I'm hyperfixating too much on Dragon Age

Dragon Age Dwarven politics are so good. Just such a juicy mess and the games do barely fuckall with them. The gender politics. The castes. The ruins of the former palace becoming the slums. I would die to play a game that is just negotiating trade deals between Kal Sharok and Orzammar.

andraste rly the most fascinating symbol of the type of misogyny that the setting supposedly doesn't have bc she's literally just the virgin mary. to the point that they give her some of the titles the actual virgin mary has (our lady redeemer, lady of sorrow) or smushes titles together (our lady of perpetual help + our lady of victory = our lady of perpetual victory). she's not the daughter of the maker, she's his bride. she is not in and of herself divine, she receives divine visions. she's an intercessor. like. her death positions her not as the savior of thedas who successfully takes on the sins of the world and redeems them, but as a martyr. deeply confused why she even gets the redeemer title at all bc the maker v much did not come back. like who got redeemed. at best she's a conglomeration of a bunch of female saints + mary. baffling.

the question dragon age is asking w andraste is not 'what if jesus was a woman' but 'what if there was no jesus in christianity'

it was so much worse for me when I played origins for the first time (inq was my first dragon age game) and when i heard justinia say "tell leliana 'i'm sorry. i failed you, too'" i always assumed she meant that they failed eachother, like leliana told her that she failed her before her death. but when i learned about marjolaine, i was like wait. what if justinia meant "I failed you, too" in a 'i know marjolaine failed you tremendously, and i am sorry i was no different" and not in a "we failed eachother, and i'm sorry for my part in it." which means she KNEW what she was doing, and doesn't even bother apologizing to leliana for being the other side of marjolaine's coin. she just dies and leliana gets little to no closure, just a too-late unsatisfactory apology from something that she has to trust was actually justinia. it just. makes me mad. leliana let me hold you baby </3

does anyone have $1k and a parasocial relationship with me that may tempt them to send it to me

Thanks to the people who tossed some bucks my way 🧡 it means a lot

my relationship with dragon age as a series is so twisted it’s like my ex-husband i divorced in the messiest way possible but i still have feelings for him nobody knows me like he does and we have occasional passionate love affairs still but also i daydream about killing him in his sleep quite often

hes lying next to me in bed my hands are shaking closing around his throat i cant see through the tears