I tried NPD bingo card that doesn't describe my malicious NPD in the slightest.
Immediate reaction to someone venting to you is "shut the fuck up, i don't care" - it's general reaction to anything what people say...
Vents for attention - This is connected with my DPD but I also used venting as try to guilt trip and gaslight others.
Forgets people don't think about you 24/7 - I do not forget it and it makes me extremely mad
Joins groups just to prove that you can, not because you care - True, I participate only for my self gain.
NPD makes you want to have NPD - Not really. It wants you to not be labelled as narc but as "normal" and "better than anyone else" instead. I misdiagnosed ourselves before with BPD to hide ourselves from truth being a narc and consciously responsible for all actions. So I have meant that we want to have NPD as long it's labelled as "normal" and not as a mental illness and problem to be fixed.
"Oh, I have NPD" "Eh I don't think so, you're nice" - I do not care if people self aware that I'm narc. It's good for me to get reminded that we're trying with kindness to fix NPD and we're doing good job that others notice it too.
"Wow, I love your work, it's so good" /lying - True. I tend to "lie" about liking something even with lack of emotional empathy. Those are "light lies" and mannerisms developed by cognitive empathy to show kindness.
Loves labels to make you feel more unique - True... I really love to put myself as more "important" and "great" than others in literally everything. Also I have fragile ego so I may lie about them just to not be seen in vulnerable way.
Says things just to make people impressed - I sugar coat my and my relationships a lot. Even if it have meant to hide ugly truth. Well, I do not take accountability for hurting others so I do like to hide that or belittle my victims if I want to
Compliments yourself in a "weird" way to seem unique - I never like to be seen as "weird" or not like others because I "have meant" to be perfect.
Parasocial hatred <3 - I can bash things that I personally don't like and telling others that it's "doesn't" worth other's attention. But I do not talk badly about people above us like celebrities. Only person equal or "below" me, victims, loved ones, family members, anyone who I can reach and control.
Hates when non-NPD people complain about being self-centered - I do not complain about it in the slightest. Because it's the truth. Unless I'm narcissistic and I want to defend our fragility and ego.
Uses free space to "win" bingo and be more special - ??? Why is that even written then???
Hierarchies - Nothing close to me is above me. But I tend to have equal people - toxic people and people I tend not to touch just to use them. And my supply.
Realizes you have an EP because you actually cared about what they were going through - Nope... I don't care about everyone, including when I had equal people. It's superficial and conditional kindness. I started to recover from truly feeling bad for my supply and abuse I have done to them instead.
Only does things exclusively for praise - Or for benefits, or for manipulation.
"Is this a delusion or am I just right" - I never question my NPD...
So many side blogs or one blog, both for maximum attention - Yes, I create and do stuff to get more attraction and attention. Without it we wouldn't be interested in the slightest.
Hates when people portray the bad parts of NPD accurately because they're showing you're not actually perfect - Yes, I hate to be exposed as not a good person. That's why I avoided being labelled as narc in the first place. I tend to make perfect self image for ourselves
Hates when people don't listen to you - Yes, I hate it. I want to be seen as superior and this is the sign of not being superior but treated as equal that I hate
Wants someone to have an obsessive hatred with you - NEVER. I don't take any kind of criticism lightly. It hurts my fragile ego a lot.
Has to be the biggest fan always - I never like anything or especially anyone. I always think of myself first so I do not have anything more important than myself.
Uses logic to determine specifically why you are better - Narcissism is not based on logic but on fragility. Being strong against it is more logical.
Criticizes people back as a coping mechanism - It's NOT good copying mechanism I do it to hurt people more for supply. I may criticize others literally for no reason just to get nessesary for my ego reaction
Loves the idea of being interviewed - Unless it's benefits my public image and superiority. In other way I will simply dismiss it because it's just unimportant for me