"You don't smell good" Thanks our programming that causes severe depression and rapid splitting/switching got triggered and we can hardly do anything but I'm glad you noticed how we smell ! (asshole) -Husker

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"You don't smell good" Thanks our programming that causes severe depression and rapid splitting/switching got triggered and we can hardly do anything but I'm glad you noticed how we smell ! (asshole) -Husker

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hey sidesystem is an oea exclusive term btw. sidesystems can only be intentionally created in early childhood. it's not just a "system off to the side"
Just found out that HC-DID confessions is endo-neutral.
Which, you either stand against ableism or you stand for it.
Perhaps it’s on us that we only skimmed the into post when we first discovered the blog, however I still find it a bit… odd, that a blog for programmed systems aligns themselves with pro/endos.
This is, of course, applicable to all systems, but a place that allows ableists as well as disabled people is not a safe place for disabled people. The same as a place that allows both trans people and transphobes is not a safe place for trans people. And many, many more examples such as these.
Putting bigots in a space with the people they’re bigoted against is never good, especially when the people suffering under the bigotry are already extremely traumatized.
not a culture ask, but im curious, what is the difference between c-did and hc-did, if there is any?
I'll answer to the best of my ability :) Our lovely followers - and whoever stumbles upon this post - are invited to correct us and add to this post as they see fit. If corrected, this post will be edited to reflect accurate information!
Content notes and trigger warnings: mention of extreme childhood trauma, RAMCOA/OEA (ritual abuse, mind control, organized abuse / organized extreme abuse), TBMC (torture-based or trauma-based mind control), programming, torture, conditioning, training, groups, group leaders, self harm, punishment, sabotage, and dissociation. We color coded HC-DID, C-DID, and polyfragmented information to make things easier to differentiate. However, this can appear overwhelming to certain individuals so be warned!
If you don't want an overload of potentially triggering information, here's the gist:
❦ HC-DID requires programming and group reinforcement. There is not an HC-DID system without RAMCOA/OEA and programming.
❦ C-DID may have programming and it's common, but it's not needed. Some level of RAMCOA/OEA or conditioning is required. You'll often see people use C-DID and polyfragmentation interchangeably.
❦ Polyfragmented DID can serve as an umbrella term for HC-DID and C-DID, as both are inherently polyfragmented. But it is also meant for polyfragmented systems who have not gone through RAMCOA/OEA or programming.
To start: both HC-DID (Highly Complex Dissociative Identity Disorder) and C-DID (Complex Dissociative Identity Disorder) are forms of polyfragmentation, which is defined below the cut. They are community based terms, but both have been discussed in research + psychology! HC-DID has been referred to as "Extremely Complex Multiple Personality Disorder" and C-DID as "Complex Multiple Personality Disorder". Contemporarily, the majority of conversation around HC-DID, C-DID, and polyfragmentation exists in the system community.
The information I provide here is a mix of published research on RAMCOA/OEA, how it connects to DID, and self reported differences from HC-DID and C-DID systems we trust. We have C-DID ourselves and will use some of our experience as guidance for the following descriptions.
We just had a several hour long trauma flashback in which we were violently sobbing and screaming our lungs out. It lasted a big portion of the night, and not a single nurse from the night staff came to help us. We were completely ignored while sobbing and screaming and having trauma induced seizures on the bathroom floor.
This is the reality of psychiatric wards.

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Tw: desensitization programming, programmed belief set/ideas
Zeta alter: an alter with Zeta programming. These alters are programmed to be desensitized to things such as death, torture, abuse, crime; and often them as normal and necessary part of existence/life. These parts often have little to no emotional reactions to distress(of themselves or others), often coming off as cold or callous
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Tagging for archival purposes: @radiomogai , @aemogai-archive , @rwuffles , @system-role-archive , @flag-repository , @mogai-reblog , @medicqueer , @ramcoa-mogai-archive
man shoutout to RAMCOA / OEA & TBMC survivors. you/we always get called conspiracy theorists and nutcases even when proof of those experiences comes to light to the public nobody seems to believe that that could happen to other people , en masse even. I'm sorry . it's ridiculous
I have a question for other RAMCOA systems, though this may be a longer post
I have not been around much since we were young
I existed to fulfill a role we never chose. I formed because we were conditioned to believe we wanted the experiences we had to deal with every day. We had to want them. How else would we have survived?
I remember some things from our childhood. Some things from high school. Even a few recent events
But I haven’t been truly active since elementary school. I think I have more memories of that time than any of our active alters
I am what others said we were. I am the child we were expected to be. Or, at least, I did my best to be that child. I don’t particularly wish to be that child anymore. I guess I failed, in a sense. I don’t know how to feel about it
I am no longer around the people who conditioned me. I am not in grade school anymore, nor am I in contact with the person who pushed these ideas. Yet I still feel guilty. I still feel as though I’ve failed them
I want to separate myself from who I was conditioned to be. I want to be a person, separate from those experiences. But it doesn’t feel possible
We were not exactly expected to be this person at all times. But if we weren’t this person when we were expected to, there were consequences
Honestly, I don’t remember a time I even tried to push back. It became automatic and hard to control. At one point I genuinely believed I wanted it even though I know I didn’t
I believe the community term is “programming.” I use “conditioning” as that is my understanding of it, and I lack knowledge of the community’s terminology
Is that the term? Do I qualify as a ‘programmed’ alter even though there wasn’t exactly an intention to separate my identity? I know we have programmed alters but I do not know if I am one
I am unfamiliar with these terms but I wish to understand myself better. Unfortunately, our host and I have very little communication ability, and he’s the only one who is really familiar with them
I am honestly quite confused. I want to build an identity separate from what they made me. But I don’t really know how. Labels might help me understand, at this point I don’t know what else to try
At least I have a name. It’s something I suppose