I once remembered a time I cried so much about someone leaving me.

They were in my life for a while and we bonded like we always knew each other.

I look back and wonder why I cried for someone who didn't give a damn for me.

They used and I think they played me.

Who confused, manipulated me thinking I'm bad or too much for everyone even them.

I admit we both were, however not sure they did see that in them or ever will admit it.

There were bittersweet memories I like to forget now.

I made mistakes and own up to them now.

I'll never be perfect for anyone, since no one is perfect.

I wish them well in a way though time will tell if I forgive them fully.

After all they took a way out that wasn't fair nor right.

And for that I can't forgive nor forget.

I've literally got a whole ass PTSD episode (basically undiagnosed but I've searched for months bout it and I feel dat I have it's symptoms-), got into a discussion w mai parents by the fact I don't feel myself comfortable with churches and being apart of christianity in general just like them and now THERE'S TIME LIMIT FOR USING MY PHONE WHEN IM LITERALLY ON SUMMER BREAK AND THERE'S ALMOST NOTHING TO DO SINCE I'LL COME BACK TO SCHOOL ONLY AT THE END OF DIS MONTH/EARLY AUGUST. 😭💔