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βΛβ‘ Important life updates: Trying to raise funds to move out (Please read!)
Hi, helloβitβs been a while. I know Iβve long left this place for the most part, & tbh this post is only being made here out of necessity, as I donβt really intend on being present hereβyβall know Iβm most active on bsky under the same username (estrelladeishtar) as well as active on instagram w the same nameβ
But, that asideβ¦ Getting to the point of why Iβm here:
Iβm not really a fan of divulging personal life matters, but unfortunately Iβm left with no choice. A lot has started to unfold in my personal life ever since last year, circumstances that escalated to a point where, for the sake of my own life & future, & my physical & mental wellbeing, I have to move out. One way or another it has to be done, & thereβs a lot of reasons why (covering those in a bit), with the aim being to leave Texas behind & move somewhere up north (especially with Texas not being the best for me as someone who is lgbt+ & disabled).
However, building up the funds for moving out & across state lines has been very difficult, especially considering my resources keep being siphoned from me against my will, & the fact the job Iβm in is also damaging to my health which has also messed with financesβespecially as someone who is disabled.
I have been able to plan out a roommate situation with someone I hold very close to me at least, which is definitely gonna help with moving & will ease some of the financial burdenβ¦
But even in spite of this, the initial move still needs to happen, which⦠Obviously, funds are needed for that to be possible in the first place, which currently is the main complicating factor in this panning out.
Hence, the reason for this post, as this is a call for help in being able to raise the necessary funds to make this possible. Iβm providing a gofundme link below, & while normally I would have kept this on just my bsky, getting any momentum on donations has been extremely difficult. Which... This move is important, as it will help me get out of a living situation that is nothing but detrimental to me to put it lightly, in addition to allowing me to heal from this place & furthermore, actually have more of a chance at having a life I want.
The link to the main donation pool (gofundme) is here, with all the details on the reasons behind why (which I apologize for the length of the post on the siteβ
β Hi. Nyx/Ishtar, aka EstrellaDeIshtar here.
I... really didn't β¦ Nyx-Ishtar Celis needs your support for Help a queer disabled artis
(I also have screencapped the details of the gofundme & attached em to the bottom of this post under a read more)
I know times are tough right now, so I understand if donations canβt be made by everyoneβbut at least sharing this would be immensely helpful & appreciated, as it can help in outreach for potential donors
& For those wondering why not I offer commission work: Its explained in the gofundme, but I'm in a period of burnout so severe (thanks to... everything going on) that I literally only go to work & sleep to recover (chronic pain makes it harder) atp, not to mention my tablet is busted completely & I have no way of being able to reliably take on comms atm.
I am actively trying to make this happen & have been for a while, even with current circumstances not being the best... But any & all help would be appreciated & I am forever going to be grateful for it seeing how Iβve essentially been pushed to having to do thisβ
I didnβt want to have to, but no other choice right? & While I do keep most updates on this on my bsky & the gofundme site, I will try to at least make an update on how it goes here if its an important one or not. & Thank you for your time in reading this as well, & for sharing for those that do.
(& As a final note & as mentioned before, below Iβve screencapped the details I wrote out on the gofundme on reasons why. Shoved under the βread moreβ below just to not make the post too lengthy.)
dusting off this old place to give friend's post a little bump- i can vouch for how bad things have gotten on their end with what theyre going through
please consider reblogging this! it's been hard to find the necessary reach because of what social media has turned into these days, in addition to risky circumstances that prevent them from posting in certain places
βΛβ‘ Important life updates: Trying to raise funds to move out (Please read!)
Hi, helloβitβs been a while. I know Iβve long left this place for the most part, & tbh this post is only being made here out of necessity, as I donβt really intend on being present hereβyβall know Iβm most active on bsky under the same username (estrelladeishtar) as well as active on instagram w the same nameβ
But, that asideβ¦ Getting to the point of why Iβm here:
Iβm not really a fan of divulging personal life matters, but unfortunately Iβm left with no choice. A lot has started to unfold in my personal life ever since last year, circumstances that escalated to a point where, for the sake of my own life & future, & my physical & mental wellbeing, I have to move out. One way or another it has to be done, & thereβs a lot of reasons why (covering those in a bit), with the aim being to leave Texas behind & move somewhere up north (especially with Texas not being the best for me as someone who is lgbt+ & disabled).
However, building up the funds for moving out & across state lines has been very difficult, especially considering my resources keep being siphoned from me against my will, & the fact the job Iβm in is also damaging to my health which has also messed with financesβespecially as someone who is disabled.
