ERASERHEAD BABY STAN ARMY

ah, tesblr. city of posts! city of magic! big city. i really LOVE the posts at night, shoo-shoo. the City of Love. got it? love? posts? night? big. big, big, big, BIG!

i love when the actual play is angelenos playing a game set in los angeles filmed in los angeles because i was born and raised and i persist in los angeles! embarrassing!!

i wanna catch up on private nightmares when my brain works again. i miss my coterieeeeeee my duskborn crew i miss a game set in los angeles i miss this absolutely toxic found "family" and their uh, coyote

i smell like leather and cherry candy so it cant be all bad

right now more than myself i am worried about my dad. at least i can relay my experiences as i go through it to him. like not only do i know he needs me rn but he even told me he will more and more, and i also really need him. i saw my mom last night and it was a good distraction but she can really be a lot and she does not understand how to feel her own feelings. lot of weird projection from her that i have to deflect not to enable because the default way i express compassion with most people just backfires on her and she decides to respect boundaries much less every time. she just wants someone to listen and be able to firmly go hey i am not you, i am actually me!!! but she also will need me more and more the older she gets. yeah this continues to be the dumbest bullshit ever but it's like. the universal dumb bullshit that grief is. on the walk on the walk

i see an argonian oc i smile