Ari's Poems

I want you to fuck me

Give me all you want

Tell me I’m the best.

But you decide to answer with

I miss you, I miss you. I miss your smile, I miss your hair. I miss your voice, I miss your smell. You don't want me, Anymore. You say I'm crazy, I'm lovesick I'm obsessional. Are you right? Well, maybe. But can you blame me? Being sick for those blue eyes, Those brown curls, This half-high smile. I'm too much for you, So I'm harassing you, So you can hate me for something, True.

« You have all your life to live »

« You’re too young to stop here »

They don’t understand,

When your father is a criminal,

When your mother is a criminal,

When your grandfathers are criminals,

You want to end the line.

I miss you in my bed,

I miss you in my sleep,

I miss you when I’m awake

I’ll miss you when I’m dead

I won’t ask for love.

I wanna be a cat,

I won’t have to pay for living.

I wanna be a cat,

I won’t have to behave perfectly.

I wanna be a cat,

I would have food anyways.

I wanna be a cat,

I would purr against humans legs.

I wanna be a cat,

I would cuddle my human.

I wanna be a cat,

To give love and live a peaceful life.

But no one asked me,

What I wanted to be.

So please, when I die,

I see them here,

My thoughts are there,

My feelings are there,

But I can’t act.

I see his touch

I feel his hands

I hear his voice

But I can’t act.

People are around,

I’m locked here,

People says,

It is for your own safety.

If I stop here,

Can’t it be safer,

Than following a life,

Where I can’t act.

Freezing body,

No thoughts,

Follow everything they say,

You’ll be a good girl.

Good girl, good girlfriend,

It’s all you have to be,

To be loved, to be cared for,

You can’t act, that’s not your role.

Drugged body,

Nurses everywhere,

Patients talking,

And I can’t act.

Can I be healed ?

How will I be,

When my life is just,

Following orders.

How would I learn,

To act,

When all they taught me,

Was following and obeying,

For their pleasure,

It’s the reason I’m born,

Now I have the choice,

And I just want to sleep.

Sleeping away from them,

Stepping away from their life,

Healing, when it’s difficult,

When it means,

The useless world

I am the death,

The life

The joy

The sadness.

I am

Whatever you are

The obsession

You hide.

The human,

My heart is joyfully dying,

And my brain is endlessly hoping,

For more affection,

Being here too,

I hope one day,

Brown waving,

Gentle stroking,

Take me.

In your arms,

I must be,

What you are.

I want you,

I desire you

Everything,

I feel like my boyfriend doesn’t like me

That I’m delusional

Of course,

He is fictional

Fictional Boyfriend,

People would say I just can’t get one real,

When I truly love him.

Saw him in that show,

Wanted to make that real,

Connect with him,

Fictional Boyfriend,

Because love isn’t just physical,