go away, you’ll get hurt if you stay

i have so little patience sometimes. do not complain to me about food/housing insecurity unless you have absolutely exhausted your resources. if you have a food bank available, but choose not to use it, shut the fuck up. if you qualify for section 8, but are 'too proud' to be in low income housing while you ebeg online, shut the fuck up. at some point this is learned helplessness. People will complain ass to ass to me without understanding I lived over 2 years on $72 a month. a MONTH. for bills, everything. I was given maybe $50 for food. If you use your resources you absolutely can live off of basically nothing but y'all are too fucking proud or lazy to actually utilize those resources. yeah, unfortunately you might have to give up some freedoms if you live in federal housing, but guess what? you won't be worrying about the roof over your head.

i want to feel safe and loved and held and understood

vry much in the 'i am not okay and i will never be okay' mood rn

not doing good, y'know, mentally and all

on my vent bc i do feel shitty saying this, but honestly, i do feel better about myself reading 30+ novels/nonfictions in a year vs someone who reads 60+ mangas/fanfics in a year. Might be a narc trait, idk, but I genuinely feel there's so much substance and nuance to novels and nonfictions where manga and fanfic are far more often geared towards pure, quick entertainment. my last 5 star novel took me over a year to read. idk. i see folks get through a manga a day, and yes they ARE reading, I also do enjoy manga, but at some point the substance and content matters- and taking time to read a novel or good nonfiction can do wonders.

14 again, suddenly