The randomness of my life

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I’ve been telling everyone I know for YEARS not to buy Blue Buffalo.

This is the short story:

A few years ago I took my sick cat, Ankh, to the vet. The vet and vet tech asked what I fed her. I told them Blue Buffalo. They looked like I had just told them I fed her razor blades and cyanide. They diagnosed her with pancreatitis and said that nearly all of the cats they’d been seeing lately with pancreatitis were being fed Blue Buffalo.  They gave her medicine and sent her home.  Two days later she had a seizure and died right in my arms. 

The day after she died Hannibal started displaying the same symptoms she had so I panicked hard and took him to the vet.  Got the same meds and the same diagnosis.  Luckily Hannibal survived.

I wish Ankh had survived. She was only ten and the best cat I’ve ever had. Literally the best and five years later I still cry when I think about her.

- salmonella

- mold

- aluminum

- melamine

- toxic levels of vitamin d

- propylene glycol

I don’t know what to fucking do. I want to live. I want to survive!!! My health is getting rapidly worse, and my literal body parts are randomly shutting fucking down, I Havs lupus, my flare ups are debilitating. I can’t work. My chronic pain is increasing.

HE NEEDS ANYTHING ANYONE CAN SPARE!

https://venmo.com/code?user_id=2272988271476736476

my dad’s first meme

I’m probably not going to stop talking about this, and honestly when do I ever stop.

Oct 20th, 2019

Today is the 20th and that means it’s time to tell my story of what happened when I came out as Ace to the first person I deemed the most important relationship in my life.

The year… Well I don’t actually know the year I just know it was Winter(2015-16?) of my Sophmore Year. I had been in my first wlw relationship and it was the most genuine relationship I had after dating 2 guys who just wanted to jump my bones. I had experimented with being sexual before, but it wasn’t really my thing, and I never really felt attracted to people sexually. Just aesthetically and emotionally. 

My girlfriend at the time and I had tried to mess around on several occasions, but I didn’t really feel up to it when the times came. She would get upset and pout, but honestly, she wasn’t upset. There was only once where I was up for it and she just didn’t because she didn’t realize I was. Anyways.

We were in the library of our school, I had spent an entire summer and fall wondering if I was Ace, and once we were about to go on Winter Break, I realized I, in fact, was Asexual. I was nervous about telling my friends and my girlfriend. But, I thought about when my girlfriend came to me, thinking she was trans and how open I was to that. How I told her I would be there even if she was.

It calmed me down and made me feel a little better. Well, again in the library, my friends, my girlfriend and I, all were at a table talking quietly among ourselves. One of my guy friends, older I think a junior then, made a small joke about mine and my girlfriend’s sex life. I thought this would be a great place to casually mention I am Asexual. Because again, being Ace didn’t mean I lacked love or would never have sex.

It went well with my friends, they adjusted really well to it. My girlfriend… Not so much. She was fine when I first said something. But she began to distance herself after that. Refusing to hold my hand. Refusing to kiss me when we got to our first class. Saying she couldn’t eat with me at lunch. Not texting me at all during the school day. All the normal things we did that weren’t sexual.

She waited until after school to tell me, via text, that I didn’t love her. That being ace meant I didn’t feel any love for her. That sex was the only way to prove love. She broke up with me, despite me explaining everything. I had to lead her on for 2 years(½ years but whatever she kept saying 2) and gave up her dreams of doing things with me.

It hurt. It made me hate who I am. Who I couldn’t change. And I didn’t see what was so different about when she thought she was trans and me being Asexual. Why was it okay for her to take her anger out on me when I had been accepting of her ever-changing orientation and her questioning her gender. It was weird. Off-putting.

I now, after on and off again dating her and being her friend for 3 years, am no longer talking to her. There was a lot of fucked-up shit she did, beyond telling me I lied to her about my orientation(even though at this time I barely even figured it out myself).

(Oct 21st - Oct 27th)

Smash that motherfucking reblog button if you support Asexuals and consider them a valued part of the LGBTQ+ community!

Exclusionists/Acephobes do not interact.

Edit; Acephobes/Exclusionists who have replied to this post anyway, obviously unable to read… I am not here to argue with you. This isn’t about discourse. Fuck you.

Our identities have been discourse topics for too long. Not this week. This week is about celebrating ourselves. This week I’m done with you. I’m no platforming you.