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I love the confidence of a five-year-old demanding a backyard panther. Honestly, respect. A panther on a farm is a beautiful but complicated livestock choice, but a vibe nonetheless. Hitting the trails looking like you stepped straight out of an Edith Wharton novel is how I will forever remember you. Fake it till you make it, right? I'm sure the horse business will get sorted out, but I'm definitely holding onto a specific dream in my mind. Consider it locked in. There is genuinely nothing better than getting really wine drunk and breaking out in musical theatre. Us just vibing and belting out songs until we get noise complaints. When are we making this happen? I’ll start stretching my vocal cords.

right ? she was fierce and ready to fight for her dream at five years old, having no clue about what's legal or not, but at least she had a dream. still have that dream, minus holding it in my backyard. might need to finally take my ass out to africa and go onto one of those safari tours to see one up close and personal. "hitting the trails looking like you stepped straight out of an edith warthon novel' has to make it onto my gravestone, thank you very much. you'll sort it out and make that speficic dream in mind come true in the long run, i'm sure of it. what have you been getting up to in napa so far ? because i feel like tomorrow night might be perfect. everyone will either be zen thanks to spending the day at the spa or in artistic flow after the sip and paint. and last time i checked, belting out songs is artistry and therefore worth every noise complaint we're gonna get.

napa had been synonymous with three things: obviously wine, never needing to hide a flask in your purse like you were on some alcoholic heist, zen, even though hot rods had screamed anything but, and whatever scandalous tea exploded out when a group of celebrities circled in the same place. harry had already just known this would land squarely in the third category—there had always been this teasing, borderline dangerous chemistry between them, swapping mean remarks like they hit harder than sultry compliments ever could, so when she'd floated the idea of a never have i game, he had practically pounced onto it. hauled them out to the hotel's pool area, where no curfew existed, and no one was coming to save either of them from themselves, stars scattered like spilled glitter around the fat glow of the moon, light bouncing off the water in lazy, rippling sheets that made everything feel slower and more reckless than it probably should have. and right to where they'd settled into the lounge chairs, him in shorts and a jumper that clung to every line of his figure like it had been stitched there on purpose, the kind of casual that looked like it took thought.

i saw on instagram the other week that you finally finished filming in prague. crazy that you lived there for 7 months. do you think you'll be making a trip back one day or was that more than enough time for you?

yeah, seven months somehow flew by and also felt super long at the same time. have you ever spent a considerable amount of time filming very far away from home ? i'll definitely make a trip back over there someday. if i hadn't missed my friends and family that much, i probably would've stayed around even longer. it's a beautiful city, very worth the hype.

maybe a little sarcasm, it's the kind of quote you'd find on a t-shirt or someone's insta story when they're subtweeting their ex, but hey, i can admit my faults, yeah? that's hot of me. you're right, though. i have no idea why she stuck around the minute she found him in that camper van, making out with the groupie during the earlier episodes, but sometimes love is messy, too, you know? sounding like an endless cliche quotebook, but it's true. heart wants what it wants and all of that, even if the other person is a complete shitbag. interesting good or interesting bad? because i need to know if i've impressed you or you’re going to roast me for my tv tastes. i've been a massive fleetwood mac fan since forever. performed with stevie a few times, she calls me her son, so i'm fully rocking the love child born in the fifties thing. that's one of the more heartbreaking songs on the record dressed up in trap beats like any good pop song should be. missed it a ton, actually. you know, the bras thrown on stage, the copious amounts of signs. completely kidding, but you should come to a show, see the atmosphere a bit, get lost in it with me. might even save you a proper good seat. front row. or backstage if you're feeling brave. done, sealed, that's the pitch we're going with. the weight loss was him. 

