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a good day makes good sleep

starting with a lil treat gets the work done

More things to do is less overwhelming

don’t make a plan just get in there

Incredible addition

a good day makes good sleep

starting with a lil treat gets the work done

More things to do is less overwhelming

don’t make a plan just get in there

Incredible addition

Shane asks Ilya the same question back, really. “Did you bring anybody?”

We’ve been sitting here going Shane Hollander can’t read subtext, he just filters out the words sub and sex and yes that’s a great take, and look you’re probably not off the mark a lot of the time.

But here? In the presence of Shane I-hired-a-stylist Hollander? This man who is on A Mission? The man who has had his revelation guided by none other than Rose Landry (“Did you bring anyone with you?”)?

In my silly little mind, I don’t think it’s so much a case of Shane not understanding the situation, even if he doesn’t get the clear answer out for what Ilya is asking him until Ilya asks outright.

Shane Hollander gets the situation. He’s looking on-purpose-everyday-people-hot (Ilya has and would again worship his man in athleisure). He has made a beeline for the only person in the room he wants to spend real consistent daily time with at All Stars (and beyond).

He asks the question back right at the start of the conversation.

It’s only short lived, but what my lil brain says this is?

A regular dose of miscommunication - the intentions were running on two different paths that had to loop around before they met.

Shane “I’ve now essentially bonded with this man for life mentally and I won’t be letting him go” Hollander sitting next to Ilya “god please tell me I haven’t lost you forever” Rozanov.

Shane is about 5 steps ahead in this conversation. His reality doesn’t even involve Rose anymore. Ilya is near collapse because of The Problems. Shane has quietly solved them in the background, and is now trying to connect with his man while Ilya is actively spiralling until -

“I hired a stylist”.

Ya tebya lyublyu (i love you)

a good day makes good sleep

starting with a lil treat gets the work done

More things to do is less overwhelming

don’t make a plan just get in there

Incredible addition

A couple hours after Shane had it, his water breaks.

Ilya feels slightly vindicated when Shane's water breaks before Shane even finishes the Tuna Melt.

Shane is very excited for Ilya and even though he doesn't say it out loud, he had already started planning to celebrate this frankly huge and challenging achievement, no matter how much Ilya wants to downplay it. So he carefully marks the date, grateful that he doesn't have a match that day, skips the optional practice and flys to Boston. Both of them are kind of bummed that Shane cannot go with Ilya to receive the degree but Shane is determined to not let that dampen their mood. He picks out the outfit for Ilya to wear that day, makes him his favourite breakfast and sends him off with a kiss. He was determined to do all the traditional celebrations fitting of a graduation. He decorates the house with the big balloons, gets him flowers, a cake and champagne, makes him chicken parmesan for lunch and checks the gifts he got him once more. A luxury designer watch from a European brand ( definitely not Rolex ), a ridiculously expensive bottle of Vodka and reservations for the both of them at a high end private resort in Switzerland. The last one, he's a bit hesitant about. They have only ever spent time at the cottage or at their respective houses but never at such a public place. But that is not relavant, so he pushes that thought to the back of his mind, dresses up and eagerly waits for his boyfriend to get home.

"I'm not homophobic, I'm autistic, thanks for making me reveal something about myself I wasn't sure I wanted the public to know about AGAIN"

And Ilya, who never used the Pride Tape because of the whole Being Russian thing just posts a selfie of him and Shane post-fuck with the quote

I really believe that Shane’s particular brand of baby trapping is wrapped up in self righteousness, he’s truly of the mind that what he’s doing is the best for Ilya (he’s creating a foundation for Ilya), will help Ilya (he’s giving him a family that loves him unconditionally & w/o financial stipulations), and will keep Ilya alive (Ilya would never do anything to risk being anything like Irina to their child, would never die by his own hand and become the thing that haunts their child & he’d do all he could to keep himself alive to see that child shift, grow, and age like his mother never did for him).

Shane going about it through adoption/other means is incredibly interesting - and maybe I’ll talk about Shane & the lengths he’d go that way - but there is something so crunchy about Shane sacrificing at minimum a year of his career for this plan. Shane is truly such an interesting character when it comes to his relationship with hockey, and this being a visible & immediate counter to that, him choosing Ilya. Well. It’s kinda the most romantic thing he’s done since telling Crowell to fuck off. And I would argue! Pregnancy is sacrifice, it’s incredibly difficult on anyone’s body, like if nothing else as a professional hockey player the fact that his pelvis would literally change shape would earn that title.

If Ilya ever found out, he’d be so quick to find a way to justify Shane’s actions bc He Loves Their Life, and Shane must’ve had a reason. A good reason, even. He just doesn’t see it yet, but Shane never acts recklessly, not His Husband. And, even still, there is no way Ilya would be able to separate the child in front of him and his complicated feelings that come from what Shane has chosen for them, so he’d make the love win, in my mind. He’d shut off his brain and reach for this future with both hands while ignoring all the implications and the hurts. Yeah.

Hi baby love I have been thinking about this ask since you sent it a while ago it’s so mega perfect important to me! Knee and leg and foot kisses are so UGHHH good, so juicy perfect.

It’s sooo intimate the skin goes so untouched usually, it’s so sensitive and thrilling to have it kissed and touched. Shane says something as they are on the bus with the cens coming to or from a game, and it’s so funny and bitchy and Ilya smooches Shane’s knee from where his legs are half sprawled over Ilya’s.

They are sat at a bar, it’s summer so Shane’s in shorts, and Ilya has his wide hand wrapped around Shane’s knee, thumb rubbing at the soft arch of it, tracing the lines of his knee cap. It’s making Shane all shivery and half hard. He doesn’t know if he wants Ilya to stop or if he needs more.

Play wrestling on the bed and Ilya catches Shane by his hips, pulls him in and grabs a foot that Shane kicks at him, and he kisses his way up to Shane’s knee, bites at the side of it between his teeth and leaves a kiss mark there, biting as Shane squeals and says it tickles.

Laying in bed before bed, after sex, and Ilya is on top of Shane, head on his tummy and his hand is rubbing up and down Shane’s leg and then he’s scooping a hand under his knee, folding his leg up up up till his kneecap is by his mouth and then Ilya is dragging his nose all over the warm skin that smells like sweat and soap and he’s breathing him in, nuzzling his nose all over because Shane smells so good so pretty and his and Shane calls him weird but plays with his thick curls, smiling down at him.