The demons in my head have become my only friends

It's nuts how common it is to not allow children to be angry, even (especially) in households where adults are angry all the time. As a child I knew my own anger was unacceptable--not just expressing it outwardly but feeling it at all. So now as an adult my immediate reaction to my own anger is often to feel guilt instead of like. Noticing when someone is being rude or unfair or my boundaries are being violated or whatever. fucked up.

“what’s your five year plan” bro i wake up every day confused by the fact that i’m even alive

“just communicate” becomes a lot harder when your brain keeps treating uncertainty like a physical threat

”time heals all wounds” WRONG. it merely allows for infection.. it is Too late for me

Nothing hurts more than remembering how it felt before everything broke