you know what would be hot of you ? if you'd actually wear a t-shirt with said quote. very brave. very inspirational. valid point. i mean, aside from all the emotions, betrayal and shit my character had to deal within the show and she still stayed, it's also that tv would be incredibly boring if everyone had healthy communication skills and self-respect. nobody wants to watch eight episodes of emotionally mature conflict resolution, right ? we stay for the drama. we stay for the messy. and you're right, the heart does want what it wants. at this point, you should just publish your own cliche quotes book. i'm pretty sure people would be all over that. interesting good. could never judge you for having 'daisy jones' so far up on your list. i mean, i could pretty much stab myself in the back with a huge ass knife if i'd call it bad. roasting will take place elsewhere. like when we're talking about you just shaking your ass three minutes straight for your new music video in little red shorts. 'love of my life' kind of ruined my emotional stability there for a while, but i suppose that's exactly what you were aiming for. completely kidding ? come on, we can be real here. you've missed that aside from other, probably more important things. i'm always brave, so save me those front row and backstage passes. on one condition. get me wine drunk in the valley and play a round of 'never have i ever' with me.

Im so glad you did. You sparkled greater than the night sky my love. Oh we did didnt we? Maybe we need to go into horse business together. Maybe two to start? Or maybe one. I want to build it slow and purposeful. So I can give attention and learn whichever one comes my way first. I just want to find that peace I only find riding again. Dont tell Disneyworld but I have a new fav.

me and horses ? i mean, 'the age of innocence' did teach me how to look like a lady in a saddle when i ride, but other than that, i'm absolutely clueless. i was always more into wildlife animals. like panthers ? begged my mom for five years straight to get me one for my birthday. mind you, i was five and thought you could hold them on a farm too. anyway, i'm pretty sure you'll figure that horse business out all by yourself with your boy. are we gonna catch up in the valley ? get wine drunk and randomly start bursting out into songs ?

Oh no, not the “Notebook tax” finally catching up with me after all these years. I knew there would be consequences someday. I can absolutely pay in matcha, pasta and wine though — emotionally devastating people on screen should at least provide carbs and beverages in return. Mmmhhh... Send Help… I wish I could promise you safety, but I’ve learned that if a story makes me feel something deeply, I usually can’t resist it. Even when it hurts a little. Or a lot. So maybe proceed with caution and keep tissues nearby just in case. I’m not saying your heart will be broken… but I’m also not not saying that. And please don’t threaten me with rewatching the one with Channing like it’s emotional warfare. I already feel guilty enough. Honestly, this was such a sweet message. Being someone’s “favorite love-hate girl” is a title I’ll gladly accept and i love it so much!!! i feel special!

it's been what ― twenty years ? and the "notebook tax" is only catching up with you now ? i feel slightly special, but also a little wary, because this could mean two things. either you really do pay me in matcha, pasta and wine. or you're fully aware of all the tears you've managed to cause during those years and you're just acting all innocent. like i'm even more concerned now because "i can't resist stories that hurt me" is exactly how people end up sobbing at two am staring at the ceiling questioning life choices after "just one episode." but done deal, i'll proceed with caution and see how that goes. get all comfortable being my favorite love-hate girl, enjoy it while it lasts. because that might change once i've watched "send help". unless of course, you'll manage to distract me from all the hurt and rage after i've watched it. or whatever other emotion that journey takes me onto.

"back in the day"? you're making me feel extremely old now, but you're not wrong. i had my glory days, and it was nice seeing people obsessed with me. now i'm just another guy. i wouldn't count on a big comeback; i honestly have no idea when i'll release new music. why can't she just do what she wants? she should go after her dreams, and if her dream is to meet you, then she has to work for it. but yeah, i guess it's time for you two to finally meet, just let me know when you're free and we'll do something about it.

because you are old. sorry for the reality check, but with me hitting the big 3-0 this june, i'm obliged to make everyone suffer with me, because time runs faster than you think. are you gonna be the elton john of this generation ? pushing out bop after bop while you're young and then basically going dead silent only to reappear as featured artist on someone's song in your seventies ? where are you in this world right now ? because i'd be down for a quick canada getaway if your sister still lives over there. or new york city. anything to drag your ass out of that bed in la.

