one more lonely girl for the pile

you understand that there's nothing wrong with wanting people to pay attention to you, right? it's not intrinsically evil, you are allowed to want to be seen. you can do it in soft and nice and good ways, but you don't even have to. you can just want to be seen.

make the transfem that's bigger and taller than you feel cute and safe or I'll fucking kill you btw

i don't really like it when western mythological terms are applied haphazardly to essentially unrelated ideas. this is a completely lost battle but a lóng is really not a dragon, it is its own thing with only surface level similarities

i especially dislike many works that try to fold all sorts of different mythologies into a single consistent schema because they tend to heavily privilege western conceptions in doing so- see 'dragonology' books twisting basically every mythical reptilian under the sun into the mould of 'a species of dragon', implicitly centring the beowulf-style firebreather as the default from which all other mythologies derive, or basically anything that does worldwide vampire bloodlines

relatedly a qílín is not a unicorn, a fènghuáng is not a phoenix, and a jiāngshī is not a vampire, and it can impede understanding when they're approached from the standpoint of being the 'chinese version' of these concepts from western myth

the stupidest thing about mental illness is the short half life of reassurances. like yes I know you reminded me yesterday that I'm not secretly toxic waste that everybody wants rid of but that was like 18 hours ago and I forgor

$ 60 / 380

Please, Rent is Due in 2 Days

if you tell a trans woman she is "enforcing passing culture" by wanting to pass and expressing it i honestly hope nothing good happens in your life ever after that

Crazy that once I'm passing and starting to feel good about myself, fake allies are trying to tell me that being bricked tf out is actually the best.

This is why I'll never shut up about the part of Whipping Girl where Serano says we gotta stop calling it "passing." It pretty directly accuses us of 'hiding' or 'fooling people into thinking we're women.' We aren't "passing as women," we are women, we're being correctly gendered as women. When people deride us for "passing", they're blatantly saying that they don't think we're women. Afterall, nobody says cis women "pass as women" when they're correctly gendered as women.

if you'd like to help with my recovery etc

Got one of them taken care of for this month and need about 300 for the other one plus money for groceries for a while if anyone can help

anyways please fuck off and unfollow me if you think that acknowledging the basic reality that tma people suffer more than tme people of their same demographic is "minimizing discrimination against transmascs" or whatever, we have nothing in common and i find your cowardice repugnant 👍

sick to my fucking stomach for all the times i begged to be loved and seen by anyone lmao

Well I think it was brave

had an asthma attack yesterday bcs of the bad air quality, goal is still soup for meds, having a really hard time <3

goal is still soup, even $1 or a kind word will help <3

grateful for any help <3

have an allergy test this week havent been able to take my meds and im covered in hives for the next couple days, even $1 will help <3

goal is still soup 🫩🫶🏽

havent got to eat yet today, grateful for any help <3

allergy test today, even $1 or a kind word will go a long way <3

pls donate if u can <3

my blog posting on my main (@heartpdf) has been suspended 💔🥺 pls share or help out if u can <3

its still disability pride month 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈🥳🎉

pls donate if u can <3

my main keeps getting suspended, posting from @heartpdfs <3

have the worst migraine. having trouble functioning

have another dr in the am, rlly need cat food, grateful for even $1 or a kind word <3

goal is just soup <3

getting blood drawn in the am, grateful for any help <3

will be storming today as well, goal is still soup <3

kinda burnt out. another neurology appointment in the am, grateful for any help <3