Once I learn how to stop being me it’s over for y’all

I feel empty, I feel a hole in my chest while sadness and anguish are invading me. I don't have enough strength to get up, move, concentrate and eat.

I had to endure everything alone so I’m sorry that I don’t know how to ask for help or even accept it

My traumatized brain: everyone will hurt you and no one can be trusted

and dont open your heart to anybody ever again

And don't believe a word they say.

I am nothing but a burden

If the rest of my life is like this I’m gonna be honest… I will definitely be killing myself at some point

i don't wanna be alone anymore, but i don't wanna interact with people and be hurt again. i don't wanna hurt anyone either, and i don't want more people to hate me. what the fuck am i supposed to do? i really wanna kms rn

i don’t hold grudges.......anyway i hope everyone who has ever wronged me gets shot in the face

living with abusive parents will be like: *gets criticized for appearance* *gets called out for something everyone else does without punishment* *gets shamed for not knowing information you were never told* *gets punished for someone else’s bad mood* *why can’t you be more like xyz?* *you’re always like this* *gets left out of any positive family events* *gets chased away from dinner with insults* *gets criticized for spending too much time alone in your room* *gets shamed for not keeping up appearances* *gets blamed for stuff you had nothing to do with*

Can't stop thinking about how it's so easy for them to not talk to me, yet I become physically ill at even the idea of not having them around

"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.

Self-aware of my self-destruction, yet unable to stop myself.

no longer asking what’s wrong with me i don’t believe i care to know

Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

my whole life is just one big try not to kill yourself challenge, and im losing