trauma follows me---trying to stay alive

Recognize this. 

one of the most important things i’ve learned in therapy is that when you’ve experienced prolonged trauma in your childhood, pleasure feels uncomfortable. like, not that you don’t feel it, but that when you do feel it there’s an impulse to make it stop, because it’s extremely unfamiliar. and pleasure can mean many things, as simple as feeling cozy, and as complex as feeling loved. the neural pathways for feeling good have not had a chance to develop, and the neural pathways for feeling bad are quite practiced. feeling good, too, takes conscious practice.

Literally all things you can do for adults as well! Especially those of us who have childhood trauma.

I’m crying over how much this would have changed the course of my life. If you’re a parent or child adjacent, please practice this. Please.

I hope that when I use my stuffed animal as a pillow he knows that means I love him

its pretty safe to assume that anything i do right now is a cry for help

oh u wouldn’t know her she goes to a different psychward

mothers are like *intentionally misinterprets your words*

Growing up neglected can mean you don’t feel like you get to be picky about who gives you attention or what kind of attention you even get, you cling onto anyone who acknowledges your existence and it can end up so painful