I don't think that you would get onto my list of people that I find annoying - it's quite hard to get onto that one. But I think that it would get kind of old rather fast. My team are truly amazing - I'd recommend them to anyone but that means I'd have to share. Damn - no pressure there. I'll make sure that the next one is just as good if not better.

really ? how hard exactly ? like give me an example of how someone could fuck it up to end up on that list. you don't like to share, huh ? i was about to say that's not very pisces of you, but then again, is there anyone out here these days who actually likes to share and mean it ? don't think so. good, you better. because i'm a gemini, watching you closely to prove your point.

First of all, thank you for the kind words! That's really sweet. You were absolutely wonderful in Daisy Jones, by the way. Okay so funnily enough, someone asked about Messi in an interview a few years ago and seemed to have your same reaction; like him or it's a problem. Hahah, but I do really like his style of play! He's elevating the sport in a great way. His jerseys fly off the shelves so it's cool to see. Messi Mania is definitely taking over. Even more so now with the upcoming World Cup. I think he's got his own Lego set? That's pretty impressive. Right now, I’m more on the sidelines (both literally and figuratively) because I’m an investor in a few professional soccer teams. Coaching was something I did occasionally, whenever my daughters needed someone to step in. It's been years, though. They were 7 then and now they're 19. But yeah, as for professional coaching, I honestly don't have the patience. I really enjoy giving back via soccer clinics though; it's nice to see the players evolve and gain confidence in their skills (with a little bit of help here and there). 

just the truth. i'm a very big fan, actually. and if i had one ounce of talent in me, i probably would've ended up playing soccer and you would've been my rolemodel. amateurs league, obviously. because the other day i played some volleyball for fun and ended up with a bloody toe. so yeah, sports and i don't really get along with each other. messi mania and his lego set are totally valid and deserved. but you're right, with the upcoming world cup it's gonna get crazy out here. seven to nineteen ? how fast did that time fly by from your point of view ? but it's really cool that you're involved with teams as an investor ― that's such a unique way to stay connected to the sport. i get what you mean about coaching, i feel like it takes a very specific kind of patience and probably a lot more energy than people expect. but the clinics sound incredibly rewarding. there's something special about helping people build confidence like that, especially when you can actually see their progress over time.

my girl, i've never been so excited for something to come out as i have been for the age of innocence. getting to see you in a period drama? i just know you're going to pull off the fashion and the elaborate hair they had going those days. but also, i'm just glad to see you securing that acting bag. you deserve it. / @camisfm

are you gonna set a countdown once the release date is officially announced ? because i'm expecting daily messages of "only thirty-eight more days to go" from you. helps with mending the trauma of having to wear a corset twelve hours a day. still had the best time filiming it and can't wait for you and the world to see it. think we've both been securing that acting bag lately. super stoked for 'how to make a killing' to be released. also, you starring in sabrina's music video ? hot. you repping the best city on earth on vanity fair's cover ? super hot.

Prague is beautiful! I've filmed there before, and loved every minute of it. Anywhere in Europe, it's gonna be full of old buildings and rich culture. So jealous you worked in Colombia, though, what was it for? Somebody else just asked me this, and the first place I said was Budapest, so that's definitely up there. Thailand, too. So full of chaos, but completely unlikely anywhere I've ever been. I've just been so lucky with the locations I've been able to go to for work.

right ? it's magical. cobblestone and beautiful buildings every time you turn a corner. did you do one of those underground tours while you were in prague ? because i highly recommend them. or anywhere else in europe. rich culture and rich underground culture too. i filmed the second season of 'the night manager' in colombia and it was mesmerizing. like thanks to that beautiful country, i didn't mind waking up at four am for a fifteen hours shooting day, because it was such a blast thanks to the vibe and scenery. i've heard great things about budapest, definitely on my bucket list. you got to film in thailand ? sounds like a dream. are we talking chaotic bangkok ? or one of those many islands ?

the fuck are you talking about, "british charm," like that has anything to do with checking in? fucking noted. i still don't see why you have any reason to act like a stuck up bitch, but i digress. cool cool… maybe it'd add to that greatness and help ease some of that tension, if you pulled the stick out of your ass. so what did i do this time that got you all pressed?

