Hello, I'm Claire (she/her), a computational materials physicist in her early 30s. I reblog everything any anything, and occasionally post my own thoughts. I post fractal art sometimes, check #fractal art and #fractal flame tags for some examples. I post a lot about rocks and minerals under #mineral specimen. #wizard shit is self-explanatory. I don't really do much other social media, but you can find me @CharyouTree on app.wafrn.net if tumblr burns down.
We've also recently figured out that we're plural! All of us are facets of Claire, and can honestly answer to that name, but we also have nicknames or alternate middle names that we refer to each other by. On this blog you're mainly going to hear from Cassandra, our most common fronter since she reformed after our egg cracked and [deadname] crashed and burned, but there's a few other facets that we know about so far that you might hear from every now and then:
Bunny (she/her), our 2nd most common fronter. She's a version of our tween selves who's SO happy be back and to learn that I've helped us transition! A smart cookie who's excited to learn and make friends, she's the one who insists that we take care of ourselves and be nice to each other. She has her own sideblog where she posts her own thoughts, and a lot more of our thoughts about plurality more generally (and pictures of bnnuys :3) @claires-bunny
Aegis (she/it/he) Scared and angry teenager. Normally he only comes out when weâre panicking. Its only motive is to fight back hard enough to run away. Sheâs been in denial about being a girl, and now also about being a system. Thinks all of this is ridiculous.
Ăon (any) A being of molten crystal and black flame. Comes out in moments of transcendent positive emotions, frisson, awe, and cosmic perspective. Wants to be indestructible to bask in the majesty of the universe. Complement of Aegis.
Serena (she/her) Catgirl who LOVES fish :3. Her aspect is catharsis, healing, tears, tranquility, and meditation. More likely to front after we've recently cried. A woman of few words.
Saturn (he/him) Reincarnation of our old host [Deadname], after many months banished to the void after our egg cracked, and Cassandra took over as host.
Athena (she/her) a teenager who's still growing and learning after she split from Bunny. Ambitious, outgoing, a little bit chunni, she's our drive to become who we're meant to be.
The DJ (they/them) They donât talk, but they have a soundboard of our favorite songs and echolalia and they mercilessly @ us with them.
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Problem #1 regarding child abuse is that a lot of people seem to struggle to imagine normal, respectable-looking parents and other authority figures ever doing it despite the statistics so instead they do the stranger danger panic and completely overlook some of the greatest threats.
Problem #2 is that even when people understand, even if in an abstract way, that parents can be abusive they just... don't seem to actually register that as something that can apply to real life. It's just hypothetical to them and doesn't actually guide their ideas of how to prevent child abuse.
Problem #3 is that even after overcoming the above biases a lot of people have a very narrow image of what abusive parenting is where they imagine like... people doing violent things basically out of sadism and without provocation. They don't seem to think it's "real" abuse if the victim did something that "justifies" punitive violence, like disobeying the parents.
In fact, most people think parents have a right to do a whole lot of awful things to their children beyond just hitting them, like violating their privacy, controlling their access to information, and deciding what/when/if they eat, among other things.
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getting scambot messages from random accounts that clearly used to be normal active blogs is sad enough. you know that there used to be a real person on that blog until they were tricked into handing their password to the digital fae.
but it's an entirely new level of tragic when somebody you've actually spoken to gets turned into a bot account. it's like peeking at a zombie apocalypse through the window and realizing one of the shambling corpses was your friend.
and then the zombie catches sight of you, lurches up to your window, and shouts through the glass that they accidentally reported your account to tumblr and you'll be deactivated unless you click this link.
RIP to the blog that used to DM me to tell me they liked my new chapters. Their last known words spoken before being turned, 17 hours ago: "Ggs!" They were praising someone's deadlift.
the message they tried to get me with is probably the same message that got them, so for anybody who hasn't already been warned about the signs of a zombie account:
if you get something like this â they're gonna follow up by instructing you to contact tumblr support on discord and give you contact info; or they're gonna link a website that looks sort of like tumblr support and say you have to email them; or any variety of "you must now contact tumblr, here is how you contact tumblr."
whatever they send you, it Does Not lead to tumblr. it leads to the master zombie that bit them and inducted them into the ranks of the undead, and will bite you the second they have your email and password. i might be confusing zombies and vampires. anyway,
it's easier to fall for these messages because the blog doesn't LOOK like a bot blog, because it ISN'T a bot blog. it's a normal person's blog that got accessed by a bot, meaning the blog's content CLEARLY looks like a real active user when you click on it. and yesâit might even be a blog you already know. sometimes bots like this go down a blog's DMs or reblogs and message people they've previously interacted with.
