vaguely pushing this blog in a more system focused direction!
we're a super big system, and there's a lot of frequent changes (people come and go and change their gender and such) so rather than try to introduce everyone, we've organized ourselves into 13 'characters' with fun colors and shapes!
Introducing!! The Byrdz!
Featuring names, percentage of the system which they represent, pronouns (chosen by those they represent) and the general personality/kind of alter they're representing (some sections might be hard to read because of the colors, so i've transcribed it all below the cut)
Anna, 5.7%, Any Pronouns, Performer
Becca, 11.5%, Any Pronouns, Nerd
Bobby (Sometimes spelt Bobbie), 14.8%, Any Pronouns, Hater
Carrie, 6.1%, Any Pronouns, Hard-Worker
Emily (Sometimes spelt Emilee), 3.7%, Any Pronouns, Flirty
Erin, 4.9%, Any Pronouns, Little
Gabriel (Sometimes Gabi), 10.2%, She/Vae/Xie/He/They/Xey/Shim/It/Nya/Xe/Moo/Dark/Ba/Ze, Chill Guy
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i believe the exact thing said to me was "can you not be a bitch about the comic thing?"
i also believe the exact thing i said last time they tried this "DID but palatable" thing was "its not a bitch move to want to be treated like im not roleplay"
Transcription/original poem version:
i understand why we simplified our system of 200+
to these characters
it's easier to understand
easier to follow
less overwhelming
SIMPLER.
but isn't the point that
we get to talk
about our experiences?
what about him?
or is it not palatable to talk about someone who
took your violent thoughts
because they scared you
her?
or is it not relatable
for an alter
to not know a lick of English?
is she too cringe?
is Zero too confusing?
is it a crime to be lost in time
problematic yet too innocent
"too white"
while you beg me to hide
my name
too much your source
too little your source
are you scared you might hear her voice?
and remember why we learned to bite?
or you might not hear her?
and you'll have to acknowledge what happened?
can't let them be too young
but ageless doesn't make sense
they might be offended
or unable to follow
what's worse than a transgender introject?
ones with made up languages?
no one wants to know the real us?
no ones curious?
we have nothing to add
to the plurality discussion
outside of a character?
not the niche?
not the long stayers?
not the evil* and fakeclaimable?
if Here is where we're allowed to unmask
why are you handing me one?
/ end transcription
*I do not approve of the labeling of alters as evil. This is to emphasize the value of ALL alters as valuable, valid, worth listening to people, despite all behaviors and how you feel about them. There is no behavior which makes it suddenly okay to ignore them and their needs.
tbis was supposed to just be a sketch/script for a better comic but i think emotionally this is the best version
[Image IDs: two digitally drawn comic 'pages'; both are entirely almost all black, and drawn in a very rough sketchy style. The text is handwritten.