what did you do this time to get me pressed ? hm... wait, give me a second, i gotta pull that stick out of my ass first. okay, got it. smells like unicorns and rightfully being apparently a stuck up bitch because you're a fucking idiot. are you seriously wondering why i'm not interested in you checking in ? clearly, your sherlock skills only work on screen.

so don't hate me, a man's opinion is always wrong, and clearly mine's about to be, but even though the messy side of me was rooting for daisy and billy, you really looked mesmerizing in that scene where your character watched the concert play out. i keep seeing it in the ether, you know, when i'm on my burner account, and it's making the rounds because it's not only me obsessed with your acting. just a vision. almost made me forget i was supposed to be watching the plot, if i'm honest. i almost don't want to see a season two, seeing as you wouldn't be able to come back for it. they'd have to give me you in a flashback scene. which feels a bit tragic, doesn't it? like they're rationing out the good bits. but yeah—properly brilliant, that was. / @camisfm

you're starting off strong with " a man's opinion is always wrong" and i'm not sure if that's sarcasm or not, but i couldn't agree more. i think all of our messy sides were rooting for daisy and billy ― you, because they just had that connection and chemistry. me, because camila deserves so much better and a part of me wishes she would've just quietly left with julia and never looked back. but instead, you got me, apparently pretty crying on screen on your burner account. because truth be told ? while we were filming, i was scared i'd end up becoming a meme for being an ugly crier. thank god that never happened. i didn't take you for a fan of the show though, so that's interesting. especially since people in the comments kept saying your 'love of my life' is camila's song for billy and i can see it. which reminds me ― haven't given your new album a listen yet, shame on me, but heard you're about to go on tour ? how much have you missed sold out stadiums full of people screaming your name ? we don't need a second season. i'm voting for a camila spin-off. watch her thriving as a single mom. 'season 2 weight loss' ― perfect title, because she got rid of that man.

that's amazing, thank you for telling me! your dad sounds like my kinda' guy: maybe i can get him a beer sometime and we can seal our friendship. that's hilarious, i love it. alternatively, i think a lot of people probably feel like i talk about it too much, but it was a really fun time in my life and i loved being a part of that scene. back then, i was pretty serious about that being my path, but acting won me over in the end. probably for the best, you know, but i still jam when i can with my friends and family. the love for playing never goes away. but that leads me to ask: i know you've been killing it on screens lately yourself! was that always a passion of yours?

you're inviting my dad out for a beer so you can seal that friendship ? pretty sure when i tell him, he won't stop talking about it until it actually happens. and by that, i mean you need to make it happen soon, because he's just as unbearable as i am when it comes to dreams about to be coming true. i love that you still keep jamming with friends and family. acting winning you over in the end doesn't mean you gotta give up your other passions and you're the living proof of that. could you ever see yourself on a stage again ? like a revival concert for a night with your boys ? or being the surprise act at someone's show for a great duet ? to be honest, acting really hadn't been on my radar for a long time. i mean, deep down i've always had a passion for it. but watching both of my parents being actors and struggling, it kind of turned me off. and i mean that in the nicest way possible, because not all of us are destined to be brad pitt's or meryl streep's and that's okay. so, i started off with modelling, because that was the vibe back then and i've always loved fashion. until one day, annabelle hit me up and offered me a role in her little indie project and i took it. never looked back after that because i had the best time really stepping into a character for the first time and now here we are.

i think it's safe to say 2026 is yours, right? you're everywhere and people are obsessed with you. and i'm not even talking about me, i'm talking about my sister, who won't stop talking about you. she's telling me how i need to "get my shit together" and make you two meet. she's the most annoying girl on earth but come on, this is too much. @camisfm

yeah, 2026 is all mine. i'm thriving on a cloud of my face being everywhere and people being obsessed with me. now i know what you were feeling like back in the days. kidding. i'm still waiting for your great comeback, though. are you still hitting the studio on the regular ? shawny, please do get your shit together for the sake of your sister. pretty sure she slid into my dm's the other day with something like "my dumbass brother prefers to smoke and then sleep it off rather than introducing us to each other." and honestly, we're both judging you a little for that.