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Take me out tonight

Because I want to see people

And I want to see life

Driving in your car

Oh, please, don't drop me home

-`♡´-

To die by your side

Is such a heavenly way to die

To die by your side

Well, the pleasure, the privilege is mine

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Just revisiting some laundromat scenes that I love :3

Last batch of profiles for the extended hitmen cast that we unlocked with our Ko-Fi goals!

Thank you, anon. It's funny that you bring this up, because this very same observation was actually the driving force of what motivated me to put my work out there!

I actually started out my presence online as a digital artist sharing my work on Twitter, and while I gained a modest following, some commissioners, and friends, I understood a kind of 'fundamental truth' with how Web 2.0 was set up to run, which is that it was meant to steal your attention and force you to develop submission over metrics. These metrics would be enough to shatter any person's sense of self-worth, because it assigned a number value to your worth. You just didn't have your own insecurity to fight, you have what is seemingly an objective metric that tells you exactly what it's worth.

At least, that's what it seems like in the surface. And to very susceptible young people who haven't developed their personalities yet, they can fall prey to this pretty easily.

But, I guess, it clashed with some of the actual things I believed in real life. I actually have a very adversarial relationship with popularity growing up because it's been a huge theme that contributed to my abuse. Not to recount a lot of details, but my mother was obsessed with her reputation even prior to this internet, and she was often 1) wracked with nerves about people's perception about her, and 2) a slave to trends that fades away every few months. Not only that, she would force this anxiety to her children, and make us abide by trending norms. What I understood from this constant exposure to trends... is that they often made me feel nothing. Their desirability is built on FOMO. Without FOMO, they were nothing but cheap, mediocre creations that's meant to appeal to the least common denominator. The mediocrity is the appeal, because it inspires participation from everyone involved.

I just gotta pull up Evanescence on him OH MY GAWDDDD

Ref pic:

Thank you! I don't have much art of him but here

Aw! This so sweet, anon. Thank you.

Tbh, I think a lot of people just do stuff like this as a side hobby to try it, and then leave when the demands of the fandom become too much. I think there's definitely a difference between wanting to make art/games and wanting to put it up in public to be scrutinized... They might still be making stuff, but privately, which I think is completely valid.

But, personally, when I started making VNs, I kinda realized... this is everything I wanted to do in life? I love art, writing, and coding, and I'm thinking about stories 24/7, and I really love talking about my hyperfixations with people, so even getting to engage with the Tumblr is a treat for me. The fact that people support me over Ko-Fi and Patreon makes this arrangement even sweeter, because I get to do what I want to do without other obligations irl, and I think this is a mutual relationship where all of you get to benefit too because the more free time I have = the more I can make stuff for you. :)

There's a difference between being thoughtful about audience experience and wanting them to have fun with you VS just letting them bulldoze you on every whim or assuming it's better to water down your ideas to the point that it appeals to everyone (and therefore no one).

I don’t know if you’ve already answered this question, but I’d like to know the hitmen’s heights.

Clovis: This is a bit of an older ask but I just remembered it since heights came up in the server. Here we go, sorted and everything!

HEIGHT LIST

Gwyn: 5'5"

Abel: 5'6"

Wendy: 5'7"

Ulysses: 5'9"

Pasha: 5'10"

Ezra: 6ft

Seb: 6'2"

Dyno: 6'4"

Rhys: 6'4"

Jack: 6'6"

Bishop: 6'6"