I have been able to plan out a roommate situation with someone I hold very close to me at least, which is definitely gonna help with moving & will ease some of the financial burdenβ¦
But even in spite of this, the initial move still needs to happen, which⦠Obviously, funds are needed for that to be possible in the first place, which currently is the main complicating factor in this panning out.
Hence, the reason for this post, as this is a call for help in being able to raise the necessary funds to make this possible. Iβm providing a gofundme link below, & while normally I would have kept this on just my bsky, getting any momentum on donations has been extremely difficult. Which... This move is important, as it will help me get out of a living situation that is nothing but detrimental to me to put it lightly, in addition to allowing me to heal from this place & furthermore, actually have more of a chance at having a life I want.
The link to the main donation pool (gofundme) is here, with all the details on the reasons behind why (which I apologize for the length of the post on the siteβ
β Hi. Nyx/Ishtar, aka EstrellaDeIshtar here.
I... really didn't β¦ Nyx-Ishtar Celis needs your support for Help a queer disabled artis
(I also have screencapped the details of the gofundme & attached em to the bottom of this post under a read more)
I know times are tough right now, so I understand if donations canβt be made by everyoneβbut at least sharing this would be immensely helpful & appreciated, as it can help in outreach for potential donors
& For those wondering why not I offer commission work: Its explained in the gofundme, but I'm in a period of burnout so severe (thanks to... everything going on) that I literally only go to work & sleep to recover (chronic pain makes it harder) atp, not to mention my tablet is busted completely & I have no way of being able to reliably take on comms atm.
I am actively trying to make this happen & have been for a while, even with current circumstances not being the best... But any & all help would be appreciated & I am forever going to be grateful for it seeing how Iβve essentially been pushed to having to do thisβ
I didnβt want to have to, but no other choice right? & While I do keep most updates on this on my bsky & the gofundme site, I will try to at least make an update on how it goes here if its an important one or not. & Thank you for your time in reading this as well, & for sharing for those that do.
(& As a final note & as mentioned before, below Iβve screencapped the details I wrote out on the gofundme on reasons why. Shoved under the βread moreβ below just to not make the post too lengthy.)
dusting off this old place to give friend's post a little bump- i can vouch for how bad things have gotten on their end with what theyre going through
please consider reblogging this! it's been hard to find the necessary reach because of what social media has turned into these days, in addition to risky circumstances that prevent them from posting in certain places
βΛβ‘ Important life updates: Trying to raise funds to move out (Please read!)
Hi, helloβitβs been a while. I know Iβve long left this place for the most part, & tbh this post is only being made here out of necessity, as I donβt really intend on being present hereβyβall know Iβm most active on bsky under the same username (estrelladeishtar) as well as active on instagram w the same nameβ
But, that asideβ¦ Getting to the point of why Iβm here:
Iβm not really a fan of divulging personal life matters, but unfortunately Iβm left with no choice. A lot has started to unfold in my personal life ever since last year, circumstances that escalated to a point where, for the sake of my own life & future, & my physical & mental wellbeing, I have to move out. One way or another it has to be done, & thereβs a lot of reasons why (covering those in a bit), with the aim being to leave Texas behind & move somewhere up north (especially with Texas not being the best for me as someone who is lgbt+ & disabled).
However, building up the funds for moving out & across state lines has been very difficult, especially considering my resources keep being siphoned from me against my will, & the fact the job Iβm in is also damaging to my health which has also messed with financesβespecially as someone who is disabled.
I have been able to plan out a roommate situation with someone I hold very close to me at least, which is definitely gonna help with moving & will ease some of the financial burdenβ¦
But even in spite of this, the initial move still needs to happen, which⦠Obviously, funds are needed for that to be possible in the first place, which currently is the main complicating factor in this panning out.
Hence, the reason for this post, as this is a call for help in being able to raise the necessary funds to make this possible. Iβm providing a gofundme link below, & while normally I would have kept this on just my bsky, getting any momentum on donations has been extremely difficult. Which... This move is important, as it will help me get out of a living situation that is nothing but detrimental to me to put it lightly, in addition to allowing me to heal from this place & furthermore, actually have more of a chance at having a life I want.
The link to the main donation pool (gofundme) is here, with all the details on the reasons behind why (which I apologize for the length of the post on the siteβ
β Hi. Nyx/Ishtar, aka EstrellaDeIshtar here.