they got one of my treasured followers, and they can get you too. don't fall for their tricks. know the signs.
im going crazy you have GOT to decouple romance/amatonormativity and marriage in your mind. you have GOT to understand that marriage is a legal document that protects you from exploitation especially if you are a woman or a stay-at-home anything. it is not some evil unique to heterosexual people. it is a legal document that says 'this is who i want in my hospital room when i die, this is who i want to have my stuff when i die, THIS PERSON OWES ME RECOMPENSE IF THEY KICK ME OUT OF THE HOUSE I LIVE IN"
You are not immune to being taken advantage of by your partner if you are queer. do not wind up homeless because your garbage live-ins name is on the lease and they decided to drop you like hot coals.
This is why it is not assimilationist for gay/queer people to want to enshrine marriage rights in their country/region
Similarly, this is why polyamorous people are fighting for the right to have their relationships recognised by their states through marriage and/or similar agreements
Oh, and because on top of those aforementioned financial and medical protections, these laws also help you maintain connection to any kids you have and/or raise together!
I would go further and say, this is why we really should be looking to expand some of these rights so that marriage is NOT the only way they should be enshrined. (e.g. Why could I get married tonight to a guy I met this morning, and get him on my health insurance, but I cannot do the same for a sibling?)
Remember the fight for same sex marriage was never âwe feel left outâ, it was âweâre sick and not allowed to see each other. Weâre dying and not allowed at the funeral. Someone who kicked me out at 14 just showed up for the first time 24 years later to tell the doctor to pull the plug, and they did.â
Marriage is a legal documentation of rights. Fully agree with prev that those rights should be divested from the concept of monogamy entirely, but for now we have to at least understand what they are
I need the tumblr kiddos to understand that when my wife and I got married in 2013 we had to plan our vacations to ensure we only visited states where our marriage was legal, because otherwise if my wife got sick (not unlikely, she has multiple chronic conditions) I might not even be allowed to visit her in the hospital.
Every older queer you know who is in a longterm relationship will have similar stories of how we planned our whole lives to protect what would have been granted nigh automatically if we were heterosexual.
Marriage is a legal status that confers certain protections and rights, and until societies introduce other ways to get those protections and rights, we need it even if we hate it as an institution.
Ye knowe eek, that in forme of speche is chaunge
With-inne a thousand yeer, and wordes tho
That hadden prys, now wonder nyce and straunge
Us thinketh hem; and yet they spake hem so,
And spedde as wel in love as men now do.
glossary:
eek also
and even
tho at the time
prys great value
wonder a cause for astonishment
nyce stupid
spedde succeeded
You know the form of language, too, can change.
Within a thousand years, even the words
that were most precious then, seem strange
and foolish to us; yet they spoke them so
and did no worse in love than we now do.
After the humiliating defeat to Johnny in the fiddling contest, the Devil is looking for a win. So he goes up to Kansas and challenges a farmer's boy named Clark to an arms wrestling competition.
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TIL that there is journalism equivalent to the Bechdel Test. An article about a female scientist fails the âFinkbeiner Testâ if it mentions one of seven topics regarding her womanhood
Okay, one quote, and then you absolutely have to read the whole thing.Â
Still, the virtue of some rules in Aschwandenâs test is difficult to see at first. Take the rule of âno firsts.â In the comments section below her post for Last Word on Nothing, Finkbeiner explained that no sooner had she taken the vow to ignore gender, than she caught herself writing that the astronomer she was profiling was the first to win a certain award. After a reader urged her to stick to her pledge, she removed it.
âThe fact that sheâs the first woman to do that says a lot more about the prize-giving committee than it does about her,â Finkbeiner explained in our interview. âSo if I were going to put that into a story, it would be a story about prejudice in that prize committee.â
It blew my mind, because sheâs right. The fact that thereâs some many firsts left is the result of bias in the committees NOT IN THE WORK WOMEN DO
This is just my opinion as a Canadian, but it has always seemed to me that America, as a culture, fundamentally has always thought that killing people is kind of cool.
