My Elemental Chorus

Filled with gratitude

With peace as my assignment

A light that illuminates each day

No matter how much money

No matter what people say

With someone to hold my hand

Who understands my heart With whom I can thank the Earth

For doing her loving part

A friend who sees me true

Who understands my flaws

A man with whom I can cocreate

A family and a healing spot

Where we can wrap ourselves into each other

Forgetting about our day Sharing dreams of what will be

Shut away Where stones of the past Tuck themselves Neatly beside the other Creating a cavern A shrine here stands The depths of my heart Calling you To unearth the great mystery A life undercover Left undiscovered As meaningless debris

Volumes Autobiographies Portraits and pleas Carried over time and space Arriving safely at your knees

My messenger I a maiden awaiting Rough warm hands Stoking my fires Breathing breathless Affirmations As such a lady requires

Cast the heavens! Part the seas! Unsurmountable Borders worth bending My heart song You’ve been waiting all along To arrive without questioning

Tunes intertwined Our love Not yours or mine Servitude to the highest Morals defined Our love-laugh banter On cue with perfect rhyme

I reach out to touch The finely woven fabric Of my minds eye

Places and times Unreachable in the flesh Touched and half at rest

Sorted and evaluated Measured:. The Weight and worth in heart Calculations precise Figuratively speaking Still attempting to fit such equations Neatly away Into the pockets of flesh That will grow old and fade in time

History will hold in her hands Revelations of a curious soul Painted on the canvas Of decaying bodies Where timeless portraits cannot remain

This tiny stream called I Need not ask permission To remain in rhythm Of loves letting Beyond any sence of consequence Within my hoping and repenting

The tidal wave that pulls me down To taste the bitterness and fear Carries me in due time To where water meets sky Provoking my duality Eternal light will persevere

To surrender and make clear Moments that insult my design Where the Great Mother holds my hand Reassures me in my trying

Unfolding to the wise Waist deep wisdom of my mistakes

I lay on my back feeling my heart know That there is no truth in hiding the ache that tells me you’re too far away

I relax and remember how my words were received by you as I unravelled slowly and safely in your embrace

Without a doubt your love cured me of one question Why we may share such a love and move forward in different directions

Sincerely, Thank you for dropping me while my heart was wide open So that the corners melted into blue oceans Waves reaching up my neck and out my throat:  I love you The sky so broad that confusion cannot collect in storm clouds Its just so still I don't know what to do with all this space All I can do now

From your cold hands I feel a pulse Pushing me to the edges of the earth Where birds fly and I wonder for how long

How I adored your mouth and the curl of your lip How you felt between my legs and how you knew I liked the tip

I have taken off my crown of thorns To reveal that what was once shrouded in metal Has now been melted and reformed

In the fragility of my elegant hands I hold what was was buried deep within our broken plans

You are the story that awaits me Unknown in the language of my mind My heart reveals a world that cannot be defined

An unmarked path Winding us up, around and far Revealing our unity beneath the stars

Your heart speaks to mine And this is how I know For no matter how much time passes You are wise to the ways of my soul

I can hear you not far off With another woman Sewing together a "what if" That will never be Because you are without me

Pardon my confusion When our hearts met My mind succumbed to delusion

Pardon my frailty For when I am in your presence I am free from my own sanctions

A welcome breeze while the door is ajar I wouldn't have known this feeling If I had done as I had vowed By keeping you at arms length and rather far

I hadn't noticed how pleasantly You softened my brow Hard thoughts melting into soft words of poetry on my backside While your hands got curious While I dismissed the impervious truth

So long since I got used to something Besides what it meant to wonder Stacking one day on the other I await the much expected storms and thunder

Sunshine while I swim Releasing and refraining from internal Self sacrificing scripture

I'm getting used to being touched Handled and replaced A few scratches and finger prints reflecting from different angles All I am about That which amounts To the colossal love I have felt

When a book uncreased Brought satisfaction to my cold and conformed heart Bridged by the gaps I sewed together with sincere interest in  Concealing myself from the deformity of our unity

Painstaking and corrosive To touch An all consuming sobriety When I looked directly at you and saw What I didn't want to see

The shimmer faded in your words That told my heart "No" Don't allow me anymore A hollowness that knocks at my door

White clouds pass Laying on my back Passing as a river promised in passage

Bones soften into the earth The only place they belong Your arms couldn't comfort me like this Your words faltered and missed

Bridging a gap we did A soft blowing wind was the front For ice cold rain to come

Changing and eluding like the weather I couldn't ask myself for much better

Wishing and remaining a wish Long laps of lake shore front laughter;  Doors ajar to allow a peak into the ever after Songs flowing as one Carrying a promise of protection and power