I... really didn't β¦ Nyx-Ishtar Celis needs your support for Help a queer disabled artis
(I also have screencapped the details of the gofundme & attached em to the bottom of this post under a read more)
I know times are tough right now, so I understand if donations canβt be made by everyoneβbut at least sharing this would be immensely helpful & appreciated, as it can help in outreach for potential donors
& For those wondering why not I offer commission work: Its explained in the gofundme, but I'm in a period of burnout so severe (thanks to... everything going on) that I literally only go to work & sleep to recover (chronic pain makes it harder) atp, not to mention my tablet is busted completely & I have no way of being able to reliably take on comms atm.
I am actively trying to make this happen & have been for a while, even with current circumstances not being the best... But any & all help would be appreciated & I am forever going to be grateful for it seeing how Iβve essentially been pushed to having to do thisβ
I didnβt want to have to, but no other choice right? & While I do keep most updates on this on my bsky & the gofundme site, I will try to at least make an update on how it goes here if its an important one or not. & Thank you for your time in reading this as well, & for sharing for those that do.
(& As a final note & as mentioned before, below Iβve screencapped the details I wrote out on the gofundme on reasons why. Shoved under the βread moreβ below just to not make the post too lengthy.)
dusting off this old place to give friend's post a little bump- i can vouch for how bad things have gotten on their end with what theyre going through
please consider reblogging this! it's been hard to find the necessary reach because of what social media has turned into these days, in addition to risky circumstances that prevent them from posting in certain places
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
β Live Streamingβ Interactive Chatβ Private Showsβ HD Quality
Anya is LIVE right now
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Free to watch β’ No registration required β’ HD streaming
βΛβ‘ Important life updates: Trying to raise funds to move out (Please read!)
Hi, helloβitβs been a while. I know Iβve long left this place for the most part, & tbh this post is only being made here out of necessity, as I donβt really intend on being present hereβyβall know Iβm most active on bsky under the same username (estrelladeishtar) as well as active on instagram w the same nameβ
But, that asideβ¦ Getting to the point of why Iβm here:
Iβm not really a fan of divulging personal life matters, but unfortunately Iβm left with no choice. A lot has started to unfold in my personal life ever since last year, circumstances that escalated to a point where, for the sake of my own life & future, & my physical & mental wellbeing, I have to move out. One way or another it has to be done, & thereβs a lot of reasons why (covering those in a bit), with the aim being to leave Texas behind & move somewhere up north (especially with Texas not being the best for me as someone who is lgbt+ & disabled).
However, building up the funds for moving out & across state lines has been very difficult, especially considering my resources keep being siphoned from me against my will, & the fact the job Iβm in is also damaging to my health which has also messed with financesβespecially as someone who is disabled.
I have been able to plan out a roommate situation with someone I hold very close to me at least, which is definitely gonna help with moving & will ease some of the financial burdenβ¦
But even in spite of this, the initial move still needs to happen, which⦠Obviously, funds are needed for that to be possible in the first place, which currently is the main complicating factor in this panning out.
Hence, the reason for this post, as this is a call for help in being able to raise the necessary funds to make this possible. Iβm providing a gofundme link below, & while normally I would have kept this on just my bsky, getting any momentum on donations has been extremely difficult. Which... This move is important, as it will help me get out of a living situation that is nothing but detrimental to me to put it lightly, in addition to allowing me to heal from this place & furthermore, actually have more of a chance at having a life I want.
The link to the main donation pool (gofundme) is here, with all the details on the reasons behind why (which I apologize for the length of the post on the siteβ
β Hi. Nyx/Ishtar, aka EstrellaDeIshtar here.
I... really didn't β¦ Nyx-Ishtar Celis needs your support for Help a queer disabled artis
(I also have screencapped the details of the gofundme & attached em to the bottom of this post under a read more)
I know times are tough right now, so I understand if donations canβt be made by everyoneβbut at least sharing this would be immensely helpful & appreciated, as it can help in outreach for potential donors
& For those wondering why not I offer commission work: Its explained in the gofundme, but I'm in a period of burnout so severe (thanks to... everything going on) that I literally only go to work & sleep to recover (chronic pain makes it harder) atp, not to mention my tablet is busted completely & I have no way of being able to reliably take on comms atm.
I am actively trying to make this happen & have been for a while, even with current circumstances not being the best... But any & all help would be appreciated & I am forever going to be grateful for it seeing how Iβve essentially been pushed to having to do thisβ
I didnβt want to have to, but no other choice right? & While I do keep most updates on this on my bsky & the gofundme site, I will try to at least make an update on how it goes here if its an important one or not. & Thank you for your time in reading this as well, & for sharing for those that do.
