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I've been fat my whole life so it's so difficult to even think about me being skinny someday. Kinda feels impossible...

being in public and thinking the most disturbing and violent shit that would put me in a mental hospital if anyone knew about it is so fun!

sorry mom, i'm too busy blogging about how skinny i wish i was

i miss when food was food and not numbers

Liquid calories are such a scam. I don’t even get to chew and I have to pay for this.

how the fuck are my ribs, hip bones and spine showing but i still manage to look fucking huge??? i wish i had a smaller frame ugh

Why do I feel like I take better care of myself when I’m starving myself. I take vitamins, take care of my skin, shower every day, take care of my hair, put on lotion and shave, smell good, put on makeup every day, wear clean clothes, feel more confident. I like myself when I don’t eat and I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to eat like a normal person, idk if I want to.

not killing myself is a personal achievement but you cant really brag about that at dinner parties

You are going to the wrong dinner parties 👀