Eirlis

R e f l e c t i o n s I've been thinking about transformation a lot recently, especially in 2 weeks before my birthday. This is the kind of holiday I don't really like (I hate attention). As I turn 30 soon, I feel that my old self is dying - I no longer work in my profession, I'm moving to another place and it's all about new beginnings. The only thing I didn't do is cut my hair, unlike my character.

My 1st attempt to paint using watercolour & some life updates My Secret Santa gifted me a watercolour set half a year ago, however, I wasn't able to force myself to paint with it for quite a while. I was scared because watercolour is considered to be the hardest medium. But when I started to play with it, I found out I actually enjoy it a lot! This is the feeling I wasn't able to feel for some time. The reason why I enjoyed this process so bad is the fact that I didn't share the results on social media. Social media is taking it's tall, tbh. I feel exhausted, drained and unable to continue. I've been posting 2 reels per month, yet gained ~ 10 followers on Instagram. I'm kinda tired to feel invisible, even though I know my art holds value. I keep going but honestly idk how long I can handle it, haha.

The Empress: Marika the Eternal The mother of the demigods and the vessel of the Elden Ring 💫

this will be the 6th card inspired by Elden Ring. I’m currently working on two cards in parallel, the other one being Marika’s. so more to come, I guess.

Viscum. Self portrait

Justice: Malenia, Blade of Miquella

Some of the tarot work in progress...

The Devil: Messmer The Impaler I suddenly decided that it's time to continue my Elden Ring inspired tarot series. So here it is.

Colour and shape study It's still extremely hard for me to keep learning art fundamentals. One day I have everything in control and I get decent results, the other day its a complete opposite. Here, in this particular study, I was focused mostly on shapes and colours of the stone, rather than composition and details. I tried to go from simple to more complex, but at the end it kinda looks overengineered again.

I just can't miss a photo from Iceland, need to paint every single one Okay, I've been drawing/painting for 4h/day for about a week. I'm on a side quest to reclaim some of my old traditional art skills plus gain some fundamentals knowledge I've been missing for decades. Idk where it's gonna lead me, tbh, but hopefully I will be able to reflect my thoughts and feelings on a canvas more precisely, and maybe some of my works won't look so unhinged and out of place for a viewer. This journey is definitely not linear, sometimes I feel optimistic about it, and look forward to practice to draw yet another sphere or a cube, but sometimes I just want to erase myself from existence, especially when it comes to posting my art online. But we're living in a word of a short-form content, and artists have to keep up. I suck at making reels for Instagram but I have to do this for some reason. This is definitely not how I want to present myself to the world, and I kinda miss the old internet.

I forgot to post this study that took me around 30 mins as well. I've kinda decided to put more structure into my painting/drawing pipeline and start over with some fundamentals that I've missed at the beginning of my art journey. Art was never about something professional for me, it was just a hobby and I kinda enjoyed my chaotic process. But now I feel that I'm a bit stuck in there, I could have achieved way more if I spent at least a couple of years learning some academic basics. I visited an art studio for some time but it never gave me much needed theory, it only basically helped me to gain some (literally) hands-on experience (which I blessingly forgot during my almost 10 year hiatus) If you're still here and read all of my yapping, wish me luck with spheres, cubes, cylinders and hatching techniques 🥀🥀🥀🥀

30 min study once again

Yet another study, 1h approximately. It's kinda funny to work without lineart, drastic change to my workflow tbh

Another study, this one was pretty quick - it took me around 30 mins to complete.

I've been doing a lot of background studies recently. Here's one of them

Quick sketch of one of my Icelandic adventures

Fever Dreams: Vestiges I continue to explore symbolism in my paintings, and in this particular one, I tried to navigate through memories - echoes of the past that we sometimes lean into, completely forgetting about the present moment.