charles

me, plugging my ears and screaming at the top of my lungs: i am better than my disorder, i am a good person and care about others and my friends love me and would be sad if i died

Me: i wanna get hit by a car Her: what kind of car?

jealousy is a difficult emotion and hard to admit to, because it makes you a right out mean and petty person (or at least me.). I think people feel jealous for differing reasons. Perhaps this stuff is really obvious, but i guess it wasn’t for me. I feel pretty sad today! anyway i pray to the gods that i’m not the only one who gets these fears.

self hatred swallows me whole and i wish it would leave my friends alone

Intrusive thought: *while I am trying to sleep* Everyone’s asleep so if you tried to kill your self you’ll probably succeed before they find you! Btw, have I reminded you how sharp those kitchen knives are?