Dong

I need air.  There’s an elephant on my chest.  Rooms are closing in on me.  The pressure is real.  Drives me to a state of panic. . So I open doors.  I also open the windows.  I walk outside to feel some breeze.  Remind myself I’m alive as I suffocate.  As tears try to escape and I choke. . I hug myself.  As nobody else is there. I let the wind embrace me as a friend.  Asking to…

I don’t regret being captivated by your spectacular smile.  Nor do I regret telling how sweet they made me feel each time I saw them.  I don’t regret that you’re the one I gave flowers for the first time in my life.  Nor do I regret letting myself lose in the abyss that was your eyes. – I don’t regret being wrapped in the tightness of your warm and longing embrace.  Nor do I regret being…

I’m sick and I need your care, Mother.  But I’m a big boy and you’re no longer here.  There’s a fire in my body that burns hope.  Aching in my bones, raggedness in my throat.  – Everything feels wrong oh Mother. I gave my all and I’m still not seen, no.  Lived as honestly as you have taught me to do.  Loved as purely the way you showed me how.  – Can I be as strong as you were,…

And in the brightest hues I remembered, The world is bigger than I ever will become, As the winds caressed my broken spirit, The sun foretells that better days will come.  – As it warms my heart overwhelmed with sorrow, I look up to the skies and see a sky of vivid blue, While nobody is ever truly promised of tomorrow, I’ll walk life knowing to my core I’ll always be true.  – So bathe…

You needed a mirror to reflect, To look yourself in the eye, To sort the tangled thoughts, To not lose sight of who you are.  – You needed a shower to cleanse, To wash away the filth outside, To rinse you so you’re refreshed, To ready yourself to fight some more.  — You needed a toilet to release, To rid of the turmoil boiling within, To sit and let your feelings out, To give you…

Do I read 33 volumes of my favorite series, Listen to the discography of my number 1 artist, Revisit the best game I spent 180 hours to play, Just so I can keep the bad, sad thoughts at bay? – The doomscrolling just adds fire to the gloom, You’re lonely and the feed’s all brides and grooms, Not that you’re not happy for people finding love, It’s just exhausting living the life of a caged…

I breathe as I am pushed and pulled in a million directions, Must I rush, must I slow down, or must I savor the moment,  All the things that I’ve tried mostly led to disappointments, I know I can’t live a life so deeply buried in resentment. . There’s turmoil in the pit of my stomach slowly growling, As my heartbeat reverberates the ache in my whole being, I must resist the lies and to…

She wore the shirt I gave her in winter, She came in, behind her was her man, But none of that actually even matter, Because I was never the forgiving one. . Door’s not even closed when I walked out, Kinda like when she set the bridge ablaze, Was it her or was it him who was uncouth, I was hurt, but now I’m simply unfazed. . I never wanted her the way they think, She was just my good…

I was walking downtown with my headphones on listening to my current favorite pop song. And I felt my face naturally smiling. It felt good. I felt renewed as I bounced and inhaled the changes in the streets I used to walk to. . I was riding by the window of a clanky provincial bus that I haven’t had the need to ride on for a long time. I was feeling the breeze. There was the nostalgia of the…

If I learned one thing from all of this, Don’t expect a moment to last forever, That a spark seldom burn to a fair fire, Good things don’t always come in repeat. . It is the nature of Sadness to latch onto Joy, However small, however limited it may be, For the few seconds that somebody is seen, One could wish it could last for just a little more. … But Fate rarely agrees with what we…

Your heart aches for it knows it’s meant to share a rhythm with another, And yet it’s been denied every chance to flutter like the butterflies, Its beat too intense for others to see the goodness that lie beyond, But then its sound was too soft for those seeking the thrill and the fun.  . Lust is mindless and just not the same as passion and earnest desire, To bare your skin with someone’s…

Sorry…I wasn’t what you expected. Sorry…I wasn’t what you wanted. But I am here. I am here because… I thought I’m who you needed. You called, and I heeded. Your voice hoarse when you pleaded. I was the one you asked for when there was nobody. So why push me away now that you’re steady? Deep down you know that I’m the one for you. But to your heart you’ll never be true. You chose…

If you think you have outgrown me you’re free to go, You say you love me but you’re just lying to yourself, You can leave me but you’re not leaving me behind, After all where you’re going is not where I’m headed. . Did you feel better after breaking your own promise? It’s only when it’s convenient that you keep your word, You condemn people once they make some mistake, Only for you to do…

Breaking down a minute, Standing up the next, Wiping your face clean, Grinding your teeth again. . What’s a guy to do, But to walk forward? What’s a peasant to be, If he doesn’t work hard? . A moment of weakness, When nobody can see, You’re the only witness, Of the tears you shed. … It’s a grown up’s world, All you can do is survive, The fairy tales they told, Dreams to keep ‘em…

My head sabotages the good things again, A freak wreaking havoc the stairway to heaven, Times of happiness would last only a moment, While loneliness is a never ending torment. . Far from healed I’m pretty much still broken, I just got good in keeping my pieces intact, If you think I’m fine you’re gravely mistaken, Still finding the cure to feel better, in fact. . When did life become…

I just know a beautiful soul lies inside you, It’s buried deep down but it’s definitely true, When your guard is down like when you sing, A glimpse of pure wonder in a small opening. . You can’t come out of the walls you had made, The world tainted your heart and you’re afraid, But you know you want someone to finally see, Who you are when you’re permitted to be free. . I wish I can…

We never knew the ways of the liberated, Traditions bound what was appreciated, You see the world then you feel conflicted, Why does it have to be so complicated? . You rode the waves so you learn new things, It’s fun and games till your soul is drowning, You’re neck deep into the dark world wildin’,ing,w Who are you, and what the hell are ya sayin’? . You may have hated all the…