True beauty is feared

when i was 17 and in the eating disorder trenches i saw people online talking abt how the fat liberation movement & unlearning fatphobia helped them recover and i did NOT like hearing that i was SO mad about it i was like well having an eating disorder doesnt mean im fatphobic!!! This is ableist etc etc. And then i learned abt the fat liberation movement and started unlearning fatphobia and guess what . it does help

it’s a lot less tempting to try to lose weight by harming urself if u stop seeing being skinny as being important or innately desirable . likewise you stop caring as much abt gaining weight if u stop seeing weight gain as an inherently morally wrong thing that makes you ugly and lazy. And like even if youve never in your life externalized that to another person and you dont consciously agree with it. Still worth thinking abt imo

inb4 "are u saying eating disorders make u inherently fatphobic" im saying we exist in the context of all in which we live and what came before us. which includes how fatphobia is so deeply normalized in society. and that societal cruelty towards people who arent stick thin (for women & those seen as women, mostly) or muscular (for men & those seen as men, mostly) is bound to affect anyone and everyone. and that for Me Personally it helped to see fat people who were happy and proud in their bodies and realizing it didn't have to be the end of the world