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      he  considers  her  question  for  no  longer  than  a  second  before  he's  countering  with  a  simple  ,  "  it  shouldn't  .  "  wishes  he  could've  in  the  very  least  removed  the  transparent  traces  of  desperation  from  his  tone  ,  but  it  was  too  late  for  that  now  .  so  he  clears  his  throat  in  hopes  of  reclaiming  the  upper  hand  in  whatever  this  dance  was  they  were  doing  .  "  what  i  mean  is  —  "  he  shrugs  casually  ,  "  we're  not  exclusive  or  anything  so  ...  you  know  ,  why  would  it  bother  me  ?  "  it  shouldn't  .

"maybe we should talk about this then , levi ." was that too far ? who knows , but bailey had never been the type to dance around a topic so why start now ? she turns towards him , "-- whatever this is ." gestures between them , gaze searching for answers in his , hoping she can get something out of it before possibly making a fool out of herself . "it's casual and i'm not trying to make something out of nothing , but if you don't see this going anywhere then maybe we should .." stop , before she got entangled further into the web .

      he  draws  in  a  breath  ,  masking  the  jealousy  with  a  soft  smile  that  doesn't  quite  settle  in  the  etching  around  his  eyes  .  "  do  you  feel  ...  generous  often  ?  "  he  finds  himself  wondering  out  loud  ,  turning  his  body  to  face  the  landscape  and  find  a  focal  point  .  anything  to  distract  him  from  this  unwarranted  possessiveness  seizing  his  insides  . 

she kind of wants to laugh but refrains , licking her lips instead to abide herself more time before shrugging . "you only live once ," and though she didn't find herself to be the type of girl to hook up with just anyone , dating was fun . kissing was even more fun . more so when the gesture was reciprocated and for once , she's not too sure if it was . she glances at him for a brief moment , "does that .. bother you ?"

      he  bites  back  the  urge  to  question  the  underlying  meaning  of  her  words  ,  finding  it  easier  to  search  for  it  in  the  silence  .  what  good  would  it  do  anyhow  ,  poking  and  prying  when  he  had  no  intention  of  reevaluating  their  situation  .  "  only  way  you  know  how  ,  "  he  nods  while  leaning  casually  against  the  railing  ,  "  so  you  kiss  everybody  like  that  ?  "

the silence was near deafening , making it harder for her to concentrate when all she can make out was the beating of her own heart . swallows to wet her mouth before palms find the same railing he leans on , turning to face towards the sky as gaze runs along the familiarity of trees up ahead . "sometimes ," clears her throat , seemingly nonchalant despite the butterflies swarming her stomach . "if i'm feeling really generous ."

"lower the volume", aspen repeats, a poor attempt at mimicking his deeper voice, glass waving wildly in the space between them. "where the fuck were you? you told me you'd be back three hours ago? and i'm not a child, don't speak to me like one ronan."

"you're acting like one ," a child , that is . and he won't entertain a lie or a truth because he didn't owe her an explanation . "shit happens . i lost track of time or whatever . should have slept and taken a nap or something , maybe then you'd be more pleasant to talk to because right now , your voice is grating my fucking eardrums ."

"oh come on, seriously? so you show up tonight looking like that and i'm not supposed to want you?"

"you can want me , luke . i'm just trying to do the right thing ." for once is left unspoken . a lie given the circumstances of who she was to her core , which wasn't a great person to begin with , but she'll convince herself in order to feel better about herself when all was said and done . "do you like it ?" her dress .

"  why  do  you  kiss  me  like  that  —  like  you're  in  love  with  me  ?  " / @dogslosing

when he slowly pulled away , regret immediately lingered in her chest in fear he might not feel the same way . lesser parts and for the first time , confidence fades into the background as nerves take over . one beat passes before another . truthfully ? "it's the only way i know how ."