Image 1: text: " I don't cooking ground meats". A person holds a hunk of ground meat in both hands in front of themself, to the right is text: "They come in these big hunks, and obviously you have to break it up so it cooks all the way". The hands now hold two hunks of ground meat, below is text: "So I break it". Four even smaller hunks of ground meat, to the left is text: "And break it". A pan with seven smaller ground meat chunks in it, to the right is text: "And in the pan I mash it". A profile view of a faceless person standing at a stove, the text is broken into two pieces, one above and one below the stovetop, they read "Until the pieces are small enough" and "So it cooks all the way through". A black scribbled smear across the page, then a close up of ground meat, mashed in a pile, to the right is text: "Until its small enough". A pan with mostly mashed ground meat, but in the top left corner is a fairly large piece, to the right is text: "Then I realized I got so focused I didn't mash it all". below the pan is the text "So I mash". A close-up profile view of a spatula hovering over the meat chunk, below the spatula and each word going down and left is text: "And mash and mash". The spatula has split the meat chunk in half, there are three smaller crumbs. Below the spatula is text: "So it cooks all the way through". Another scribbled black smear, slightly thicker than the previous one. A further away, front-on view of a faceless person standing at a stove, holding up a spatula, below the stove is text: "But by the time I'm done"
Image 2: Two drawings of a pan, one in red, one in blue, layered on top of each other to create a chromatic abberation effect. In the red pan is mashed ground meat, in the blue one is a full, unbroken hunk. To the right is text: "The pieces still look too big", the first four words are in black, "too big" has the same red & blue chromatic abberation effect. On the left is text: "So I mash". Several drawings of the spatula in profile view and the word "mash" layer on top of each other. Large text: "Because it has to cook all the way through", the word "through" is copied three more times, layering partially on top of eachother, each one lower than the previous. A large black scribbled smear. A scribbled eyeball, the pupil is replaced with a raw hunk of ground meat, to the left is text: "Are you trying to poison me?", the "trying" is larger than the other words. A thin scribbled smear. A pan of ground meat, it is burnt. A closer, scribbled drawing of the same pan of burnt meat. Three people sit at a table, plates of ground meat. Above them is text: "Is it cooked all the way through?" /End ID]
every day i see a New Flag for Identity "because the old one was made by a blah blah blah blah" and im just like. they're killing us. yes them too. they're killing all of us and you're arguing about what colors in what order lines should they be burning.
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at a certain point i think looking for problematic things makes you problematic
example: im a theater major at a college, we did a show recently which entailed one person writing a lot of stage names on a set piece (like a band signing the wall of a venue) and one signature- based on the name of a performer In The Script- was "SS". This set piece is seen and handled by dozens of people per day, including several professors. One day- weeks after it had been written- one person noticed and immediately informes everyone that it was an antisemetic dogwhistle. (This person is gentile. I am the only jew on campus.) Several people, including myself, responded that "oh. yeah, that is isnt it? i totally forgot, anyways..." and attempted to move on, but were not allowed to as this person called over the person who wrote it. this event ruined that person's day, I had to spend the rest of the night convincing them they weren't an unforgivable antisemite, but that's not what this is about.
That person later made a series of holocaust jokes. in front of me. as i expressed that it made me uncomfortable. This is clearly not someone who actually cares about jews or jewish comfort. this was not a well meaning quiet mention.
Even before he made holocaust jokes, I knew that he made me uncomfortable after that event. Seeing something like that and immediately seeing nazism, to me, makes you seem like a nazi. If you look at the world and only see bigotry before what it actually is, I do not trust that you aren't a bigot.
Keeping an eye out to keep yourself and others safe is one thing. always and exclusively seeing hate is a red flag.
lowkey i'd have a lot less intrusive thoughts about coming across as a sexual harassment if i was actually taught how to recognize sexual harassment........................................
so tired of people saying abrahamic religions when they only have experience with christianity like No i don't think you know how every jewish islamic AND christian lives and thinks??? and actually its very unlikely that all those people of all those faiths agree on those same things like you for some fucking reason think
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been talking to some friends about how i think they would benefit from a mobility aid and its becoming increasingly clear like Oh. you don't See me as a Human who you Respect. that's why you don't want to Help YourSelf. you fear being One Of Me. OkaY. Very Cool.
this might be bs but i think having different periods and classes each that last like an hour and going between them thoughout the day and then transitioning to the job space where you are doing one same thing for 8 hours per day is not good or fun and there's gotta be a better way to prepare us and our attention span for extended times of doing one thing
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a part of me hates the word neurodivergent. beyond that it's increasingly unclear what it actually means, it feels so... minimalizing. it feels like you're scared of being disabled. it has the same feeling as when people only focus on the cute aesthetic parts of autism and not the fact that it can be crippling. it feels like you're forgetting that adhd actually makes a lot of life harder, it's not just a little quirky, it's a disability. it disables you.
if you prefer the term neurodivergent like, fine, idc, this is not the most important thing going on rn in the world, or even in the nd community, you aren't a bad person for using it. but for the love of god remember you're disabled. and that's ok.
