bella's mind

the experience that taught me what it means to "just assume you're in your dr" ‧₊˚♪𝄞࿐₊˚⊹

throughout my shifting journey i had always heard this phrase repeated in advice posts and i was only ever able to process it through the mindset of, "oh, so whenever i think about my cr, i'll just repeat 'i'm in my dr' to drown it out." i operated under that same mindset for months with little progress, until one night.

(disclaimer: you do not need to be a walking shifting encyclopedia to successfully shift! you can... and do... shift without even meaning to. this is something i wish i would've known sooner, even if it seems self explanatory LOL)

what happened to me:

i laid down in bed for the night, as usual, desperately wanting to shift. i got into a comfortable position and started robotically affirming "i'm in my waiting room." my affirming became second-nature, and before i knew it, i was simultaneously daydreaming about my dr (i couldn't help myself sorry). i paid absolutely no mind to my physical surroundings whatsoever, i was just in my head thinking about stupid stuff... UNTIL... i hear my cat meow, and it seems like he's in such close proximity to me that he's directly next to my bed, watching me sleep. i shrug it off, thinking he's in the hallway and just being loud for no reason. i continue doing my method (if you could even call it that..) for another 2 minutes or so. and then suddenly... i feel my cat jump on my bed. clear as day, i hear the sheets shift, i feel his paws on my leg & his weight making the mattress dip. i almost have a heart attack. i jump up. i'm under the impression i forgot to let him out of my room, or maybe he opened my door again and got in himself (he's scary like that). he's nowhere to be found. i get up, turn the lights on, check the whole room: under my bed, under my desk, under the covers. he's nowhere to be seen. i leave my room to find him fast asleep on his bed, on the other side of the house. i realize... he's in my waiting room, the exact place i was affirming i was the entire time leading up to this debacle.

I UNDERSTAND NOW!!!!!!!!!

just let it happen‧₊˚♪𝄞࿐₊˚⊹

as someone who has shifted more times than i can count: when i think of shifting, i don't think of a feeling like fireworks going off. i don't hear a snap, i don't see flashing lights, and i don't feel a rush. a lot of people expect a rollercoaster ride into their dr, but i've never experienced that. my lucid dream methods have given me that feeling while within the dream, sure, but the actual shift itself has never felt like that. to me it feels like laying in bed listening to music, and suddenly my old favorite song fades in and my brain still, almost like it's automatic, remembers all the words. it's surrendering to the moment.

this is the best and most important advice i could give. lay down and get comfortable. think as your dr self. what would be on their mind? what would their plans be? how would they think about themself? this itself is a method. you're not waiting for a sudden change in scenery, but rather shifting your awareness directly to your dr self (which of course it's all you, but just for clarity's sake, i'm going to use the terms cr or dr self). don't try to forcefully shove away all of your cr self's thoughts, just let them pass like clouds. don't try to micromanage every thought you think your dr self would have, just let it happen. you'll feel what your dr self feels. it should all be very natural.

and that's the thing. you're thinking as your dr self. you're feeling as your dr self. just like i mention in this post, you probably won't notice you shifted because of this. things will feel like they've always been this way. ....can we get a little personal here? this is going to be a bit embarrassing but i think it's necessary to drive the point home... im shaking........

i shifted into my ex celebrity crush's bed. i was imagining laying in bed with him (i feel like i sound pathetic guys i'm embarrassed omfg), and i was paying no mind to my cr surroundings. i was just thinking as the version of me that would be dating him and experiencing that. and then i was just actually that version of me. i could feel his body heat, his arms around me, i could smell the mix of his cologne and cigarettes and sweat, and it just so familiarly him. my eyes were closed but there was that innate knowing, and i honestly couldn't tell you i even noticed that i shifted until about 10 minutes later. i just knew that he was there and there was nothing crazy about it. eventually those 10 minutes did pass and i eventually realized the gravity of the situation, that i shifted. and then i shifted back because i got scared. but i shifted nonetheless. and not even on purpose mind you

- my posts never flop.

- my home always smells good.

- none of my equipment falters.

- my editing software never fails.

- my live streams are always fun.

- my ID photos are always pretty.

- my belongings never get stolen.

- tvs and devices never have a glare.

- food doesn’t stick to pots and pans.

- none of my belongings ever hurt me.

- my home is the perfect temperature.

- there are never any crumbs in my bed.

- my pillow is always cold on both sides.

- people always find me effortlessly funny.

- i always have phone signal & wifi connection.

- utensils don’t scrape against teeth or dishes.

- i’m not addicted to my phone or social media.

- as a model i get paid in both clothes and money.

- my air conditioning and heating system never fails.

- no one is able to hear audio through my headphones.

- whenever i order anything online it arrives the next day.

- none of my favorited posts on social media get deleted.

- when using a camera, it always has the lighting i want it to.

- things such as bugs, rodents, mold, or mildew never get into people’s living spaces.

- none of my social medias take away certain features or ban me and any username that i ever want is always available.

- my belongings never get damaged, they’re indestructible, waterproof, and always work as they should. i never lose any of my belongings or forget any of my important information such as passwords, phone numbers, passports, or other important documents or information.

- my car is immune from getting scratched, cracked windows, flat or popped tires and rust. the battery never dies and my cameras and lights are always clean. my bass is amazing and is always clear. i never lock my keys in my car and my car always smells amazing like me. i never have crumbs in my car because i never drop anything in my car.

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anyway. i came to the conclusion that me and my ego need to cooperate with each other instead of fighting for what we want. this morning i basically said “i know you want to stay here so badly, and that’s quite literally what will happen. you won’t shift, because i will. you get to stay here and experience what you want, meanwhile i get to shift to my new reality and experience what i want! that’s a pretty fair deal, isn’t it?”

each part gets what they want, so there’s no need to put up a fight every time. i’m exhausted, like let’s be friends instead lol

so i know it’s been a long while since i posted a long little shifting help post but that’s because i been doing what i want! however, to this day i still get dms and comments asking why people aren’t shifting even though they’ve been using the law of assumption for x amount of months.

and it’s my personal belief that one of the biggest reasons is because while you’re using the law of assumption, you’re not using it to create your new reality but to cling to your old story.

you still haven’t moved past it. you still carry resentment. whether that be toward yourself for “failing,” toward time, toward other shifters who’ve gotten their results or led you “astray.” even toward shifting itself because it hasn’t happened in the way you’ve wanted it to yet.

you can’t make your new story click because underneath them are the assumptions: “i’ve been trying forever.” “i’m still here.” “why isn’t it working?” “i always end up waking up here.”

that is your story. that is what you’re actually identifying with. and every time you repeat it, you’re just giving it a stronger hold.

you try to start over and overwrite it, but the second something doesn’t go your way, you immediately return to the old story because it’s familiar to you. because it feels like home.

and your new story feels unnatural because you haven’t let yourself live there yet. you haven’t taken the time to heal the damage your old story dealt. it’s like placing brick over mold, thinking that simply covering it will take away the stench.

it doesn’t.

and before somebody says “but i’m saturating my mind with my new story x amount of times a day!” i’m not talking about repetition. i’m talking about identity.

who are you when you’re not affirming?

are you someone who micromanages your thoughts? always anxious about thinking the right things? always searching for a new method or direction? can never live in your present state for long without reverting back to something negative?

if so, it’s probably because you haven’t forgiven yourself yet.

a lot of you are trying to control every thought because you don’t trust yourself anymore. you think if you loosen your grip for even a second you’ll undo all your progress. but ask yourself why.

it’s because you’re still identifying with the version of you that “didn’t know better.” the version that spiraled. the version that thought drinking a gallon of water would be the key. the version that thought moving an inch could ruin everything.

you haven’t realized that person doesn’t need to be protected anymore.

that’s why you keep trying to control everything. control feels safe because if you’re always watching yourself, maybe you’ll never become that version of you again.

but conscious creation isn’t about controlling yourself every second of every day. it’s about trusting the identity you’ve chosen enough that you can free your thoughts. even if they’re negative. because you know, deep down, that they don’t matter.

so forgive yourself. that’s it.

forgive yourself for not knowing what you know now. forgive yourself for the months or years you spent feeling stuck. forgive yourself for every time you doubted yourself.

stop treating yourself like a lost cause.

stop trying to fight your old story and simply let it be old.

your past is not evidence. stop living like it is. choose the version of you that you know yourself to be. you don’t owe your old story loyalty just because you’ve spent a long time living it.

it’s served its purpose. now let it go.

that way when reality asks you: “who are you?”

How I entered the void in less than 5 minutes last night (If someone doesn’t shift with this, I’ll scream)

I wouldn’t be sharing this and putting myself at risk of sounding like a lunatic who posted one method, and is now posting yet another version of it, if I didn’t have a reason for it. Idk, gut feelings are hard to explain (I’m aware I sound insane right now)

But I’ve never been more excited to share something in my life, sooo that might attest to something.

This will work for everyone in some way. And I’ve never been more certain of anything ever. (Except for the time I pspspsps’d at a black kitty on the sidealk at night, which ended up being a trash bag, and I found out I had horrible eyesight—but that’s not the point here).

This isn’t anything brand new. It’s like my method people have been seeing results with, but stripped down to its bones. Simplified to the core, which I’ve learned actually makes it more effective.

(unless you’re someone who prefers something detailed and objective, then yeah, stick to my main method and ignore this)

This doesn’t care about your beliefs. Doesn’t care about your identity, your self-concept, your doubts, your contradictions. It doesn’t matter if you’re into non-duality, law of assumption, law of attraction, or don’t even have a belief system. This method does not give a single shit. And I say that with confidence, because when this worked for me last night, I was crying. Genuinely, majorly depressed. Everything I usually cling to, all my beliefs about shifting and consciousness and the nature of reality—I wasn’t mulling over any of it. I was flat out over existence itself, and it still worked.

The set-up:

• First, understand something: The screen of space you’re looking at right now—even if your eyes are closed—is the same screen where your DR, CR, the void, your dreams… all of it… will appear. That’s your canvas. Always.

• This works best with WBTB (wake back to bed), so set an alarm for about 3 hours after you fall asleep. You want to wake up just tired enough that going back to sleep is easy, but you’ll still have some control. (You can also do this as you’re going to bed, but it was 3 AM for me after I had woken up,,, so do with that info what you want).

• Now, get this into your head: You’re not entering the void or shifting from a place of calm or confidence. You’re doing it from pure exhaustion. You’re doing it from “fuck this shit, I’m doing it anyway.”

You can doubt. You can feel like shit. But the attitude that follows is “fuck it.” You’re tired of trying, and tired of being on this journey. So you’re just gonna do it. Fuck it.

What to do:

• Lie on your back. (I personally like my back, but I’ve done it on my side too, and it still works. Doesn’t matter. Don’t overthink it. This doesn’t matter)

• You can move. Just don’t care that you moved. After the next step, you won’t even be paying attention to your body anyway, and it’ll go numb naturally,, so the idea here is “fuck it, this doesn’t matter.”

• Now: Notice the black behind your eyes. Just that. The blackness. Don’t try to notice your awareness yet. Just focus on the black. Look at it. Really look at it. LOOK. Keep choosing to look at it again and again. Widen your eyes over and over again, and keep refocusing on it. This will keep you alert, but you’re not forcing yourself to stay alert, got it? It happens naturally, because you’re reeeeally looking at the black behind your eyes.

• Your body’s gonna want to fall asleep. Don’t fight it, don’t care about it, because the fact that you’re looking at the black behind your eyes will naturally keep you from falling asleep.

• You keep your mind locked on that black space, almost like you’re watching a movie screen, but nothing’s playing yet. What happens? You’ll keep wanting to fall asleep—but widening your eyes and choosing to watch the black will keep waking you up. You’ll be in this liminal place going: “Fuck it. Fuck it. Fuck it. I’m doing this. Fuck it. Don’t care.”

(What I mean by “widening your eyes” even though they’re closed is: when your eyes are closed, don’t let them go slack like they do when you're falling asleep. Keep them wide and alert, like you're trying to watch something in the dark. You're not tensing them, just holding that sense of openness, like you're staring through your eyelids).

• What happens next: Suddenly you’ll feel your awareness. You’re just awareness now. Naturally. You didn’t right off the bat try to pay attention to your awareness,, you just realized that you are it. Why? Because when you feel confined to that black space behind your eyelids like a coffin, with nothing else around you, there’s nowhere else to run to other than your awareness. Your body will be numb, and your surroundings distant, irrelevant. And you’ll think: “Wait… I’m just my awareness.”

