𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘤𝘩 .

i don’t have any astronomical news regarding my activity here. my last post was almost 11 months ago when my mother passed away and just the last month has been easier than the last 10. i’m currently packing the rest of her stuff away into storage, looking to still move out of my apartment while working 40+hr job.

i’m gonna be pretty quiet the next month or two.

my mother passed away tuesday evening and just supporting myself and my family members have been the most taxing and draining thing i’ve ever done in my life.

i feel incredibly heavy and empty as an individual. but i’m going to move forward and do what’s best for my father and myself. it’s just us and my other relatives now who are dealing with their own problems. i’m having a few of them come over and help me start the process of sorting, organizing and just doing something with my mothers’ belongings. leaving them here isn’t healthy and it makes it harder to breathe. this process could take a few months, dealing with the current issues of insurance companies and hospitals right now is the most exhausting thing so far and it’s gonna get harder. it’s not gonna stop. i feel empty but i know logically this isn’t what she would want for us to feel like and to live like. so i’ll be taking a break here and focusing on family for a couple of months.

You are a gamer. The only father you’ve known is the Xbox. Your daily bread is Doritos, your wine? Mountain Dew. Let us say grace to father xbox.

She knows what darkness feels like.  AND SHE KNOWS HIM, TOO.  (  ventus.  she loves ventus.  he feels like ——  )  Perhaps most of all, she knows a PUPPET.  Her blade is within her fingers in a flash of light, but she makes no move to attack —— he and his shadows will have nothing of her.  “Don’t toy with me.”