(& As a final note & as mentioned before, below Iβve screencapped the details I wrote out on the gofundme on reasons why. Shoved under the βread moreβ below just to not make the post too lengthy.)
dusting off this old place to give friend's post a little bump- i can vouch for how bad things have gotten on their end with what theyre going through
please consider reblogging this! it's been hard to find the necessary reach because of what social media has turned into these days, in addition to risky circumstances that prevent them from posting in certain places
absolutely insane that a minimum wage worker is expected to do their own job AND the jobs of three more people AND go home feeling like someone took a crowbar to their back and joints AND not have a consistent schedule so they can't plan ahead for anything AND clean the place AND figure out how to deal with the magic beans their idiot bosses traded their paychecks for from some tech bro AND still not make enough to know how they're going to make ends meet
meanwhile the average CEO's workday is like... maybe go to a board meeting, delegate all the actual important tasks to the peons, and spend the next seven and a half hours of the day posting shit you couldn't waterboard out of me on linkedin
I donβt know where else to place these feelings. & normally i woulda left myself away from this site but im briefly here for the monent. So.
Just.
Things are to a degree that i genuinely am close to letting go & resetting my life
Leaving this life behind & moving on to the next im reborn into if that exists
Ive lost so much. I continue to lose so much.
I dont even know if i matter to people I thought myself close to once. I donβt know if i even have any purpose in their lives. Iβve been over the past year letting myself isolate further frok anyone so that that way, if something happens by my own hand, they wonβt be affectedβi kind of expect em not to be phased, i do believe myself that irrelevant to othersβ lives
I donβt knowβ i donβt know
β¦the emotional & financial abuse & the way the life has been drained from me, & continues to be drained from me, while trapped here, is getting to me very, very badlyβ& ive been burning myself out trying hard to do what i can to get away & seeing the way nothing has panned out in my favor & how much more of a hole things try tp trap me in is creating a situation where i dont know how much more i can hold on.
I donβt want to be here. Iβm so desperate for some kind of escape. & I hate that Iβve had to resort to begging online for some semblance of help (& even more that it just feels like self humiliation because i mean, when has asking ever worked out before, right?)
All bc of sheer desperation
I feel like Iβm barely even alive, & how much worse things are, & its driving me to such intense extremes i donβt know if iβll make it past this year
& admittedly, not even sure Iβll live past these months. Weeks. Maybe less. I donβt know.
The downswings get worse, & w more conflicts its pushing me more & more & Iβm just barely hanging onβ& its crushing me too because i swore to myself I wouldnβt put anyone through that kind of loss only to find myself teetering close to slipping over the edge, close to just.
Letting myself act on something extreme. & being done w this.
I have the means to if i wanted..
Which I hate thinking about that thought, & have tried hard not fucking acting on.
I hate being trapped here. I hate how hopeless it all has become. I hate the circumstances Iβm under.
I hate that its literally trying to survive atp.
Esp when I donβt know if I can do it anymore.
Because Iβm tired of the cards this life has dealt me. & Iβm tired of survival mode. Iβm tired of all the grief & anger & rage & despair ive been in for who fucking knows how long. Iβm tired of everything.
I donβt know if thereβs any other way out anymore from this.
& I donβt know if I can survive much longer anymore.
βΛβ‘ Important life updates: Trying to raise funds to move out (Please read!)
Hi, helloβitβs been a while. I know Iβve long left this place for the most part, & tbh this post is only being made here out of necessity, as I donβt really intend on being present hereβyβall know Iβm most active on bsky under the same username (estrelladeishtar) as well as active on instagram w the same nameβ
But, that asideβ¦ Getting to the point of why Iβm here:
Iβm not really a fan of divulging personal life matters, but unfortunately Iβm left with no choice. A lot has started to unfold in my personal life ever since last year, circumstances that escalated to a point where, for the sake of my own life & future, & my physical & mental wellbeing, I have to move out. One way or another it has to be done, & thereβs a lot of reasons why (covering those in a bit), with the aim being to leave Texas behind & move somewhere up north (especially with Texas not being the best for me as someone who is lgbt+ & disabled).
However, building up the funds for moving out & across state lines has been very difficult, especially considering my resources keep being siphoned from me against my will, & the fact the job Iβm in is also damaging to my health which has also messed with financesβespecially as someone who is disabled.
I have been able to plan out a roommate situation with someone I hold very close to me at least, which is definitely gonna help with moving & will ease some of the financial burdenβ¦
But even in spite of this, the initial move still needs to happen, which⦠Obviously, funds are needed for that to be possible in the first place, which currently is the main complicating factor in this panning out.
