he was my gay thing

Somebody on the medical team put him on his bunk in a wrong way...

I refuse to draw him in pants btw

somebody told me comes on at the club:

But there is another more interesting layer to consider here. And that is thus: Shane and Ilya are both fundamentally lonely people. And like. On the surface this doesn’t really scan. Shane has a best friend! Parents who love him! But I ask you, where are his childhood friends? His extended family? His sometimes friends that he hangs out with on occasion? Ilya at least has svetlana, his nearest and dearest friend since childhood, but it seems that the only people Shane really has in his life are his parents and Hayden, and Hayden had to fucking work for that shit. Like, he pestered Shane into being friends over an extended period of time.

So like. I keep thinking about baby Shane, and child Shane, and teenaged Shane. Triplicately ostracized; mixed race (and thus struggles to fit into white spaces AND Asian spaces), autistic, and ungodly talented. That’s like three separate targets on his back. And I think that when he wasn’t being bullied, when he finally learned how to talk to the other kids in school and on the hockey team, it was too late. He never really figured out how to make a friendship last. So he’s got these situational friendships, and he’s got his parents. And his parents are mostly good people, but they treated him like a mini adult perhaps a bit too much. Yuna started him on media training when he was fourteen. Probably got serious about Shane’s career at least a year before. So. Shane is all grown up way before he’s ready to be all grown up, never really had anybody to play legos and videogames with, is still struggling to make a genuine connection with anybody, literally anybody, and then along comes this guy who thinks Shane is the most fascinating person on the planet. And he keeps making overtures to fucking play with Shane. Like that’s part of what ilya is doing when he needles Shane. He wants to fucking play.

So the domesticity kink for Shane is ALSO about getting to play toys as an adult. Like functionally, the only difference between building houses in animal crossing and building a house in real life is that in real life it is much more expensive, and you can actually live there. Trust me. I own a house. If I had infinite money I would be treating this place like it was part of a flash game on girlsgogames.com. So to Shane, buying a house together is like. An adult version of playing toys. Organizing the sock drawer is playing toys. And ilya makes him want to share his toys for perhaps the first time in his entire life.