Vent Blog

My grandpa is getting old, he’s the very last of my grandparents that I have left, I wanna spend more time with him before it’s too late, and I’ve been having an eerie feeling lately…

But, I’m no longer his happy silly little grandchild and I just wouldn’t know how to act around him

my depression started at such a young age and completely ruined me and my relations, I’m still working on opening more up to my parents, which is easier because I see them somewhat often, but grandpa? I haven’t seen him in what feels like ages now, and last time we spoke was just a short awkward moment

I don’t want him to think I don’t like him?? Because I think he’s absolutely great, he’s been nothing but supportive to me through my whole life, and I’m so afraid that he thinks I don’t love and appreciate him

I just want to have a good relationship with him while he’s still around, otherwise I know I’ll regret it for the rest of my life, and feeling incredibly guilty that I might have made him feel unloved by me…

Thank you so much 💕💕 my birthday ended up being fairly nice, despite me having cried about it all day before hahah

Friend: aww how about I treat you to dinner that day then?

Me: omg you would?? Thank you so much, that means a lot!

Friend, a few days later: I’m gonna have to cut our dinner short, I have a raid in WoW I gotta get home to

Angry Solidarity!!! 🤜🤛

Lately I’ve been really trying to deal with my anger issues actually, mostly I’ve just sorta kept the anger locked inside and let it explode later, but now I’m slowly learning to handle it.