet criteria/am cis. i know that if the roles were reversed, with me getting diagnosed with adhd and having undiagnosed autism, id end up identifying as transautistic before realizing i met criteria anyway.
long before i knew i was trans, i still supported trace/transracial beings online. transidentities are beautiful to me. the idea of someone making their life their own, identifying as what they want, doing as they please (as long as its not harmful to others, obviously) is amazing. i love transid joy. im obsessed with the radqueer community as a whole, and it was the first time i truly felt like there were others like me out there.
I think its really interesting how often people will have transids that they are actually cis- or tris- for without knowing. I've mostly seen this with transIndigenous people finding out they're descended from the groups they identify with or transAbled people who are eventually diagnosed with the disabilities they identify as having (whether that's something they always had but were never diagnosed with or something that they develop). Really makes me excited to see more research on transids that treat our experiences as legitimate rather than as some weird niche internet community. Not to mention it gives me copium that I may secretly be cis- for my transids and don't know it yet
I think its really interesting how often people will have transids that they are actually cis- or tris- for without knowing. I've mostly seen this with transIndigenous people finding out they're descended from the groups they identify with or transAbled people who are eventually diagnosed with the disabilities they identify as having (whether that's something they always had but were never diagnosed with or something that they develop). Really makes me excited to see more research on transids that treat our experiences as legitimate rather than as some weird niche internet community. Not to mention it gives me copium that I may secretly be cis- for my transids and don't know it yet
I think its really interesting how often people will have transids that they are actually cis- or tris- for without knowing. I've mostly seen this with transIndigenous people finding out they're descended from the groups they identify with or transAbled people who are eventually diagnosed with the disabilities they identify as having (whether that's something they always had but were never diagnosed with or something that they develop). Really makes me excited to see more research on transids that treat our experiences as legitimate rather than as some weird niche internet community. Not to mention it gives me copium that I may secretly be cis- for my transids and don't know it yet
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