ear

ao3

fandoms:

call of duty modern warfare og and remake

call of duty ghosts

watchdogs

daredevil

spiderman

the punisher

cyberpunk 2077

batfamily

tags:

#ear’s art collection - fanart

#fic rambles - parts from stories or half fleshed out ideas. mostly angst rambles

#ear’s drabbles - better formatted angst rambles. usually longer than a drabble cause self-control is a myth

#ear life updates - yours truly bitches about something

#monster magic au - to be a lighthouse for wayward creatures series on ao3

#ear headcanons - they were revealed to me in a dream

#ear’s cod incorrect quotes - free to use in art or fics btw

#ear’s batfamily incorrect quotes- also free to use in art or fics

#ear’s guide to writing - mostly medical guides

#ear’s literary rambles - i talk about words

#ear’s nsfw rambles - rare occurrences

#ear’s batfamily rambles - getting insane over the batfamily

#ear reblogs - probably non-fandom bullshit. that’s it.

i need dick to go back to 90s angstwing through an arc where he gets stuck in a time loop, and in order to end it he has to stop someone from killing themself. it's one of those tragedies where it's preventable from the outside but unpreventable within. something different has to be done, but for that to happen it has to be someone else.

dick's psyche has gone through so many changes, with bounds and bounds of emotional maturity, but helplessness isn't something he copes with well. he's fought against unthinkable opponents, risen above countless challenges. there's always something that can be done. a contingency plan (or three). split-second decisions created, somehow perfect, in the moment.

opponents are physical. he cannot punch away someone's active suicidal ideation. he can't untangle plans with his bare hands and make them forget what they're determined to do.

picture all of this along to dick suffering from stress hallucinations. that scene in the 90s run where he's hallucinating batman practically scolding him out of suicide.

there's two versions of this in my head.

one version is an allude to the inherent loop of comics as a storytelling medium and the way things go unaddressed. traumatic events waved away with the next writer. unresolved plot lines. very ineloquent explanation but brain not wording right to convey exact meaning. so. interpret it your own way for now. or see my vision.

the second version is jason is the one dick has to stop. unstoppable force versus immovable object. trying to save someone who has never wanted to be saved by you (and all the nuance of everyone assuming they know what's best for jason and jason's unique ability to aggravate everyone every time he speaks).

bring in dick's stress hallucinations again and the image of a faceless jaybin with the real, now living thing in front of him. but the living thing is dying by his own volition. and dick doesn't know how to stop him. he's not the right person for this but there's no one else who can help.

it's just dick and his inability to save his brother from himself. it's just dick and his inability to understand what jason needs.