Like, you look at rates of serial killers by country and no one else is even fucking close. If you look at American movies and television that are considered "high culture", it's all stuff like Breaking Bad, The Sopranos, The Godfather, etc. I actually happen to like a lot of those shows, but they are about men who kill other people. You can make the case that "if you idolize [Homelander / Scarface / Patrick Bateman] then you're missing the point" and you wouldn't even be wrong, but my god are there ever a lot of people who do idolize those guys, and that seems worth interrogating.
And it's not recent American culture either. Think of every famous gangster and bank-robber and Old West outlaw that you've ever heard of. Other countries...really don't do that, at least not to the same extent.
Anyways, all of this by way of saying that, as with so many other things, people like Trump and Hegseth are really just taking what's been implicit for many years and making it explicit.
I'm always saying this (like when I ranted in these tags a few months ago). There's something sick in the very assumptions USAmericans have about life (I say, as a USAmerican myself!) that makes violence and killing seem kind of cool. Most people won't admit it out loud, but it's obvious. You can see it in the Punisher bumper stickers, the gun collections, the fanboy behavior over Tarantino... I could go on. It's wrong and it's rotten and as it intensifies, it bleeds out into distrust of our neighbors, giving a pass to cops who murder people in cold blood during traffic stops, and the never-ending list of school shootings. I genuinely think that at the root of all of this is a sort of worship of physical might and power/domination over others.
This even goes for good people who are generally anti-violence! I would have described myself that way a couple of years back; but last year, totally on accident, I stumbled on a piece of media that made me reevaluate all of my thoughts and feelings about violence and I realized that I too, despite being against violence in general, still saw it as kind of cool, in some weird and twisted way. Like I'd watch action movies and be like "woah, cool move." You know? And I don't think those kinds of feelings are unique to USAmericans, but I would say that USAmericans seem to somehow be bathing in the "violence is cool" kool-aid that other folks are maybe just drinking from time to time. IDK.
It's really hard to pull yourself out of that mindset. I know people aren't just going to change their minds about this overnight. But if I had the power to beam one thing into everyone's brains, including my own, it would be an understanding of how unnecessary, embarrassing, and disgusting violence really is.
once you realize how much everyone fucking loves age- and incest-play you'll go even more insane when they tell you to join their campaign to run transgender woman #487324 off the internet (where she gets her income) for her incest kink or whatever
it really is Our Righteous "pouting and throwing a cute tantrum at my partner to get what i want", "daddy/mommy", "old man yaoi", and a long etc v. their villainous "calling her partner 'little sis'" to encourage sexual abuse of children or smth
Grace and Rocky, giving a tour of the Hail Mary to fascinated Eridian scientists and diplomats.
Pointing at things and explaining what they are and how the ship works, lots of awed and appreciative noises are made.
Until one of the visiting Eridians points out a specific item. âAnd that?â
Itâs a strange, circular thing, a xenonite disk mounted upright on some sort of pivot so it can spin freely, but around the edges it has⌠spokes? Pegs? Sticking out of it, that hit against a stiff flap that would slow down the spinning.
It is also separated into sections decorated with crude etchings of a human and an Eridian.
âAh,â Grace says.
âThat,â Rocky says.
âThatâs. Um.â Grace seems somewhat embarrassed. âThatâs the sacrifice wheel.â
The Eridian visitors clearly do not know what to make of that. âWe think we misunderstood Savior Graceâs word,â they say, apparently hoping this is a vocabulary mix-up. âExplain (question, polite)?â
âDidnât misunderstand,â says Rocky, sounding very sheepish. âThat is sacrifice wheel.â
âSo. While we were on our way to Erid, we might have gotten⌠anxious about each otherâs well-being,â Grace says, which everyone is already very aware is a wild understatement. âAnd, well, you heard what happened at Tau Ceti, and after. There were a lot of unexpected dangers for the whole trip that required a lot of, at least, attempted self-sacrifice to solve. We ended up almost dying for each other several times. And we had an argument about what weâd do if another crisis like that came up. And we couldn't agree.â
âGrace argued that Grace already was unlikely to survive long-term on Erid, so he should be the one to do any potential deadly but necessary maneuvers to make sure I was able to bring taumoeba back,â Rocky says.
