Eskel My Beloved

the urge to write is like a cat meowing for dear life for someone to open the goddamn door, who then shows utter disinterest in said open door

"why is the character like that" >look inside character >it's the author's subconscious attempt to love themself

this is meant positively by the way. sometimes you love the character so much you end up putting a piece of yourself in it to learn how it is to love yourself without realising and thats ok.

Truly, I believe this.

Do I actually want to write this fanfic or do I just want to wallow in the delicious daydream like a pig in the mud?

Unfortunately I wish for others to wallow in my magnificent mud pit

thank you for the magnificent mud pits, fanfic writers

What if the real grief was the writing we didn't do along the way

all of my writing is actually just thinly-veiled fantasy about being seen at your worst and still being loved