A Spark in the Dark ✨

Apollo☀️

“You’re not coping” Ok here’s the deal; I’ll stop feeling this anger when we have a national memorial (we don’t) or a cdc equipped to stop it from happening again (we don’t) or a population that takes a deadly disease seriously BEFORE it effects them personally (WE DON’T!)

When I moved, I’m certain they understood I was leaving because I had all my stuff and gave them lots of food and compliments.

But, they chased down my friend who lived in the next burrough over. They had recognised that friend with me several times and followed them to their house when they couldn’t find me.

They adopted my friend and it was now my friend’s job to bring them snacks and receive the presents.

This was maybe 6-7 years ago.

I visited London last year. Went to see my friend. The crows all not only recognised me, they tracked me down. We got into my friend’s flat and not twenty minutes later there was chaos on the balcony.

We open the curtains, the entire fucking murder is there shouting because they wanted to see me.

i HATE self-censorship for a lot of reasons, but being in crisis work makes it even more frustrating. who are you censoring for? like i am being so fr, WHO are you censoring for? have you even thought it through? people who have been raped know that they have been raped. if someone attempts suicide or is grieving someone who did, saying "sewer slide" isn't going to protect them from any of the feelings. a murder victim's family isn't going to feel better bc you said "unalived" instead of murdered. if anything, it's just extremely invalidating and othering. it's saying "what happened to you is so bad that i won't even say the word," which is NOT trauma-informed care. you are not protecting survivors/victims when you self-censor. the ONLY things you protect when you self-censor are the puritanical ideologies that are being encouraged by rich fascists who want your money and obedience

💦 Water is associated with absorption, beauty, calm, change, compassion, creativity, emotions, intuition, flexibility, relations, reflection, sensibility and sadness.

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Depending where you get it from and what it is, it can have more magical properties:

💦 Pond water: conjuration, stillness, boundaries, silence.

💦 Sparkling water: banishment, curses, power, purification.

💦 Lake water: abundance, stillness, the unknown, wealth, spirituality.

💦 Swamp water: creating bonds, invisibility, illness.

💦 Sea water: banishment, concentration, immensity, fear, power, protection, purification, life.

💦 Rain water: growth, power, rebirth.

💦 River water: charging, conjuration, energy, movement, power.

💦 Storm water: banishment, charging, clarity, energy, strength, curses, motivation, purification.

💦 Melted ice: creativity, growth, fleetingness, harmony, preservation, protection, purification.

💦 Melted hail: aggressiveness, wounds, curses, ill intentions.

💦 Melted snow: change, delicacy, balance, endings, healing, power, purity, slowing down, resolutions, tranquility, transformation.

Doing the Queen's Makeup - Iris & Hera