the hawke/varric queen

1. an absolute "arabella during botb" anthem

halsey thank you not only for what you've done for me but also what you've done for arabella 🫶 this fucking BANGERRRRR i need arabella to sing this during botb ASAP!

i'm alive, that's a plus // but it's getting heavy, better lighten up // i'm a liar, i'm a lush // i don't think i'm ready to let go of the rush // hold on so tightly to my pride // you'll never see the tears i cry // behind the curtain where i hide // once they dry, i'm runnin' to the spotlight

arabella having the worst time ever with everything but the minute she's on camera or she's performing you wouldn't even know. the plan is for her to start relying more on drugs and alcohol to cope with everything and yes she partakes in those things already. but i need it to get worse LMFAO and it seems like it's headed that way in game!

but i don't wanna lose control, i feel the ceiling cavin' in // and all the lessons that unfold, i learn again and again and again // and i don't wanna lose control, i feel the pressure closin' in // and all the lessons that unfold, i learn again and again and again

despite the fame and the attention and the adoration being all she's wanted her whole career, i do think it would start to take a toll on her and that's where the drug and alcohol consumption comes in again. i know arabella would feel overexposed and vulnerable and on edge CONSTANTLY so of course she cranks up the confidence she cranks up the humor and she cranks up the intoxication she doesn't know how else she's supposed to go about this and i fear all of that is gonna blow up in her face but she never learns and she also doesn't care. LMFAO like isn't this what she wanted??? isn't it normal to feel and act this way???

fall in love, call my bluff // think he's on a knee, but he's just pulling the rug // all alone, all for what? // look around, but i don't see someone i can trust // and now the blame is only mine // i'm in a hell of my design // 'cause i don't know how to define // what i want, what i don't, now i've run out of time

reasonable explanation: she wanted to marry seven. that didn't pan out obviously. LMFAO unserious ass explanation: GRIFFIN EATS HER OUT ON THE RUG IN HIS BASEMENT!!!!! "look around but i don't see someone i can trust" HASHTAG FUCK THAT BAND!!!!!!!! if these were the friends EYE had they would not be my friends LMFAO LIKE WHAT THE HELL.... they genuinely act like they couldn't give af about mc half the time and we're only on chapter 5. girl HELP! and the last few lines to again touch on her only wanting fame and attention and adoration like yeah is this really what i want? but how could i want anything else? isn't this what i signed up for? ohhhh it makes me SICKKKKK

all of my history plays out in front of me // like they're the reruns on the screen // all the same mistakes, fuckin' up every take // and i'm the same in every scene // killin' off the cast, showing up in all of my past // like i'm some human guillotine // calling "cut, that's enough," i should go with my gut // but i don't, 'cause i know that i // i don't wanna lose control

not only are you having to learn how to navigate your rising fame it's also being televised to millions. like hello. you have to constantly see a version of yourself that sure, that IS you but is it really you? you're getting chopped and screwed into a million different pieces to fit whatever storyline botb wants for you and you just have to accept that. and you have to see it over and over. i'd kill myself LMFAO

3. sevlicity love song they wrote together

they were so in loveeeeeee they make me so upset 😭 i imagine them writing this song all happy and sentimental and it makes me emotional LMFAO oh sevlicity 🚬

we started the summer off as friends // and you pulled me in when i didn't expect it // i was only halfway home // and you were calling me to let go // wishing i could feel indifference // when it's someone else, i wished that we were different // i was only halfway home // missing you when i wasn't alone

and we were just kids when we met // and now we're half drunk on a twin-sized bed // i would tenderly undress // taken by the weight of your kiss // i say all the words i should've said // i'm leaning my head back into your chest // i fall back, i fall into // real love isn't real love when it's not us // real love isn't real love when it's not us