âWhich made sense.â
âDid not make sense! Grace already sacrificed so much for me and for Erid, wouldnât be fair to make you do it againââ Rocky cuts himself off with a huff. They have obviously had this conversation before. âSo sacrifice wheel was compromise.â
âYeah,â Grace says. He spins it to demonstrate; it whirls around in a blur and a rattle of the flap hitting the pegs, then eventually slows down, and stopsâpointing at the segment depicting a very bad but very clear image of an Eridian. âRocky made the wheel, I spin the wheel, and whoever it lands on, thatâs who gets to sacrifice themself to save the other and the other person does not get to argue. This way, we wouldnât waste time debating who does the self-sacrifice and who survives, itâs just a plain fifty-fifty chance. Or, eighteen-eighteen chance in base six. But the point is it could be either of us and we would have to accept the outcome.â
Rocky started fidgeting while Grace was explaining. When Grace finishes, proud of the equitable solution they came up with to allow them to die for each other fairly, Rocky says, âNow that we are back and we donât need sacrifice wheel anymore⌠I have confession to make. About the wheel.â
âWhat about the wheel?â
Rocky doesnât answer. Grace frowns, first confused, then suspicious, and spins the wheel again.
It lands on Rocky again.
He spins the wheel again, and again, and again, and it lands on Rocky every single time.
âRocky!â
âI weighted the wheel,â Rocky admits.
âRocky the whole point was that it was equal, that was why we even made itââ
âNever was necessary so doesnât matter anymore!â
âBut you WOULD have!â
âAnd you never noticed because you were hungry and cranky and distracted and so would have done bad job on heroic self-sacrifice anyway!â
âI would not! I would have done fine!â
(The Eridian scientists and diplomats are still here watching this btw. Slowly dawning on them that 1) these two are extremely not normal about each other 2) if Erid ever does another space mission they NEED to send a therapist aboard because this is what happens when they donât)
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Little robot, nudging a body: i fix
Little robot, nudging a body: i fix
Little robot, nudging a body: i fix
Little robot, nudging a body: i fix
Little robot, nudging a body: i fix
Little robot, nudging a body: i fix
Little robot, nudging a body: i fix
Little robot, nudg
#ah man medical robots who break free from their first directive of Get Money from Patients and follow their Core Idea of Help People #and rove around providing what little medical care they canÂ
#security androids using their being mosly bulletproof to bravely seek peaceful resolutionsÂ
#engineer droids who refuse to work with faulty tech or supar metals for fear of the vehicle not keeping its humans safeÂ
#man man man part of robot culture is wondering what keeps humans seemingly unafraid of death when it feels like it could be anywhere
The robot is programmed to keep the crew safe. Normally this is patching up leaks in the hull and doing the dangerous job of refueling the reactor, but it was programmed for medical tasks as well. Once youâve had to resolder a surface mount IC in zero-G, doing surgery is easy mode.
The robotâs been with them long enough, it was never designed to be sentient, but the self-learning systems plus being treated as a member of the crew means itâs getting closer.
But one day all the input stops. It doesnât know what exactly happened, maybe a freak gamma ray event or some kind of virus the med-filters didnât detect? But all the crew have stopped moving. It runs through its medical routines, trying the options in the encyclopedia. CPR doesnât seem to help, asking them loudly to âwake upâ does nothing, it even tries building a makeshift defibrillator out of the secondary plasma coupling. Nothing.
It finally comes to the page on Death in the encyclopedia, and reads it, with dawning sadness (or the closest thing a robot that was never programmed for emotions can feel). They wonât move again. They are permanently deactivated. The robot is alone, and it has failed them.
Unless⌠The robot notices a link at the bottom of the page.
See also:
* Necromancy
Itâs eyes glow in the reflected light of a screen as it quickly reads the page. So thereâs a chance after all? Cancel sending the mission update, there more important things to do with the deep space radio. Send all information on ânecromancyâ immediately.
The robot hums to itself as it reprograms the biosynthesizer for Goat, and looks into how it can create candles with the limited materials on hand. The deck 4 cargo bay would be best for making alchemical circles on the floor, but it will need to move the self-sealing stembolts to another location first. Perhaps Mx. Jormandâs quarters? They wonât be using them until this is complete, after all.
The air scrubbers kick into high as they quickly dissipate the cloud of sulfur that materialized in the center of the circle. He went classic today, seven feet tall, red skin, muscled upper body with goat-like legs below, extra large ramâs horns and enemy-save him, he ever wore a goatee. It seemed worth it, he hadnât been summoned in a while, and he was feeling nostalgic.
Annoyingly long story of a robot summoning a demon to get necromancy powers under the readmore: