« This might sting a bit... »

I talk too much, we talk too much 

I’ll start,

do y’all ever think about eddie getting SUPER defensive over the fact that he and his wife don’t have kids? especially when asked if he’s TRIED to have kids? that to eddie is like someone asking him flat out if he even has sex with his wife. no other Loser has this kind of reaction. a man who is attracted to women would not automatically become defensive like this. this is the response of a man who already beats himself up for not being able to get his wife pregnant, who already deals with this question - this question that comes with the implication that eddie can’t perform. he works in a male dominated industry and he is a man who has been bullied for being gay his entire life. this is not the first time eddie has dealt with this question. but from his friends? these people that already know him too well? all this time and he still hasn’t convinced them he’s straight? and then when richie is the one who tries to calm him down he uses their Thing against him.

he wants to make sure everyone at the table knows HE is not the reason they don’t have kids. there is a very reasonable explanation for why they don’t have kids and it has nothing to do with his own ability to perform, regardless what anyone else has said about it.

and you could argue that it’s just because he was bullied! totally! so why does he lose his shit when RICHIE tries to soothe him about this very specific subject? why does he take “don’t call me eds,” something they use in a playful and loving and sometimes flirty way and make it bad? make it harsh? make it mean? is it because richie is some kind of symbol for eddie? the representation of his feelings for men, the first boy he liked, the man he’s seeing again and who is probably bringing up all those feelings that he’s been trying to push down, reminding him what love ACTUALLY feels like and that it’s not the way he feels about his wife, who’s just trying to make him feel better and calm him down but that’s the problem! another man SHOULDNT be the one to soothe him! he refuses to let anyone know richie affects him!