Daily Blog Entries

kay im done with all that tag BS lolol. I was packing the cabinet today and i stumbled across my old diary again, and i love how you can read the hope slowly drain from me as i have a falling out with what i used to call my friends and struggle through school begging for friends and a counsellor, only having sorrow to accompany me. couple weeks ago (or was it months? I dont remember.), after two years of counselling, my counsellor finally referred me to a psych doctor and a few weeks later i was diagnosed with depression, to be further redirected to the IMH to have more tests run on me. i rarely laugh anymore but when i do all i can hear is my dad calling me insane and he’ll never understand why i want him to stop, shut up, because it’s not funny. i’m sorry i’m happy. i should just kill myself lol

Wheeeeee. Went to discuss Battle Ballz bs today with my incompetent juniors. I mean? Are yall?? Brain dead??? Was clearing sideblogs when I ran across this blog again, decided to update. Stress couple with other things have made me very irritable, lost alot of sleep, lose almost all my appitite to the point where I barely eat a meal a day. I constantly feel tired, and the urge to sleep is inexplicable but I never can... Suprise suprise most of my peers in Robotics are sexist and don't like me. They made me go create another group of 5 for battle ballz instead of 6... their excuse was that max per team was 5 even though i said i was ok with not participating. They let Odelia the snitch join their group instead. Janesse got in trouble for Yaoi due to Odelia, Odelia keeps trying to threaten to report me to the teachers but I've gone past caring, I hope theu expel me. Losing my shit and friends, I just want it to end so I don't have to do anything ever again. Dont expect another update anytime soon... these are just... daily vents.

Robotics competitionns are tiring. Didn't win anything. Bronze medal due to inly 4 teams participating in sumo local, 3 of which is my school GDLSS. Why are there Malaysians and Indonesians in the locals? They used metal motors the battleballz team used for motors. We were overpowered. Didn't even get the chance to battle PLMGS. Help. Went for Yun Nam hair care.

Went out with Allen, Sheena and their brother today to watch the KnB movie. All his treat. Woo.

Met up with Radish so she could pass me stuff. Went to park and talked about BSD hcs. She went home without passing me the stuff. We both forgot. Whoops.

Robotics was stressful. Juniors weren’t listening nor respecting me. Oh well.

Went counselling today. Told Ms Mei about Angela. Got in argument over grouping. Me, Fitri, Amirah, Keith and Shiro were in a group. Mrs Franklin forced Anderson to join Yi Fengs group. They argued and asked Fitri for help. After much contemplation, she swapped with Anderson to prevent any squabbles. Mrs Franklin not only made Anderson return to his group, she also refused to let Fitri return to our group. And she keeps bitching on about not wanting us to squabble or she'll pick our groups for us. Why won't she let Anderson swap then?! So now we only have 4 people, and Mrs Franklin tells us to fucking 'be serious' cuz we only have 4people. THAT'S HER FAULT!!!! We were also locked outta robotics as the card tap lock thing had no power. We tried using my idea and used the broom to press the release lock button inside from the outside but without power, it was futile despite people running to the opposite window to give directions. Oh well.

My Form teacher Mr Tan questioned my jacket today. I said to ask Mrs Franklin. We went to the old folks home. The first woman I spoke to made fun of the male sotting opposite her with dementia for he asked for my name and introduced himself twice. She explained how his wife had died and sister never visits. She repeated this thrice and asked my school's name thrice. Ironically, she has dementia too. The third guy I spoke to, and elderly uncle that was really nice who spoke English and Chinese and was proper in the mind, told stories of how he was a sailor and visited 3/4s of the world. We talked about his old school life and how MOH controls all their food and restricts their salt oil and sugar intake hence the food is just edible. I told him our school was like that too. He wakes up at 5am, breakfast at 6.30am, lunch at 11.30am, tea at 4pm, and dinner at 5.30pm. His son who works as an SIA Logistics member brings him out for chicken rice, as hainanese chicken is his favourite, once a month. After mentioning that I had low blood pressure, he accurately deducted that I mostly ate vegetables and very little meat, slept around 12am, and was malnutritioned. Whooooops. He was a nice uncle. I hope I see him again one day. Went to robotics and they left the cupboard open. All our new batteries were used. Those were reserved for competitions. They went to Punggol Plaza to shop for wires and walked past a burning building. Wao. Missed alot in one day didn't I. Went to watch doctor who at home and then my mom started smoking infront of me and my parents kept talking over the shitty audio.

I was sick. So I published this one day late. Screaming kids headache passed on to today. Feels like someone is sitting in me.

Went to radishes for her birthday. Played volleyball and was the salty refree because asthma. 'Hey you hit me! -1 point! >:0' Accidentally hit someones mom on their head and got scolded. We wanted to say sorry but... 'DID YOU KNOW YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO PLAY FOOTBALL HERE?!' I didnt know we were playing football at all. Then their kids started going on about calling their dad and police ans went 'epic prank! Prank!' And started screeching and my head hurt so we went back and I nearly threw up and-

I’d be more willing to update if tags weren’t such a pain. Got stopped on the way to buying Radish’s birthday present by a woman trying to pass me something as as advertisement, saying “This is for you!~” Untill she saw my face and asked me how old I was. I said 14 and she said “Thank you~” and walked off and I stood there confused as to what the product was. Wasn’t the first time someone thought I was older than I actually was due to the way I dress however. Arches made the same mistake and thought I was 17 earlier today untill he saw my face, and even before he met me he thought I was 17. Bought gummy cola and gummy burgers for Radish. Needa save up as I’m bringing her to a cafe next week as hee actual present. Hoshino Café to be exact. I then wrapped it in old wrapping paper that was in p good condition, but only had a little left that was around the right size. I used the whole thing instead of trimming away excess since there was only so little left, and used Oo-kun washi tape from Anime Fest Asia last year to tape it as I have NO SCOTCH TAPE! AT ALL! @A@. Also sent in a nice anon to plunnybreeder and asked them to guess who. They guessed right.

I think it’s mother’s day. I think. Went to nex to meet woth Allen and Arches. Allen was sick, brought him to doctor. All 3 of us bought burritos and ended the day because again, ALLEN IS SICK. He still went to meet us like an idiot though. I went to cosfest tho I said I wouldn’t and met Raych, in an admittedly pretty sad Mafia!Dazai in a horse mask cosplay. We saw another Dazai and 2 other Mafia!Dazais and a Chuuya. Raych’s self esteem took a hit. She forgot to bring scissors for the bandages, had to borrow a randome booths scissors. She didn’t have enough bandages, either. Bought some Klance postcards for Nadia And Zayanah, an undertale one for myself, and 2 kagepro badges of Neko!Ene and Neko!Kano. Was mistaken by someone as ‘N Shiroro’. Saw someone in a MapleV shirt and with the same #DiscoverRP bag I have. Saw cute stickers about ADCs amd an Akatugawa with his rashoumon keychain. On the bus 3 back to Waterway point since it apparently goes to Downtown East too. May go to NEX then go home if my mom still wants me to buy chicken for dinner.

Learnt how to calculate bills for water electricity and gas after 30 minutes and a painful language gap between me and my dad. Yay.

Accidentally offended someone by reblogging their post about an autistic character and pointing out that they weren’t autistic. Whoops. Their blog accepted HCs too and I was unawares when reblogging it. Apologised (read:tried) but they blocked me and made it harder than I thought it would be. Oh well. Lesson well learnt for me.