• And then your brain might do what it always does: “Oh no. What if I’m overthinking? What if I’m messing it up?” And you remind yourself: “I’m literally awareness. I can overthink if I want. I’m awareness goddamnit. Fuck it.”

• You’ll start switching—back and forth—between two things (because there’s nowhere to run to):

1. Looking at the black behind your eyelids

2. Noticing your awareness itself

Keep flipping between the two like you’re flickering the lights on and off in a room, but don’t force this. You’ll look at the fact that you simply are, and you'll look at the black,, and you’ll think: “damn?? I’m just my awareness.”

• Then you’ll start to sink. You’ll feel the pull as hypnagogia grabs your hand and says “so where are we going, bestie?” From here, you can either:

A) Keep going as you feel yourself sink, and you’ll fall straight into the void state effortlessly.

B) As you feel yourself sink, you can choose to lucid dream, astral project, or just plain shift from here. To shift: affirm, assume, observe, do whatever you want. The way I shared that I like to do this is by observing my awareness in my DR, observing the fact that I’m aware there (just pretend you’re there, no need to try too hard).

The point is: whatever happens next, if it happens very very quickly, don’t panic.

Just to note:

If this somehow doesn’t work for you—though I genuinely believe it will work for someone—just know the reason I share so many things is because I deeply believe everyone needs different things. The core of shifting stays the same to me:

You are only awareness, and you observe your desired reality until all other options collapse.

But how you get into that is wildly personal. What works for me might not click for you, just like what works for you might not click for me, and that’s fine.

That’s why I keep offering options—not to confuse you, not to invalidate anything I’ve said before, but to give you more pathways of realizing how powerful you already are. If one method feels off, try another. My main method is still my go-to: observe my awareness in my DR, exist there, decide I’m there because where else would I be??—but I love giving variety because maybe this next one might be the one that opens it all up for you.

When you strip away the quantum buzzwords, shifting is about redefining your sensory data. Right now, your brain is locked onto this reality because its reacting to what your eyes see and what your hands touch. To shift, you have to make your Dr more "real" to your awareness than the room you are currently sitting in.

Pick one specific sensation, just one. Thats the logic between "wr scent" or "script that a song will play when you shift" advices. It could be easy things like lavender, chocolate or your favorite perfume and as for sounds it could be sea waves, phone ringing or like I said , a song.

Force the 3d to match this. As you lie there, tell yourself "the reason I feel this bed under me is because it's my Dr bed." If you hear a car outside, it’s a car outside your Dr house. Youu are reinterpreting your current environment until your brain accepts the new context.

So many of you are done with loa, but usually, that’s because people use it as a magic spell. In reality, its a mental filter. If you wake up and think "dammit, im still here," you have just successfully manifested being here. Wake up and decide "im currently in my dr, but my vision hasn't fully rendered yet. I’m just going about my morning until the 3d catches up." It removes the frantic energy. You arent a seeker anymore, you know this reality is fleeting and temporary.

The biggest irony of shifting is that the more desperate you are to leave, the more you anchor yourself to the reality you’re trying to escape. Desperation is a massive tether to your cr. Think of it like this; if youre trying to fall asleep, and you stare at your eyelids and scream at your brain to SLEEP NOW, you will stay awake all night. Shifting requires that same letting go that falling asleep does.

Youve seen behind the curtain, you know the "one life, then dust" narrative is a scam and once you know that, you can't exactly go back to being a normal person. Treat this reality like a pre rcorded video. If you’re watching a movie and the main character is in jail, you don't panicking thinking you are in jail. You know you're the one sitting in the theater. When you wake up here, look at your walls and think "cute. Nice projection. But I know where I actually am." Do not let the 3d have the final word on your identity.

If you feel anxious version of yourself rising up, check these three things:

- Am I seeking proof? (If yes, you're acting like a mortal, when you're pure awareness and SHOULDN'T hand your power to anyone or anything else.)

- Am I waiting for a shift to happen? (If yes, you're placing the power outside yourself.)