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tw: suicide

I don’t dislike season 5. I didn’t. I think it’s one of the few seasons with a nice flow, nice progression and plot payoff. I like everyone’s looks, even Clarke’s raggedy jacket. The sets look amazing. I loooove Madi, Octavia’s arc was done beautifully and bellamy’s part in it was so goddamn fitting for the blakes. Diyoza is everything I have ever wanted ever.

I even like the flame’s inclusion is all of it.

but with that said.

Maybe I’m alone here, but I think neglecting Clarke’s arc in the whole mixture in what could’ve been the last season was very irresponsible and I’m not talking about ships.

Jasper killed himself. We saw exactly how that brewed throughout two entire seasons and in the end, no one from the show was able to save him. At the time, I called it a cautionary tale about what happens when you neglect your mental health, but now there’s this doubt inside my mind: what it they just didn’t care?

Because, here’s the thing, Clarke has been suicidal for a while now. You have in your hands, what might as well be the very last season of your show, why does season 5 goes out of its way to get her to her breaking point? To isolate her beyond belief? Just to make her desperate enough to side with a villain for a few minutes? Fine,w/e. But why wasn’t there a come to jesus moment?

I know all about the “darkest hour” trope, I understand why it’s needed in narratives, but isn’t a bit irresponsible to just brush it off all of those suicide attempts? Why couldn’t she just talk to someone about it? Again, this isn’t about shipping, but Bellamy was right there and he also had stuff to deal with. Say there aren’t romantic, w/e, can’t they at least be the best friends everyone says they are? Are you telling me, friends can’t also share the burden?

Clarke’s season 5 plot starts with her alone, barely hanging on, by the time she’s sure she’s dying, she makes one last call to bellamy bc again, she’s desperately alone and needs the comfort. Then she finds the valley and madi, and maybe she should’ve stopped making those calls, but she doesn’t want to miss the link the has with him. She just doesn’t. It grounds her.

But then spacekru gets to the ground, in the one (1) opportunity the writers gave her, she doesn’t say anything about her time alone and then it’s just shit and shit and shit, all thrown at her. She loses every link to her previous life, one by one, her home, Abby, Marcus, Bellamy, and the final straw was Madi. So she loses it, yeah, she does bad shit.

I’m not saying she didn’t do bad shit - not saying she was being malicious either - but this is your main character! Your main character is on the verge of a mental break down, there’s absolutely no one on her team, she has presented suicide tendencies not so long ago... Why not address them?!

This is why season 5, despite not being horrible imo, is the one season I just can’t rewatch. It’s triggering to me. Cause I’d be down with big Clarke/Bellamy/Echo angst if things were different, I’d be down with spacekru drama with her, I can handle those in fanfic verse just fine, but knowing what she went through all this time, knowing what she was hiding, hearing incredibly loud silence... Nah man, at one point it stops being fun dramatics and starts being picking on the smallest kid from class.

I’d be heart broken had it ended in s5, but now we’re going into s7 with THREE more suicide attempts from Clarke! And now she lost her mom!