what a shame she's fucked in the head!!

I get married in 11 days I'm actively having mental breakdown

I feel so much relief reflecting on my early twenties and the path I was headed down vs where I am now. thank GOD the heterosexuality and Christians didn't get me. I really had myself convinced I was bi just bc my first love broke my heart and I slept with guys after the breakup. Convinced myself I believed in God bc my only friends were culty new age Christian girls. thank GOD the alcoholism and felonies didn't get me. I was on the path to end up dead or in prison. I might still be broke and uneducated but at least I'm employed, housed, have two huskies and two orange cats, and a woman who loves me and treats me better than I ever imagined. It's literally not that bad and it literally does get better.

I'm getting married on May 24th. truly genuinely no take backsies, deposits are down, chapel and photographer booked my dress is bought, hair & makeup scheduled. I have to change my tumblr handle i can't make failed engagements in my early 20s my personality any more