Hence, the reason for this post, as this is a call for help in being able to raise the necessary funds to make this possible. Iβm providing a gofundme link below, & while normally I would have kept this on just my bsky, getting any momentum on donations has been extremely difficult. Which... This move is important, as it will help me get out of a living situation that is nothing but detrimental to me to put it lightly, in addition to allowing me to heal from this place & furthermore, actually have more of a chance at having a life I want.
The link to the main donation pool (gofundme) is here, with all the details on the reasons behind why (which I apologize for the length of the post on the siteβ
β Hi. Nyx/Ishtar, aka EstrellaDeIshtar here.
I... really didn't β¦ Nyx-Ishtar Celis needs your support for Help a queer disabled artis
(I also have screencapped the details of the gofundme & attached em to the bottom of this post under a read more)
I know times are tough right now, so I understand if donations canβt be made by everyoneβbut at least sharing this would be immensely helpful & appreciated, as it can help in outreach for potential donors
& For those wondering why not I offer commission work: Its explained in the gofundme, but I'm in a period of burnout so severe (thanks to... everything going on) that I literally only go to work & sleep to recover (chronic pain makes it harder) atp, not to mention my tablet is busted completely & I have no way of being able to reliably take on comms atm.
I am actively trying to make this happen & have been for a while, even with current circumstances not being the best... But any & all help would be appreciated & I am forever going to be grateful for it seeing how Iβve essentially been pushed to having to do thisβ
I didnβt want to have to, but no other choice right? & While I do keep most updates on this on my bsky & the gofundme site, I will try to at least make an update on how it goes here if its an important one or not. & Thank you for your time in reading this as well, & for sharing for those that do.
(& As a final note & as mentioned before, below Iβve screencapped the details I wrote out on the gofundme on reasons why. Shoved under the βread moreβ below just to not make the post too lengthy.)
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Thought I'd give a small update, but in light of some recent events I've been making the full switch away from twit onto bluesky o/
For those who wish to follow, my account is here! (But please keep in mind: while the acct is sfw, i'd rather 18+ only ppl follow, sorry!)
As for using tumblr, I admit I'm very... up in the air with how I feel, regarding continued use of this site (given how the site is run & other issues I have with). I suppose I'll have to consider whether or not I'll keep updating on here or not, & perhaps when I've decided I'll update this post or make a separate post regarding that? We'll see what I decide, I suppose
But yeah. For now, here's where I'll most be active at so y'all can find me if you also use bsky o/
Thought I'd give a small update, but in light of some recent events I've been making the full switch away from twit onto bluesky o/
For those who wish to follow, my account is here! (But please keep in mind: while the acct is sfw, i'd rather 18+ only ppl follow, sorry!)
As for using tumblr, I admit I'm very... up in the air with how I feel, regarding continued use of this site (given how the site is run & other issues I have with). I suppose I'll have to consider whether or not I'll keep updating on here or not, & perhaps when I've decided I'll update this post or make a separate post regarding that? We'll see what I decide, I suppose
But yeah. For now, here's where I'll most be active at so y'all can find me if you also use bsky o/
Thought I'd give a small update, but in light of some recent events I've been making the full switch away from twit onto bluesky o/
For those who wish to follow, my account is here! (But please keep in mind: while the acct is sfw, i'd rather 18+ only ppl follow, sorry!)
As for using tumblr, I admit I'm very... up in the air with how I feel, regarding continued use of this site (given how the site is run & other issues I have with). I suppose I'll have to consider whether or not I'll keep updating on here or not, & perhaps when I've decided I'll update this post or make a separate post regarding that? We'll see what I decide, I suppose
But yeah. For now, here's where I'll most be active at so y'all can find me if you also use bsky o/
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
β Live Streamingβ Interactive Chatβ Private Showsβ HD Quality
Anya is LIVE right now
FREE
Free to watch β’ No registration required β’ HD streaming
Thought I'd give a small update, but in light of some recent events I've been making the full switch away from twit onto bluesky o/
For those who wish to follow, my account is here! (But please keep in mind: while the acct is sfw, i'd rather 18+ only ppl follow, sorry!)
As for using tumblr, I admit I'm very... up in the air with how I feel, regarding continued use of this site (given how the site is run & other issues I have with). I suppose I'll have to consider whether or not I'll keep updating on here or not, & perhaps when I've decided I'll update this post or make a separate post regarding that? We'll see what I decide, I suppose
But yeah. For now, here's where I'll most be active at so y'all can find me if you also use bsky o/
And I'm sorry but sometimes horrible people write good books or make good music. If you keep acting like this isn't possible, you might find yourself making excuses once YOUR favorite artist gets outed as a bigot and you can't just pull out the "I always hated their stuff anyway."
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