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I just saw a post where someone said that we need to get rid of the idea that people with ASPD are "calculating and clever" as well as "not everyone with ASPD struggles with chronic boredom, sadistic behavior, aggressive behavior, or are particularly violent." It really frustrates me how much people want this disorder to be accepted, but can't accept disordered behavior. These things are criteria and there's to paper, research, study, ect. That can physically prove diagnostic criteria wrong because it will be used and seen clinically in that manner regardless of what other people want to say, or whatever random small study with minimal to no real proof says. A lot of people also especially now a days are lying about having the disorder and I do often call people disorder fakers, because a lot of you are. People over diagnose themselves, have the wrong information and don't wanna change because it fits what they're comfortable with, and no one actually wants to put up with genuinely debilitating and disgusting symptoms.

it can be a bit irritating talking to neurotypicals (or just people who dont have your disorder) about what its really like to . yk. constantly live with this shit. my examples mainly just apply to npd and aspd but if im talking to someone about what its like to have these disorders and i say “well i mean if my friend was crying to me about his mom dying i probably wouldnt care” or “sometimes i just cant handle anyone being better than me at something so i cut them off from my life entirely and never interact with them again” and they just stare at me slackjawed and blankfaced and say “oh… ummmm…” you ASKED ME to tell you what it was like, why would you expect me to say something like “oh well im just really confident!” its called personality DISORDER for a reason

typo. i meant people who DONT have your disorder. this is embarrassing

personality disorders are caused by genetics and trauma so technically the whole reason im like this is someone elses fault

being called “edgy” for experiencing a lack of empathy and homicidal ideation is kind of funny actually

It feels painfully ironic which makes it funnier.

So new attraction. Asshole murderers with deep mental health issues.

at this point i fear the only thing that could ease my stress is rough lesbian sex :(

Aw shucks :(

Chronic boredom and apathy gotten to the point where I'm isolating myself from my friends, never talking to them, actively making the relationship decay as I continously forget about their needs and wants. I'm ghosting some of my other friends too, I can't really bring myself to talk to them again, they were just too boring, and you know that's a death sentence to me...

This was honestly a form of splitting, that last example there....