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jaw clenched, the muscles in his neck tightening as he stood up from his seat, long legs taking a step closer. " then why does he think he still has a chance ? he wouldn't be texting you unless you have given him a reason to . " dark hues flickered down delicate features, frustration clear in his .

she watches him stand , staying in place as their eyes remain locked . ben never really took light to the words of her dismissal , telling him she was moving on . brows furrow , tensions flaring and she forces herself to swallow in order to wet her mouth , “i don’t know . i was assertive in my decision to end things . he knows i’m seeing you .” lifting her hand to his cheek in attempt to win him over , she thumbs along the hardened skin . “why are you looking at me like that , jay ? i’m telling you the truth . you should believe me .” @svftlove

" maybe because they aren't your friends ? " slender arms cross over her chest, manicured eyebrows furrowed together. " what are you ? my dad ? it's not like you told me where you were last night, so spare me the interrogation. "

“think introductions are necessary if we’re dating , yeah ? you don’t see me hanging around people you don’t know .” unless he’s obliterated , which happens to be 99.9% of the time . comes with the territory of not only being his girl , but his lifestyle . he chuckles , rubbing the side of his jaw in attempt to alleviate the tension there but it doesn’t seem to work . “it’s not really a secret , my phone died . i told you that already so is that what this is about ? some tit for tat bullshit ?” @svftlove

" i told you, you're not leaving this fucking room until you tell me why he's still texting you. " / @dogslosing ♡

exasperation doesn't begin to describe the feeling that rattles her insides , choking her . feels her cheeks flush , her throat burn . she was getting nervous .. why ? she had nothing to hide . "i don't know , jayden . i told him it was over between us ."

" i was out with some friends. i don't know what the fucking big deal is. you're out all of the time. why do you even care ? " / @dogslosing ♡

"that's funny , you see because i didn't recognize any one of those so-called friends of yours . want to fill me in on when you guys met ?" there's a calmness in his demeanor which is the biggest red flag when it came to homme , gaze flashing a brewing storm beneath the surface .

" i think we're already on the chopping board, " he teases, chuckle filling the space between them. they've already been seen, so what's the point in hiding now ? " may as well have a little fun in the meantime. " there's a glance over his shoulder, knows there's people around that he should be careful in front of, but instead he holds out his hand to her, an unspoken gesture to vow to keep her as unscathed in all this as possible. " besides, he'd have to catch us first. we've got a little time. "

gives him a pointed look . regardless if he was right or not , they were unscathed by her brother this far , she wasn't trying to push their luck . maybe morgan was naive to think it was a one time thing , to piss him off , but the moment he catches sight of his sister in the car with angel , he'd know that this thing between them isn't just a thing after all . it was real . "i can survive the punishment , okay ? but if he hurts you because of me --" head shakes , cutting gaze down to his hand and her chest burns before she's instinctively grabbing it and it surprises her how fast she does .

she can feel the panic rising in her chest, a familiar feeling of impending doom. it's moments like these she'd typically run, but that's no longer an option. she's rooted here, connected. words should ease her, but instead desperation builds. every part of her is filled with the need to keep him here. " no, " head shakes, hand reaching out for his, pulls it close. " just listen to me, okay ? i don't have a good feeling about this. " if she trusts anything in life, it's her gut instinct. ignored it before and it left her alone in the world for a long time.

he knew she had lost someone close to her before - a father , regardless if by blood or not . he knew that feeling , having been raised by a man who wasn't his , but treated him like a son of his own . and if he lost him , he wouldn't know what he'd do , either . but this life , this world he encompassed didn't come with immortality . "don't make this harder than it needs to be , cleo ," takes her hand and brings it to his mouth , kissing the back of it before using his other to brush through her locks , tucking behind her ear until he's cupping her cheek into his palm . "i need to do this and i need you to trust me ."

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“you have some fucking nerve .” she stands after buttoning up her shirt , still barefoot as icy blues stare up at him in complete dismay . “i asked if you were sleeping with somebody else — not because i want you all to myself , but because you owe me the common decency .” after all , they’d gone without protection before .